Ever Wonder

[Daysoni]

Do you ever wonder if it you should just stay with your ED? Sometimes it just seems so hard to beat it. And when there is ao much going on that is stressful it's the only thing you can control. And the comfort is great to. I just wonder after fighting it for so long is this what is ment to be. If it isn't then why does it keep coming back? I'm really stuggling with with so much right now. And I'm afraid. I got scared the other day getting dressed i thought that I felt some fat. And now it's like you can see it. But I'm unsure is it just something I see or do others see it as well. I no I'm not happy at my weight or what I look like so I don't know what is true. I just don't feel that right now I have what I did to beat this. I'm starting to lose hope.

 

[madison1101]

I believe my eating disorder is the thorn in my flesh that Paul talks about in 2 Corinthians. It will always be with me, as a temptation when there is stress. That is why I learned coping skills and self-soothing techniques in treatment, to give me a choice when there is temptation to act on my eating disorder.

You have choices too. You can do self-soothing and learn to cope with stress. You can choose to believe your doctor and not the mirror. You eating disorder has caused you to not be able to see the real you. It is called distorted body image. You need someone to give you a reality check, and your doctor is the best qualified to do that.

If you cannot get therapy, at least see your medical doctor. If you can get therapy, ask your family doctor for a referral to someone who has experience with eating disorders.

Hugs,
Trish

 

[goldenviolet]

amen. it is a thorn. ... heh. ok, seriously. EDs aren't fixed permantely with alot of people. it remains a temptation and struggle.

instead of beating up yourself (fight this every inch!) ... learn to survive, thrive; and celebrate everything you do do right. from a snack to a meal. from conquering a compulsion to taking out the energy elsewhere. every hour is a step. just stay in that hour, or that day. don't lump it all together. don't worry ahead. stay in your moment.

Proverbs 17:1
Better is a dry morsel with quietness, Than a house full of feasting with strife.

better is a little morsel in your life than a big banquet with strife. this scripture does not refer to food, but uses it as a picture for us to see. in other words. the little things count. so count them.

blessing for you to give yourself and heart a break to refresh yourself and start over on a new path with your struggles. a blessing for lots of fellewship and encouragement, and a blessing for newly learned coping skills to help you manage.