I just recently joined a substance abuse program through my childhood Baptist church. In the program we are learning to guard our hearts and beware of the situations that we allow ourselves into that would hinder our sobriety and progress. In my tiny family the closest ones are my sister and her husband and 3 small children. They're all smokers drinkers and profane, always fighting and bickering and swearing and yelling. Mom is close by, living at the other end of the city. She's not a user, she is just very controlling. When she says jump, she wants you asking how high. She knows my situation but pressures me continually to go and be with the family. I'm currently under "construction" by The Holy Spirit, He is in the process of making wonderful changes in my head and heart. This situation is killing me. I'm in the process of allowing The Holy Spirit to change my way of treating mom as my little mini god, and honoring My Real God Jesus Christ. I am to honor mother and father. Nowhere in the bible does it mention worshipping them. She is joyful to inform me that I am a horrible person for not spending time with the family particularly the kids. What am I to do? 
I just don't know what to do or feel anymore... Am I wrong to not want to be around the very stuff that I'm struggling so hard to be rid of forever?
I just don't know what to do or feel anymore... Am I wrong to not want to be around the very stuff that I'm struggling so hard to be rid of forever?
