February 12th

[Goobersmooch]

Hi Guys,

It will be the one year anniversary of when my husband raped me. I am having so many nightmares and can't stop thinking about it. I was doing good not thinking about it until this last week. My co-workers started asking me some questions about my sex life (female friends nothing harrasing or anything) they are not christians and they were just curious because of my husbands size how we had sex. I told them we really don't. They kept pushing me until I finally told them I don't want to be in the situation where he can force me again to have sex with him. That has triggered so many emotions I don't want to go through and feel right now. I have NOONE to talk to about this. Noone understands what im going through and people act funny when you talk about it. I feel so alone. I'm so ashamed of my life. Thanks for listening to me vent. The good news is he works that night and I wont have t sleep in the same bed with him. Please pray for me. I am bi-polar and this is starting to bring some bad thoughts into my head again. I am on medication but this rape anniversary is triggering depression for some reason. Weird thing is I go back to the psychiatrist on 2-13 so If I can make it til then that would be good.

 

[LazeyWinde]

*Hugs* My PM box is always open. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

 

[lostndown]

hey honey
my 1 yr anniversary since i was raped is coming up too, on feb. 13. please feel free to pm me. im here for u. i am a good friend and listener. we'll get thru this

hugs

 

[Goobersmooch]

That's terrible lost. I'm so sorry to hear that. What a terrible anniversary to share with someone, but at least I know I am not alone and there is someone else who understands how I feel.

 

[Taylor43]

Big Hugs i am so sorry. I am praying for you

 

[shazabella]

My first anni is on the 18-19th of Feb

- Shaz

 

[LazeyWinde]

Goober I see that your anniversary is one week away now... *Hugs* I hope that your depression aint getting worse still and that it goes well with your psychiatrist.

 

[tapero]

Thread temporarily closed for staff review.

 

[Akathist]

The thread is now being reopened.

Please remember to keep your posts on topic to the OP.

The topic of this thread is how to offer support for a woman who was raped by her husband and is facing the anniversary of that event.

This is not a place to debate about anything.

 

[lilygrace]

Will be praying for both of you. Anniversaries are tough, and often folks don't know what to say or how to respond, I think. I try to remind myself that they do care, they just may not know how best to do it. It is isolating though to feel as though we are not understood. I am glad that those who post here do understand. Will pray for all with feb anniversaries.

Goobersmooch, it is the 12th here already (in Aust we are ahead of you timezone wise). I am really hoping that this will be posted before you wake up and that you can start your day logging into CF and knowing you are thought of and cared about right from the word "go" today. Will pray that people who you speak to about it today will have wisdom and love in their responses.
Lilygrace.

 

[Mr.Cheese]

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[BelindaP]

I'm thinking of you today.

 

[Taylor43]

keeping you in my prayers

 

[Goobersmooch]

I'm sorry I haven't come back until now. When they closed my thread I thought I did something wrong. I came back today because I have been feeling a little better now. I guess I made it through the bad day. I just pushed through without thinking about it. I have isolated myself again so as k=not to be hurt by other people. Which isn't good. I lost my job on 2-6 and so I am unemployed again which always creates so much stress for me because of my husband. He pressures me to get a job immediatly and now something new has come up. I have been on a few interviews but my background shows something new in it from 10 years ago. I bound a check in 97 and all of a sudden it is showing on my background check and I cant seem to get a job. I'm stressed and I have the flu. The anniversary was small compared to what I'm facing now. I think I am just screwed up. Thank you all for your prayers on that day. I cannot tell you how much they were felt. I did make it through the day without too many tears and amazingly I was not suicidal at all! My psychiatrist appointment was wonderful. I have been having anxiety attacks and I was able to get a new prescription. I am blessed to be on this free insurance for my bi-polar. Anyways, i will stop rambling for now. Thank you all.

 

[LazeyWinde]

*Hugs Goober* I hope you can get a new job soon and that you're feeling better.
I'm glad your appt went well.

 

[Goobersmooch]

Thank you Lazey. I appreciate everyone here. I have never been judged and always felt the love of Christ.




Melanie