falling deeper and deeper.....

[amy2003]

ok, i feel like i am falling deeper and deeper into this bottomless pit, that never ends. i really dont know what to do. all i want to do is sleep, cry, and scream. my depression has turned into anxiety/panic too. i have probably felt like this for 3 years now and i keep pretending that i am happy and things are ok, because i feel noone else gets it or even cares. we dont have alot of money and i dont have medical insurance so going to the doctor is OUT OF THE QUESTION. the only reason i get up everday is because of my son who is 6. please help me to understand this depression/anxeity.
Pray for me to overcome this battle. because i dont know what is next............

 

[Serving4Christ]

Amy,

You are not alone! You're not hurting alone. Depression is a very serious illness. When you say that your 6-year old son is the only reason you get up...I'm hurting for you because I understand SO MUCH how you feel. There's times when it hurts me to breath. Seriously, it hurts to take a deep breath because my mood is so depressed at times.

Amy, you will never begin to move past this depression until you do something to fight back at it. I'm learning that forgiveness is a great tool to combat depression. I don't know what's going on in your life or the events leading up to the depression, but somewhere along the way you hit a brick wall that stopped you in your tracks and took something very important to you. It took your happiness. It took your peace. And it left you wanting and needing more from life.

Look back on all the things that have happened to you and start to forgive them. You CAN forgive, it's difficult to forget.

Find comfort in hobbies. Get out and socialize with other Christians. Find a good friend to help walk you through this. Keep sharing your feelings and opening up. It helps to talk this stuff out.

Find a program within your state that will assist you in getting medical care. YOUR CHILD NEEDS MOM. He don't need depressed mom. He needs loving and caring mom with her full attention on him, not her depression. It's hard to parent with depression. It's hard to get up in the morning let alone deal with the needs of a child, but priorities dictate you MUST.

God gave you the responsibility to take care of HIS child. I see myself as a babysitter to God's children. I was given a daunting task. I'm suppose to get my children prepared to one day meet their Father.

You have to take care of yourself. Find a good christian counselor at your church or another church who has that service. Most places are free! No money needed.

Amy, know that you're not alone. You don't have to carry this alone. My PM is always available. I hurt with you.

In Love,

Dan

 

[cjhenson]

Amy...I am always here with you and you know I am always a phone call away...please remember that you can get thru this and you will get this with Gods help. He is always there for you no matter what..so be sure and go to him for support and love....