Falling off the wagon again...

If you will google or otherwise search "Alcoholics Anonymous Buddhism" you'll find several references that say they are consistent with each other. You do not have to believe in a personal god to go to AA, and many Buddhists have found it works for them.
You don't give your nationality; but AA is pretty much worldwide, with websites for most nations. There is probably a contact number in your local phone book.

Please follow up on this, Shakenfruit. You're not doing very well on your own - neither did the millions of us who got sober through AA. I think AA will surprise you. The meetings are not what most outsiders expect!

From what I have read from your post is very good actually. You are finding that you can't do it alone, and are searching for support.

Any AA meeting, unless it is a christian based progam is open to any belief, ( something that is bigger than ourself).

Bill Wilson ( the founder of AA) was a christian, but wanted to reach out to all types of faiths.

Recovery does not mean that our life situations will go away, it teaches us how to respond in a healthy way. We have no control over People, Places, or Things. We learn how to find the wisdom and strength though our Higher Power as well as with others who suffer from really the same things we do.

In time we find that working on ourself ( talking, reading, searching ect.) our problems are not as big and overwhelming as we thought.
If they are to much to handle, we have a group of people to hold us up, until we can get passed them. Its called baby steps. We also can have a sponser, who we learn to trust and talk about everything with. So much healing is involved.
We as addicts want to avoid pain, and look for a quick fix so we don't have to feel it. Learning the tools of recovery will help you work through the painful things and in turn you will find that instead of numbing them you are dealing with them.

There are online meetings, and chat lines with people all over the world. Google a online AA meeting, below is a link to one that I like. Check out the meeting times, as the chat itself can just be a bunch of goofing around.

www.RecoveryChat.com

In time you may find that you would like to go to a live meeting in your area, find a sponser and get involved.

God Bless and praying for you.

The only requirement for membership in AA is a desire to stop drinking. It's true, just by the prevalence of Christianity in this country and the fact that many meetings are at churches, that many meetings have a Christian air to them; but I know of groups that are composed solely of gays and Native Americans.
(Just not that many Buddhists here in Southern Minnesota.)
My first AA group met in a room of the Addictive Treatment Unit of a VA hospital and included men and women with over 20 years of sobriety. There was no specifically Christian focus, though some of the old timers were obvious churchgoers. Most of us were newcomers, patients on the unit. This might be a good place to start for your first "non-virtual" meeting.
I had always imagined that AA meetings meant a bunch of guys clinging desparately to sobriety, hanging on for dear life; and was surprised to find, instead, a bunch of relaxed and happy people, laughing at each other's "war stories" from those old days of stinkin' thinkin' and stinkin' drinkin'.
Keep us posted on what you've done so far and what your reactions were. We care. We're here.

I haven PMed you. I hope it helps.


Praying for you,
keeperOFsecrets92885

Remember One Day At A Time is sometimes One Moment At A Time. Your doing great keep it up. And it will get better. It looks as though you are in good hands.

Pt. 1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6o5DfEumQRM

Pt. 2

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GSTFGpAq-BM

Pt. 3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FT1WULcvh1E

Pt. 4

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tvgtdw3xqr4

I am in a similar position. I am a christian but somewhere in the last year or 2 I have gotten so far from God. On top of that my drinking has surfaced again. I don't drink everyday but when I do drink I cannot stop. It literally takes days out of my life to recover. I am married with 2 children and my wife is very patient with me but I just feel horrible physically and emotionally for what I am doing. I used to attend a support group called addicts victorious but I am so ashamed to show up there. I need help, I guess this is a start as I have not talked to anyone about it.

AA is probably the best place to start, Rocko. We were all ashamed at our first meeting, until we noticed that these guys and gals were there to care, not to judge.
Give them a call, and keep us posted how it's going.

I might be free from alcohol, but for all my life I had a drug addiction problem. It finally took my wife telling me that she was going to leave me if I didn't get help. I found a wonderful support group called Celebrate Recovery which is a Christian based recovery group. They cover all addictions and co- dependancies. If there is one in your area (usually at a local church) I would strongly recommend it. There you can pray, read scripture and deal with your addictions.

HR