Everything keeps falling apart...

[DarkLegend28]

I feel like I cannot build up one meaningful thing in my life without it falling apart... I grew up being abused by my family and my classmates.. and now I dont even have a family and I do everything that I can to stick up for others and be the best that I can be... but everything that I do results in failure and hypocricy... I'm done fighting. I don't really have a reason to keep trying anymore.. even people on this site are attacking me for who i used to be... and they dont even see my struggles.. but i try to stay strong because others look up to me... but i am afraid that isnt the case anymore.. the truth is exposed... now hate fills in the gap... I just do not know what to do anymore..

 

[Johnnz]

You need to be scooped up, listened to, taken seriously, treated gently and loved wholeheartedly. This is meant to describe church. Hopefully there is such real a place near you. Alone you face almost insurmountable barriers. Trust, security,self confidence, even hope have all been crushed out of you. it will take the wise and gentle counsel of Jesus through one of his genuine followers to see you through your devastated life thus far.

I wish I could do more.

John
NZ

 

[Onlythingavailable]

There's only so much any human can do. If you do your best, but things still fall apart, it isn't really your fault. That's just the way it is because we are limited beings. Realizing our own limitations is important.

I'm sorry you've had such a rough time, not only in real life but also here on the forums. Try to remember, and this is something I often forget, that no matter how people treat you, the value of doing the right thing doesn't change. Standing up for others is still admirable, no matter how others treat you.

 

[Moriah_Conquering_Wind]

DarkLegend you know We love you right? You can PM anytime! (must buddy list to PM me, but I think we did that already?)

 

[ForAMomentIWillFly]

When you've given all you have, and it still crumbles, seek someone to help. If they don't come, try to preoccupy yourself. Hate leads to more pain, take my word on this.