I need some prayer help. I've already had some prayer, but can use all the help I can get. I'm getting strong resistance as I try to write this, making this a challenge (including some slight attacks of biting or pain).
About maybe a few weeks back, I was tempted by an old recurring sin habit and gave in again. Since that time I've been hearing demonic voices on a daily basis. With some exceptions, these demonic voices are being projected from other "live" sound sources. (I don't have a mental problem).
Initially I was just hearing these demonic voices through my bedroom fan (which I normally use to sleep). This has included demonic growls, screams, hissing, vicious lion like roaring and sinister voices. When I turned the fan off, the voices went.
What was just a sleep time event (or mostly sleep time) became an increasingly day and night occurance last week. This increase began around the same time I began to do some "house cleaning" and further increased as I sought for help.
Now I can hear demonic voices through almost any "live" or turned on sound source, the refrigerator, furnace registers, air purifiers, loud factory noise, the sound of running water (rivers, tap water, shower, toilet flush), television speakers, You Tube video's, even the sound of a car going by, etc. As strange as it is, these evil spirits are using different sounds to amplify their own voices, sometimes altering the sound that is already there.
This season in my life has drawn me closer to God and it's been a revelation to say the least. Hearing demonic voices that sound just like black metal, singing along with Kim Walker and Eric Clayton (of Saviour Machine). Hearing sinister cookie monster like voices from a river, mockingly chanting "There Is Power In The Name Of Jesus!" Confronting and rebuking demons in the shower, some responding in fear and violent temper tantrums, others in cool headed mocking and laughter. (I've felt very strong demonic temper tantrums and resistance while writing this very paragraph).
For the most part, I've been at peace through this, though it has it's trying moments. There has also been some special things that have happened in this time. Last Saturday, I wept for the first time about being molested when I was younger (something that was very unexpected). The following Sunday I began to feel a bit anxious, and got down in prayer, just pouring my heart out. It seemed like I really made a special connection with God at that moment. Unfortunately one night later I was briefly touched sexually by a demon, which made me feel very sensual driven. By the morning it had already tripped me up spiritually. Not to the point of pornography, but it was a step backward nethertheless. Just after I was really connecting with God, than that happens. That's actually my real concern now, that I would be able to stay completely free from sexual sin. I'm not sure if I will make it, but it's very important that I do.
Going back to my teenage years, I combined porn & sexual fantasy with the occult. But I didn't do that all the time. Many times I would repent of this and get back on the right track with God, only to go back to the sexual/occult stuff again and again. Gradually it became worse and worse, and it's the root of what I'm facing now. My involvment in the occult, is totally based on the sexual stuff. it was a very natural progression for me. So If I can be free in the sexual area, I will also be free from the occult. I want to stay free, not get any worse. This is the most important thing, even more important than freedom from these demonic voices.
Thanks in advance for your prayers.
About maybe a few weeks back, I was tempted by an old recurring sin habit and gave in again. Since that time I've been hearing demonic voices on a daily basis. With some exceptions, these demonic voices are being projected from other "live" sound sources. (I don't have a mental problem).
Initially I was just hearing these demonic voices through my bedroom fan (which I normally use to sleep). This has included demonic growls, screams, hissing, vicious lion like roaring and sinister voices. When I turned the fan off, the voices went.
What was just a sleep time event (or mostly sleep time) became an increasingly day and night occurance last week. This increase began around the same time I began to do some "house cleaning" and further increased as I sought for help.
Now I can hear demonic voices through almost any "live" or turned on sound source, the refrigerator, furnace registers, air purifiers, loud factory noise, the sound of running water (rivers, tap water, shower, toilet flush), television speakers, You Tube video's, even the sound of a car going by, etc. As strange as it is, these evil spirits are using different sounds to amplify their own voices, sometimes altering the sound that is already there.
This season in my life has drawn me closer to God and it's been a revelation to say the least. Hearing demonic voices that sound just like black metal, singing along with Kim Walker and Eric Clayton (of Saviour Machine). Hearing sinister cookie monster like voices from a river, mockingly chanting "There Is Power In The Name Of Jesus!" Confronting and rebuking demons in the shower, some responding in fear and violent temper tantrums, others in cool headed mocking and laughter. (I've felt very strong demonic temper tantrums and resistance while writing this very paragraph).
For the most part, I've been at peace through this, though it has it's trying moments. There has also been some special things that have happened in this time. Last Saturday, I wept for the first time about being molested when I was younger (something that was very unexpected). The following Sunday I began to feel a bit anxious, and got down in prayer, just pouring my heart out. It seemed like I really made a special connection with God at that moment. Unfortunately one night later I was briefly touched sexually by a demon, which made me feel very sensual driven. By the morning it had already tripped me up spiritually. Not to the point of pornography, but it was a step backward nethertheless. Just after I was really connecting with God, than that happens. That's actually my real concern now, that I would be able to stay completely free from sexual sin. I'm not sure if I will make it, but it's very important that I do.
Going back to my teenage years, I combined porn & sexual fantasy with the occult. But I didn't do that all the time. Many times I would repent of this and get back on the right track with God, only to go back to the sexual/occult stuff again and again. Gradually it became worse and worse, and it's the root of what I'm facing now. My involvment in the occult, is totally based on the sexual stuff. it was a very natural progression for me. So If I can be free in the sexual area, I will also be free from the occult. I want to stay free, not get any worse. This is the most important thing, even more important than freedom from these demonic voices.
Thanks in advance for your prayers.
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