What do you do when your mother is evil?
My mom once argued with me that a person does not have to love Jesus to get into heaven they just need to believe He is the Son of God. That is far from the truth for any that don't know. I don't want to mislead anyone.
I have found things very unsettling about my Mother. I am not trying to slander my Mother, I am well aware Of what God says about Such things. But I am looking for insight, some measure of understanding.
I start questioning if my Mom was saved after my first semester in Bible college. Something seemed off about her. When she began to argue that you did not need to Love Jesus, i understood then that she did not, I don't think she even knows Him. I wanted to know why she went to church though, what i found is she could not tell me one word what the preacher said, also she goes to Bible study. I called her one day after class and she said it was about Romans. I said what about Romans, She said you know Romans. I said yes i do, what about it though, she then became mad. It became clear to me she was going to church so people would say she was a good person.
Growing up my family fought all the time. I don't remember a time growing up when there was not yelling going on in our house, even on vacation. I was always told I was a bad kid, I did some bad things so I thought I was bad. Now that I am older and studied many religions and had many many years of education, even thought I don't write like I have above 3rd grade training
I do.
I can start to see the things my Mom did to our family. My Mom loves for everyone to be fighting. I see now how my Mom sowed seeds of discord in our family. It was not all her, my family has many issues, but she is at the center.
I could not figure out why my mom always brought up the past. Tonight I was shown truth and the reason why my Mom brings up the past. My Mom encourages me to speak bad about my other family members, she wants me to hate them she encourages Hate, because my Mom does not forgive, even after her mother has been dead for like 20 years she goes on and on about her and hates her to this day. So tonight I went off on a rage about my brother, with my Moms prompting, and at the end My mom was satisfied and say cheerfully well I have to go. I felt discussed with my self. Even while I was raging this voice(Jesus) kept saying to me, "This is not you""you don't mean any of this". Then I saw it. My Mom was leading me into hate, she wanted me to hate. She wants me to act badly so she can make her self look good.
I saw how as a kid I did this or that and they were not my ideas but my Moms. Me and my Dad hardly spoke to each other growing up because of my Mom. The things I thought about my Dad were untrue and came from my Mom. My Dad has issues, but nothing like my Mom said. The way I thought about things as a kid the way I acted was all my Mom's prompting. I would have never gotten out of it or seen it Had I not Been saved and Gotten away from her.
I feel like God has open my eyes. I don't want to speak to her, but when I had stopped speaking to her i started receiving Bible passage, I get daily passages in my email, about mercy, and to have mercy. I thought I should have mercy on my Mom so i did. I started speaking to her, but she is still trying to produce hate in me. It is like going head to head with a demon every time we talk.
So my question is how do I have mercy and deal with these attacks? Do I not deal with them give it all up to God? Do I try to reach her, teach her about Jesus. Do i pray and I have. Ok I got that one pray. How do I deal with the attacks?
thoughts?
My mom once argued with me that a person does not have to love Jesus to get into heaven they just need to believe He is the Son of God. That is far from the truth for any that don't know. I don't want to mislead anyone.
I have found things very unsettling about my Mother. I am not trying to slander my Mother, I am well aware Of what God says about Such things. But I am looking for insight, some measure of understanding.
I start questioning if my Mom was saved after my first semester in Bible college. Something seemed off about her. When she began to argue that you did not need to Love Jesus, i understood then that she did not, I don't think she even knows Him. I wanted to know why she went to church though, what i found is she could not tell me one word what the preacher said, also she goes to Bible study. I called her one day after class and she said it was about Romans. I said what about Romans, She said you know Romans. I said yes i do, what about it though, she then became mad. It became clear to me she was going to church so people would say she was a good person.
Growing up my family fought all the time. I don't remember a time growing up when there was not yelling going on in our house, even on vacation. I was always told I was a bad kid, I did some bad things so I thought I was bad. Now that I am older and studied many religions and had many many years of education, even thought I don't write like I have above 3rd grade training
I do.I can start to see the things my Mom did to our family. My Mom loves for everyone to be fighting. I see now how my Mom sowed seeds of discord in our family. It was not all her, my family has many issues, but she is at the center.
I could not figure out why my mom always brought up the past. Tonight I was shown truth and the reason why my Mom brings up the past. My Mom encourages me to speak bad about my other family members, she wants me to hate them she encourages Hate, because my Mom does not forgive, even after her mother has been dead for like 20 years she goes on and on about her and hates her to this day. So tonight I went off on a rage about my brother, with my Moms prompting, and at the end My mom was satisfied and say cheerfully well I have to go. I felt discussed with my self. Even while I was raging this voice(Jesus) kept saying to me, "This is not you""you don't mean any of this". Then I saw it. My Mom was leading me into hate, she wanted me to hate. She wants me to act badly so she can make her self look good.
I saw how as a kid I did this or that and they were not my ideas but my Moms. Me and my Dad hardly spoke to each other growing up because of my Mom. The things I thought about my Dad were untrue and came from my Mom. My Dad has issues, but nothing like my Mom said. The way I thought about things as a kid the way I acted was all my Mom's prompting. I would have never gotten out of it or seen it Had I not Been saved and Gotten away from her.
I feel like God has open my eyes. I don't want to speak to her, but when I had stopped speaking to her i started receiving Bible passage, I get daily passages in my email, about mercy, and to have mercy. I thought I should have mercy on my Mom so i did. I started speaking to her, but she is still trying to produce hate in me. It is like going head to head with a demon every time we talk.
So my question is how do I have mercy and deal with these attacks? Do I not deal with them give it all up to God? Do I try to reach her, teach her about Jesus. Do i pray and I have. Ok I got that one pray. How do I deal with the attacks?
thoughts?
