Fear of the Unpardonable Sin

[Blade]

Yeah someone else said.. this was said last week and then before that I believe. Its NOT that easy. God KNOWS about the "FLESH". And the MOMENTS in which we say and then even DO THINGS...based on FLESH. One has to KNOW that you KNOW that you KNOW what your doing. And if you just asked HERE alone.. just the people that post.. WHAT IS THIS SIN? You wont get one answer....

I like.. saying NO to Jesus as lord... this can not ever be forgiven. Not saying that was it.. I am saying I LOVE that one. Say you DONT forgive your brother/sister.. so the WORD says God will not forgive you.. you pass away (nice way of saying DIE). That did not, does not have POWER over the BLOOD of a GOD that died for ALL SINS! Do you think you DONT go to heaven? To ADD..the word says we all have sin.. if we say we dont we deceive our selfs and the truth is not in us.

My point is.. NO ONE gets from HERE to HEAVEN..SPOTLESS SINLESS.. the ONLY way that happens is.. YOU aka FLESH.. pass THROUGH YESHUA.. PRAISE GOD GLORY TO JESUS.. and enter in.. you are in right standing because of JESUS!

So.. to wonder.. to doubt.. if maybe you might have in some way.. could have.. yeah.. no you didnt.. you would KNOW and you would not be here asking..

 

[William3]

Just a question for all. Can blasphemy be commited in though? What if you though it, but don't mean it?

 

[aiki]

Just a question for all. Can blasphemy be commited in though? What if you though it, but don't mean it?

Why fear that you have blasphemed? You have. Everyone has. Think about it for a moment: What could be more blasphemous than putting ourselves in the position God ought rightly to occupy? But this is what is at the core of all our sin: We have placed ourselves above God. We love ourselves more than we love Him. We are on the throne of our lives where God ought to sit. This is blasphemy of the highest order! And we're all guilty of it.

Here's the incredible thing, though: God loves us anyway. He knows we are self-centered, and rebellious, and blasphemous by nature and yet He still sent His Son to die on a cross for us to pay the penalty of our sin that we might become His sons and daughters! Why, then, are you fussing over whether or not you've committed blasphemy in your thoughts? We all have! It's what Christ died on the cross to redeem us from! And redeemed we are, if we have trusted in Christ as our Saviour and submitted ourselves to him as our Lord. Why, then, be anxious over this particular sin of blasphemy? It is at the root of all our sin - the sin for which, because of Christ, we have been forgiven.

So, relax. Stop being driven by your fear and the selfishness that lays beneath your fear. Love God. Settle into His awesome goodness and grace. God's not out to get all blasphemers; He's out to save them.

 

[Bob2018]

Why fear that you have blasphemed? You have. Everyone has. Think about it for a moment: What could be more blasphemous than putting ourselves in the position God ought rightly to occupy? But this is what is at the core of all our sin: We have placed ourselves above God. We love ourselves more than we love Him. We are on the throne of our lives where God ought to sit. This is blasphemy of the highest order! And we're all guilty of it.

Here's the incredible thing, though: God loves us anyway. He knows we are self-centered, and rebellious, and blasphemous by nature and yet He still sent His Son to die on a cross for us to pay the penalty of our sin that we might become His sons and daughters! Why, then, are you fussing over whether or not you've committed blasphemy in your thoughts? We all have! It's what Christ died on the cross to redeem us from! And redeemed we are, if we have trusted in Christ as our Saviour and submitted ourselves to him as our Lord. Why, then, be anxious over this particular sin of blasphemy? It is at the root of all our sin - the sin for which, because of Christ, we have been forgiven.

So, relax. Stop being driven by your fear and the selfishness that lays beneath your fear. Love God. Settle into His awesome goodness and grace. God's not out to get all blasphemers; He's out to save them.

I'm so scared I've committed this sin i was baptised 5 months ago and fell into sin which i know i was forgiven, but it was a hard time none the less i felt chastised. Afterwards i felt a real sense if godly sorrow for 3 weeks i was doing so well then suddenly my faith hit a low maybe because I revisted some of the web pages about my sin maybe.. and for days if not weeks i was so up and down and thought I was under attack so I blurted out I cast you out satan I felt a weird wobble in my head and shiver now Im scared I have crossed the line. An hour later when I thought about what I said and thought about that sin i prayed. But in no way in my heart was I attributing it to the holy spirit.. But those clumsy words came out none the less. I had been up and down for a couple of weeks one day I'd seem to be doing ok another not so good. I live only in fear now feel like jesus and holy spirit has left me..

 

[stuart lawrence]

I'm so scared I've committed this sin i was baptised 5 months ago and fell into sin which i know i was forgiven, but it was a hard time none the less i felt chastised. Afterwards i felt a real sense if godly sorrow for 3 weeks i was doing so well then suddenly my faith hit a low maybe because I revisted some of the web pages about my sin maybe.. and for days if not weeks i was so up and down and thought I was under attack so I blurted out I cast you out satan I felt a weird wobble in my head and shiver now Im scared I have crossed the line. An hour later when I thought about what I said and thought about that sin i prayed. But in no way in my heart was I attributing it to the holy spirit.. But those clumsy words came out none the less. I had been up and down for a couple of weeks one day I'd seem to be doing ok another not so good. I live only in fear now feel like jesus and holy spirit has left me..

A wise Christian once said to me:
If you fear you have committed the unpardonable sin, you haven't

 

[aiki]

I'm so scared I've committed this sin

And what about what I told you in my last post to you? Sounds like you're just ignoring it entirely. Why start a thread when you won't consider the responses you get?

Afterwards i felt a real sense if godly sorrow for 3 weeks i was doing so well then suddenly my faith hit a low maybe because I revisted some of the web pages about my sin maybe.. and for days if not weeks i was so up and down and thought I was under attack so I blurted out I cast you out satan I felt a weird wobble in my head and shiver now Im scared I have crossed the line. An hour later when I thought about what I said and thought about that sin i prayed. But in no way in my heart was I attributing it to the holy spirit.. But those clumsy words came out none the less. I had been up and down for a couple of weeks one day I'd seem to be doing ok another not so good. I live only in fear now feel like jesus and holy spirit has left me..

Do you really think God is oblivious to all of this? Do you honestly think He isn't fully aware of all the silliness you've described here? He isn't like you: He doesn't vacillate and shift about emotionally like you do; He isn't fretting constantly about whether or not you really meant what you said; He isn't confused and uncertain about your heart, about your deepest motives for wanting to be a Christian. He knows exactly what the truth is about you, top to bottom, inside and out.

Look, the First and Great Commandment isn't "Don't blaspheme the Holy Spirit,"; it's "Love God with all of your being." (Matthew 22:36-38) Are you obeying this most important command? Your fear indicates that you aren't. Love casts out fear, the Bible says. (1 John 4:18) The simplest, best remedy to your fear about blaspheming the Spirit is to obey the First and Great Commandment. When you are loving God with all of your being, you won't have any room to fear Him; when you are loving God with all of your being, joy and peace will fill your mind, not constant worry about whether or not you've stepped wrong. Will you take this advice or just continue to anxiously obsess? Do you really want peace?

Ephesians 3:17-19
17 that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; that you, being rooted and grounded in love,
18 may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and height--
19 to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.

 

[JacksBratt]

Satan is the great accuser... anyone paranoid of committing the unforgivable sin.......hasn't.

It is Satan "accusing" you.... Rebuke him and get to your bible.

 

[Bob2018]

Sorry im new on here and im not great with words. I know alot of people say if you care or fear that you have then you haven't but surely those that have committed this sin would still know that they have? I know there are dozens of different interpretations out there, But mark 3:30 says because they said he has an unclean spirit ..? Isnt that the main verse? I worry mostly because the feeling i got after was weird I've had a week off work thinking about this. I love jesus he has been my life since I found him I feel incapacitated.

 

[Serving Zion]

Sorry im new on here and im not great with words. I know alot of people say if you care or fear that you have then you haven't but surely those that have committed this sin would still know that they have? I know there are dozens of different interpretations out there, But mark 3:30 says because they said he has an unclean spirit ..? Isnt that the main verse? I worry mostly because the feeling i got after was weird I've had a week off work thinking about this. I love jesus he has been my life since I found him I feel incapacitated.

I wish you could rejoice in the reassurances you are receiving! .. "O Lord, you will not despise a humble and contrite heart." (Psalms 51:17).

To have committed this blasphemy of The Holy Spirit, you need to have chosen to oppose The Holy Spirit. It can't happen accidentally, He would certainly caution you of the dangers of that path. Can you explain to me what caused you to rebuke this voice? .. Your disposition does not resemble a person who is resolved against Him. If you can give more information about what happened, this will help us to identify if it was a holy spirit or an unholy one that you rebuked.

Also, I would like to welcome you to CF! .. Why not pop along to the official Introduce Yourself Forum and give some brief testimony of how you came to be with us today

.. and I would like to recommend this booklet as a way to check your doctrines against scripture, as St. Paul said to test all things and hold fast to the good. There's a lot of rubbish floating around out there. Ponder the picture on the opening page, see the man who is trying to get to the truth of Christ: he has to get through a maze of false teachings that have been happening for 2,000 years! This is why Jesus said "I am the way, the truth and the life". It is essential that we have a real relationship with Him, and learn to recognise His voice, not just taking one particular role model for our guide (Matthew 23:8-10).

 

[aiki]

Sorry im new on here and im not great with words. I know alot of people say if you care or fear that you have then you haven't but surely those that have committed this sin would still know that they have?

As I already pointed out to you, every single person who lives to an age of accountability is guilty of blasphemy. The core of what separates us from God, the core of our sin, is that we put ourselves where God should be. We live for ourselves rather than for Him. We steer our own course rather than yielding to God's control and leading. How is this not the height of blasphemy? But every sinner is guilty of this sort of sin. Nonetheless, because of what Christ did on the cross, God forgives us of all of our sin. No sin is greater than God's grace. No sin exceeds the perfect atonement for sin Jesus made on the cross. You don't seem to believe it. Why is that?

I love jesus he has been my life since I found him I feel incapacitated.

You say you love Jesus but you don't seem to think he loves you. Why is that? Is your love for him greater than his love for you? How could that be? Isn't Christ's love for us infinite and perfect? That's what the Bible says...

 

[Bob2018]

In reply to you zion I certainly have never been resolved against him. And I do believe it aiki none the less It feel like i insulted the holy spirit the shiver that feeling in my head, i dont feel him like i did before. what I said feels and reads like an eternal sin? I know christ love for people is beyond measure to lay down his life for us people that don't deserve it that is love. But is christ blood above an eternal sin? Even if it wasn't done or aimed intentionally could I have misinterpreted the way he refines and works on my conscience that's another worry also because of my sorrow for my previous sin which was hard going, I'm worried that I wasn't prepared for another round of up and down with my emotions and altho I didn't want or ever mean to aim it at him maybe I misapplied his work to be.. I don't know. I was doing fine felt flying in the spirit for maybe 3 weeks then I came across an article linking wilful sin to the unpardonable and it put me right down, the peace I felt and faith I took my forgiveness on at a certain point in time for previous sin was a bit in question that evening. The next morning i think., I woke up at 230 am with a horrid foreboding feeling everything seemed off, i really didn't feel good at all. I had to take day off work. Since then ive been up and down in my mind till the day in question. On that day i woke up fretting that morning dont know why. Also I play football and twice mid game i came over with depression out of no where. Many things like this happened between those times. After reading the parable of the strong man which I've never quite understood fully, doesnt the holy spirit or jesus come bind the strong man satan plunder him so only one is at work within. Isn't that a 'play' on the previous verses?

 

[Arsenios]

I'm so scared I've committed this sin i was baptised 5 months ago and fell into sin which i know i was forgiven, but it was a hard time none the less i felt chastised. Afterwards i felt a real sense if godly sorrow for 3 weeks i was doing so well then suddenly my faith hit a low maybe because I revisted some of the web pages about my sin maybe.. and for days if not weeks i was so up and down and thought I was under attack so I blurted out I cast you out satan I felt a weird wobble in my head and shiver now Im scared I have crossed the line. An hour later when I thought about what I said and thought about that sin i prayed. But in no way in my heart was I attributing it to the holy spirit.. But those clumsy words came out none the less. I had been up and down for a couple of weeks one day I'd seem to be doing ok another not so good. I live only in fear now feel like jesus and holy spirit has left me..

Is your fear that you "took over" from the Holy Spirit His authority over Satan - Is it your fear that by doing this you have comitted the unforgivable sin? Because you said in your heart, while under a satanic attack: "I cast you out, Satan!"

In football, we call that a rookie mistake...

You are just beginning to learn what it means to be a Christian...
It is not all roses and dancing butterflies...
It is a struggle, and you find out what works and what doesn't...
You devise strategies against sin, and execute them...
And sometimes you overcome and sometimes you don't...
Sometimes demons will let you think something works, when it doesn't...
Only to hit you later when it will do them more good...
And sometimes you think something won't work because it didn't...
Maybe yes, maybe no...
That is why we have coaches who have had success...
Our coaches had coaches too...
Christ is the only one born out of the sky...
You and me, and the coaches - Out of the dirt...

So next time, when you are being assaulted, start saying this prayer:

"O Lord Jesus Christ...
Son of God...
Have Mercy on me...
The sinner!"

And keep on saying it...
Silently or softly on your tongue...
Until the attack stops...

Keep it to always be prayed...
In every circumstance...
It is how you can keep Jesus close to you...
No matter what, when or where...

You want these words on your tongue...
As you pass from this life...
You can pray them without ceasing...
Day and night in agony or joy...

So you are right -
You have no power to cast out Satan...
You are a baby in this Faith of Christ...
But Jesus Christ does...

And His Mercy will cast him out...
Or it will not cast him out...
Not your call...
But His Mercy is for you...

God Bless you!

Arsenios

 

[1am3laine]

To all that read this please help me! I've been through some rough times recently, and I looked to the Bible for comfort. Then I came across the verse mentioning the unpardonable sin. I liked to place verses about forgiveness as wallpaper on my phone. I searched for one on the internet to find the unpardonable sin. I was concerned that I had done so due to curses against God that had crossed my mind. I later found out that what had crossed my mind was not the unpardonable sin. Fast forward about 2 weeks (my time may be off). I decided to look at the passage again for reasons I can't remember. I read the passage, and in my stupidity did not take the warning seriously. Curses once again swarmed my mind (I honestly do not remember what all they were, but I'm scared it could have been thoughts similar to what the Pharisees said). I remember having an absolute feeling of despair come across be, and I became upset once again. After this I can remember feeling this sudden strange feeling that I can't describe. Was that the Holy Spirit leaving me? I want to be forgiven more than anything, but can I? I'm afraid it was me that thought those thoughts because I wasn't thinking strait for a bit. I fear that I'm my stupidity I though the unpardonable sin. This sparked a dark spiral of thoughts in my head. I met with the youth minister at the church, and we discussed it. He said that the unpardonable sin was attributing the work of Jesus to Satan. I agree with this definition of blasphemy of the Holy Spirit. I remember I felt relieved by his words, and went on; however, the worry was not all gone. Again with the dark spiral of evil thoughts. One thing that particularly crossed my mind was (I do not want to state the first thought it because the phrase alone scares me) "Insert phrase that says the glory of God was actually the glory of.......you can guess" then I thought "maybe it was" then "oh gosh no no no that's not true". Then despair came across me. Again the dark spiral of bad thoughts. To this day I have not found genuine lasting peace. I don't remember the vast majority of my thoughts, but I'm almost certain that one of those evil thoughts was me commiting the unpardonable sin. I still despise myself to this day for my stupidity in that moment following my reading of the unpardonable sin chapter a 2nd time. How could I have been so stupid as to loose reverence for the word of God, and not take it seriously. I am almost certain that because of this I have committed the unpardonable sin. For the past 9 months or so I have been living in a constant state of fear that I committed the unpardonable sin. I can't believe I thought those things, and I hate myself for it. I'm afraid what I did was kinda intentional (but without meaning). Let me say I do not agree with those thoughts, but I'm afraid I allowed them to enter my mind because I was just plain stupid (or done in the heat of the moment). Honestly I'm not sure if I knew 100% what I was actually doing. I just kinda happened. I didn't think about it. I've been researching this topic a lot, and I have come across so many interpretations. I do agree with the idea that the unpardonable sin is giving Satan credit for God's work. I am terrified, and scared out of my mind. Not a day has gone that I haven't worried about it. I've lost my peace of mind, been depressed, and most importantly I'm afraid of my spiritual condition. To this day I'm having crazy thoughts, and I'm scared I'm entertaining them. I also don't feel convicted like I use to (if at all). Or is my fear of committing it conviction? I don't agree with my sin by an means, so don't get me wrong their. I'm also having a hard (if not impossible) time feeling God's presence. I have spoken with the head pastor of our church, and he believes that if such a sin could be committed today that I have not committed it simply because I'm worried. He is also convinced that God has a big plan for me, but I'm afraid God has given up on me. Can I ever get out of this worry? Could this sin unsave me? Does it mean I wasn't saved to begin with? I want to come to Jesus more than anything, but I'm afraid he won't accept me. I'm afraid the desire to come to Christ is from me, and not the Holy Spirit. Have I committed the unpardonable sin? Do I have hope, or am I hopelessly condemned? Is the Lord going to reject me?

Those thoughts aren't yours unless you agree with them. Many people experience blasphemous thoughts.
We are the cast down imaginations that exalt itself against the knowledge of Christ. ( 2 Corinthians 10:5 )
The way we do that is to Speak against them in the name of JESUS.
You need to pray massively, fast, and get hands laid on you by Spirit filled people!
Overtime the thoughts will go away.
This link should help

The Secrets of The Gospel: How to overcome fear of Matt 12:31-32! <-- link here

 

[justme6272]

To all that read this please help me! I've been through some rough times recently, and I looked to the Bible for comfort. Then I came across the verse mentioning the unpardonable sin. I liked to place verses about forgiveness as wallpaper on my phone. I searched for one on the internet to find the unpardonable sin. I was concerned that I had done so due to curses against God that had crossed my mind. I later found out that what had crossed my mind was not the unpardonable sin. Fast forward about 2 weeks (my time may be off). I decided to look at the passage again for reasons I can't remember. I read the passage, and in my stupidity did not take the warning seriously. Curses once again swarmed my mind (I honestly do not remember what all they were, but I'm scared it could have been thoughts similar to what the Pharisees said). I remember having an absolute feeling of despair come across be, and I became upset once again. After this I can remember feeling this sudden strange feeling that I can't describe. Was that the Holy Spirit leaving me? I want to be forgiven more than anything, but can I? I'm afraid it was me that thought those thoughts because I wasn't thinking strait for a bit. I fear that I'm my stupidity I though the unpardonable sin. This sparked a dark spiral of thoughts in my head. I met with the youth minister at the church, and we discussed it. He said that the unpardonable sin was attributing the work of Jesus to Satan. I agree with this definition of blasphemy of the Holy Spirit. I remember I felt relieved by his words, and went on; however, the worry was not all gone. Again with the dark spiral of evil thoughts. One thing that particularly crossed my mind was (I do not want to state the first thought it because the phrase alone scares me) "Insert phrase that says the glory of God was actually the glory of.......you can guess" then I thought "maybe it was" then "oh gosh no no no that's not true". Then despair came across me. Again the dark spiral of bad thoughts. To this day I have not found genuine lasting peace. I don't remember the vast majority of my thoughts, but I'm almost certain that one of those evil thoughts was me commiting the unpardonable sin. I still despise myself to this day for my stupidity in that moment following my reading of the unpardonable sin chapter a 2nd time. How could I have been so stupid as to loose reverence for the word of God, and not take it seriously. I am almost certain that because of this I have committed the unpardonable sin. For the past 9 months or so I have been living in a constant state of fear that I committed the unpardonable sin. I can't believe I thought those things, and I hate myself for it. I'm afraid what I did was kinda intentional (but without meaning). Let me say I do not agree with those thoughts, but I'm afraid I allowed them to enter my mind because I was just plain stupid (or done in the heat of the moment). Honestly I'm not sure if I knew 100% what I was actually doing. I just kinda happened. I didn't think about it. I've been researching this topic a lot, and I have come across so many interpretations. I do agree with the idea that the unpardonable sin is giving Satan credit for God's work. I am terrified, and scared out of my mind. Not a day has gone that I haven't worried about it. I've lost my peace of mind, been depressed, and most importantly I'm afraid of my spiritual condition. To this day I'm having crazy thoughts, and I'm scared I'm entertaining them. I also don't feel convicted like I use to (if at all). Or is my fear of committing it conviction? I don't agree with my sin by an means, so don't get me wrong their. I'm also having a hard (if not impossible) time feeling God's presence. I have spoken with the head pastor of our church, and he believes that if such a sin could be committed today that I have not committed it simply because I'm worried. He is also convinced that God has a big plan for me, but I'm afraid God has given up on me. Can I ever get out of this worry? Could this sin unsave me? Does it mean I wasn't saved to begin with? I want to come to Jesus more than anything, but I'm afraid he won't accept me. I'm afraid the desire to come to Christ is from me, and not the Holy Spirit. Have I committed the unpardonable sin? Do I have hope, or am I hopelessly condemned? Is the Lord going to reject me?

For what it's worth, I heard a pastor's sermon not too long ago where he taught that it is impossible for a person living today to commit 'the unpardonable sin.' He said that the unpardonable sin was to have been there to watch Jesus perform miracles in the flesh and still not believe he was who he said he was. According to him, since none of us were alive back then to see it, we can't commit that sin. Granted, 5 different pastors will offer up 5 different opinions, but I'm just telling you what he said. I'm not telling you my opinion cause I haven't looked into it enough to have one, but I will eventually. I'm just passing on what ONE pastor said, again, for what it's worth. Another pastor said something very different in his sermon not long after the first guy I heard, so there ya go. Two different opinions being preaches within a short time of each other. Just something I offer for you to think about.

 

[Rebecca1993]

If you're still having problems with it, drop me over an email to rebeccajuster93@gmail.com. I managed to overcome the same predicament

 

[Andrew77]

To all that read this please help me! I've been through some rough times recently, and I looked to the Bible for comfort. Then I came across the verse mentioning the unpardonable sin. I liked to place verses about forgiveness as wallpaper on my phone. I searched for one on the internet to find the unpardonable sin. I was concerned that I had done so due to curses against God that had crossed my mind. I later found out that what had crossed my mind was not the unpardonable sin. Fast forward about 2 weeks (my time may be off). I decided to look at the passage again for reasons I can't remember. I read the passage, and in my stupidity did not take the warning seriously. Curses once again swarmed my mind (I honestly do not remember what all they were, but I'm scared it could have been thoughts similar to what the Pharisees said). I remember having an absolute feeling of despair come across be, and I became upset once again. After this I can remember feeling this sudden strange feeling that I can't describe. Was that the Holy Spirit leaving me? I want to be forgiven more than anything, but can I? I'm afraid it was me that thought those thoughts because I wasn't thinking strait for a bit. I fear that I'm my stupidity I though the unpardonable sin. This sparked a dark spiral of thoughts in my head. I met with the youth minister at the church, and we discussed it. He said that the unpardonable sin was attributing the work of Jesus to Satan. I agree with this definition of blasphemy of the Holy Spirit. I remember I felt relieved by his words, and went on; however, the worry was not all gone. Again with the dark spiral of evil thoughts. One thing that particularly crossed my mind was (I do not want to state the first thought it because the phrase alone scares me) "Insert phrase that says the glory of God was actually the glory of.......you can guess" then I thought "maybe it was" then "oh gosh no no no that's not true". Then despair came across me. Again the dark spiral of bad thoughts. To this day I have not found genuine lasting peace. I don't remember the vast majority of my thoughts, but I'm almost certain that one of those evil thoughts was me commiting the unpardonable sin. I still despise myself to this day for my stupidity in that moment following my reading of the unpardonable sin chapter a 2nd time. How could I have been so stupid as to loose reverence for the word of God, and not take it seriously. I am almost certain that because of this I have committed the unpardonable sin. For the past 9 months or so I have been living in a constant state of fear that I committed the unpardonable sin. I can't believe I thought those things, and I hate myself for it. I'm afraid what I did was kinda intentional (but without meaning). Let me say I do not agree with those thoughts, but I'm afraid I allowed them to enter my mind because I was just plain stupid (or done in the heat of the moment). Honestly I'm not sure if I knew 100% what I was actually doing. I just kinda happened. I didn't think about it. I've been researching this topic a lot, and I have come across so many interpretations. I do agree with the idea that the unpardonable sin is giving Satan credit for God's work. I am terrified, and scared out of my mind. Not a day has gone that I haven't worried about it. I've lost my peace of mind, been depressed, and most importantly I'm afraid of my spiritual condition. To this day I'm having crazy thoughts, and I'm scared I'm entertaining them. I also don't feel convicted like I use to (if at all). Or is my fear of committing it conviction? I don't agree with my sin by an means, so don't get me wrong their. I'm also having a hard (if not impossible) time feeling God's presence. I have spoken with the head pastor of our church, and he believes that if such a sin could be committed today that I have not committed it simply because I'm worried. He is also convinced that God has a big plan for me, but I'm afraid God has given up on me. Can I ever get out of this worry? Could this sin unsave me? Does it mean I wasn't saved to begin with? I want to come to Jesus more than anything, but I'm afraid he won't accept me. I'm afraid the desire to come to Christ is from me, and not the Holy Spirit. Have I committed the unpardonable sin? Do I have hope, or am I hopelessly condemned? Is the Lord going to reject me?

You know a long time ago I used to kind of think this way. I never was like petrified by it, or driving myself crazy with worry, but I did kind of think... what if I did X, and now I'm unpardonable?

I realized something important. The bottom line of this is basically this.... what kind of person is our G-d?

Do you believe that G-d has us walking along the edge of a cliff, just waiting for us to make one false step, and then over we go, and we're just doomed forever?

Or do you believe that G-d is the Shepherd, who seeks out the lost sheep, no matter where they go, and calls them back to the fold, ready to accept anyone who comes?

To determine which of those answers seems more likely, I would look to Jesus, and how he portrayed it. Remember the prodigal son? The boy who ran off, doing every possible offensive thing, committing every repulsive act possible, and then came to his senses, and returned home.

I think G-d is more like the Father running to the prodigal son, than the lord of the cliff waiting for me to miss a step and fall.

We should fear the Lord, there is no doubt. But I think we don't need to freak out about every possible error resulting in unpardonable doom.

Here's the other side.... if G-d is just pushing us along the cliff edge waiting for our inevitable doom.... then there is no point in believing in G-d. Not one of us will survive a G-d like that. So there is no point in worrying about it anymore, if that's how G-d operates.

That's not my Lord. That's not the G-d of the Bible that I know.