Episode

[angelkiss]

I started getting a little more of my appetite back, but I am still not eating well. I have had two hours sleep in the last two days, and I looked in the mirror and wanted to cry. Then, I got angry, then I was just happy to be alive. Bipolar is not a fun roller coaster ride at all. I have been to numerous doctors and therapists. Been hospitalized seven times. Feel number eight coming fast. My husband is trying to understand, but even he don't understand. I don't even have a clue myself sometimes. I sure wouldn't expect others too. At least here, I know some of you know what I am going through. Right now, my mind is spinning so fast, I don't even know if I'm making sense or not. I just need to get it out. I don't want to blow for sure. I know I have dropped below 99 lbs, now. I can tell it in my clothes. I have to keep clothes of all sizes for my weight goes up and down as much as my mood swings. Only my weight stays down longer. I am seriously thinking about going back to the hospital again. I'm going to try and wait until the first of the year. I just hope I can hold off that long. I remember spending one Christmas in there. The beginning of this year, I spent my mom and dad's anniversary there. Seems like my worse episodes pick the worse times. Every time I look into the mirror, I feel worse. This is just the beginning of an episode. Please, if you get the chance, say a little prayer for me. God has kept me this far, and I want to continue to work for him. It's hard to bring others up when I'm a mess myself. Thanks in advance!!

 

[Jeshu]

It is going without sleep that is the biggest problem. If you want to stay out of the hospital till next year then you must get more sleep. Have you tried sleeping aids?

Be praying for you

 

[angelkiss]

Not sleeping is part of the episode. That's one of my first signs. My mood swings are getting more rapid, and my mind spins so fast I can't keep up with my thoughts. Sometimes, it takes forever just to get a prayer out, for I lose track of myself. I lose things easily, and I can't remember very well. Sleeping aids are in my meds, and I can't mix them. I'm not even supposed to mix cough syrup with my meds. I wish it was that easy. Thanks for your prayers.

 

[justafayes]

I started getting a little more of my appetite back, but I am still not eating well. I have had two hours sleep in the last two days, and I looked in the mirror and wanted to cry. Then, I got angry, then I was just happy to be alive. Bipolar is not a fun roller coaster ride at all. I have been to numerous doctors and therapists. Been hospitalized seven times. Feel number eight coming fast. My husband is trying to understand, but even he don't understand. I don't even have a clue myself sometimes. I sure wouldn't expect others too. At least here, I know some of you know what I am going through. Right now, my mind is spinning so fast, I don't even know if I'm making sense or not. I just need to get it out. I don't want to blow for sure. I know I have dropped below 99 lbs, now. I can tell it in my clothes. I have to keep clothes of all sizes for my weight goes up and down as much as my mood swings. Only my weight stays down longer. I am seriously thinking about going back to the hospital again. I'm going to try and wait until the first of the year. I just hope I can hold off that long. I remember spending one Christmas in there. The beginning of this year, I spent my mom and dad's anniversary there. Seems like my worse episodes pick the worse times. Every time I look into the mirror, I feel worse. This is just the beginning of an episode. Please, if you get the chance, say a little prayer for me. God has kept me this far, and I want to continue to work for him. It's hard to bring others up when I'm a mess myself. Thanks in advance!!

Dear Lord,, what a wonderful Savior you are!!

I pray for my sister...

you spoke to the winds, and they obeyed,, you spoke to the dead, they revived,, you gave eyes to the blind, gave hearing to the deaf,, showed mercy to the woman at the well and the one caught in the act of adultery... Lord,, so many things you have done and are doing,, as well as those things that are in progress.. yet, your eyes are on the sparrow,, the lilies in the field don't toil or spin,, what a wonderful loving Father,,,

Bless my sister,, speak peace to her,, comfort her,, console her,, this does NOT have the upper hand in her life,, though it seems so,, it's not true.. thank you for drs and meds to help,, but YOU are the GREAT PHYSICIAN... I agree with your believers and bind the hand of the enemy.. you said whatsoever you bind on earth shall be bound in heaven,, whatsoever we loose on the earth shall be loosed in heaven. We loose this sister... and believe you,, however long it takes,, we know you are God,, we know you are in control...

Bless her today,, calm the storm that rages within her,, minister to her body,, and give her a testamony of all you have done in her life,,use her to help someone else in despairation.. we thank you and believe you, In Jesus Name, Amen

 

[angelkiss]

Thanks so much. I really need that. God Bless You!

 

[GreyWolf]

Hey Angelkiss! I want you to know, I just said a prayer for you. Please don't feel bad about being in the hospital a lot, I've been in there eight times also. If a person is sick, they need the hospital- its nothing to be ashamed of. I think I may have sent you my e-mail address in a PM, so feel free to drop me a line if you think it would help to have someone to confide in off list. Please try to remember that God loves you and is there for you too.
GreyWolf

 

[angelkiss]

Thank you so much greywolf. I really appreciate the support. I'll be contacting you soon.

Hey Angelkiss! I want you to know, I just said a prayer for you. Please don't feel bad about being in the hospital a lot, I've been in there eight times also. If a person is sick, they need the hospital- its nothing to be ashamed of. I think I may have sent you my e-mail address in a PM, so feel free to drop me a line if you think it would help to have someone to confide in off list. Please try to remember that God loves you and is there for you too.
GreyWolf

 

[angelkiss]

I am still in the middle of my episode, but am coping a little better. Got to make an appointment with the doc. Am praying that he don't send me to the hospital, at least until after Christmas. That would make things even worse! I have had 3 hours sleep in two days. My appetite is still lousy, and my ups and downs are from one day to the other. Please, keep praying that God will see me safely through this and I will have a good recovery. Thanx!

 

[DLX]

praying!

 

[angelkiss]

Your prayers are appreciated!

praying!