Extremely Broken and Nervous

[All Moving Parts]

I've just read Luke 14:26, which describes my worst nightmare...


How could I ever give up my family? I want to say I could and would do anything for the LORD, but...this one...I can't imagine myself doing such a thing. To abandon my family without saying a word to them. I don't know what to do. This one is...honestly harming my faith. I feel as if God is going to make me tear my family apart. I thought I heard God tell me he'd never make me leave my family, but I'm thinking it was my head telling me that. I love them so much, and I'd do anything to follow God...at least I think I would... I've already given up many sins and I feel slightly empty in giving certain things up. Leaving my family...I'd just...I'd be ruined. I'd be gone. There would be nothing, and I think it would only serve to rip my faith to shreds. I don't know what to do... I'm worried my unwillingness and such would cause me to go to hell. It's just that the thought of my loved ones wondering where I went and why I left them makes my heart scream and holler out in immense pain.

 

[PropheticTimes]

"The point of the list is that no other relationship is first for a disciple. "Hate" is used figuratively and suggests a priority of relationship. Jesus is first. To follow Jesus means to follow Jesus, not anyone or anything else. A disciple is a learner, and the primary teacher in life is Jesus. This total loyalty is crucial, given the rejection and persecution that lie ahead. If his followers care more about family than about Jesus, when families are divided under pressure of persecution, they will choose against Jesus." (https://www.biblegateway.com/resources/commentaries/IVP-NT/Luke/Pure-Discipleship)

It means that we are to love the Lord more than anything, or anyone, else. This goes along with Matthew 22 -

34Hearing that Jesus had silenced the Sadducees, the Pharisees got together. 35One of them, an expert in the law, tested him with this question: 36“Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?”

37Jesus replied: “ ‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’c 38This is the first and greatest commandment. 39And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’d 40All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.”

 

[Johnnz]

I agree totally with the above post.

John
NZ