Hey All,
I use to be an active memeber of this forum. Specificly this board, but haven't been on very much.. if at all this year. I don't know many of you, only bamboo_chicken & bubblefish really that are still here, as well as girls who are no longer a part of the forum.
But I wanted to come back and share with you something, because this is the place that i felt the most loved, accepted, supported for a long time. and listened to my pain when i couldn't find hope.
So, for starters. I am almost 11 months cut free.
Coming from where I was, so deep in despaire, not even being able to make it one day most of the time. Thats gotta mean something.
If you care to know the story behind the self harm, feel free to ask and I will share.
But just from that, you guys. Please know. There IS hope. No matter how dark the nights, how deep the pain. You have a loving God with you every single step of the way. He doesn't sleep, He doesn't go on holidays, He doesn't take breaks or forget about you. His there 24/7, no matter what you're going through. Don't hold it back from Him, He knows what's going on anyway.
Something that always kept me back from worship, was my injuries and scars. But i want you to know, Jesus came for the sick, the broken, the hurting, the lost. Jesus came for you & He came for me. If we had it all together, we wouldn't need His sacrifice.
God doesn't want you harming, because He loves you. But because you harm, doesn't change His love for you. He loves you just the same. With everything He is. Nothing that we do, can make He love us more & nothing you can do, will make Him love you less.
Four bible verses I find are amazing and end all of the doubts I have toward God or wondering why I have gone through the pain I have and relise how much He loves me.
-My grace is sufficent for you, for my power is made perfect in your weakness. 2 corinthians 12:9
-I will repay you the years the locuts have eaten. Joel 2:25
-For He does not willingly bring affliction or grief to the children of men. Lamentaitions 3:33
-Because by one sacrifice He has made perfect forever those who are being made Holy. Hebrews 10:14
I don't have things all together, i'm only just starting to deal with my pain, counselling starts in 2 weeks. But God does. He is the same, today, yesterday and tomorrow. I couldn't have the courage to finaly seek help without Him.
If you EVER need someone to talk to. I'm here and so is God. Hang in there. There is hope. *big hugs to all*
I use to be an active memeber of this forum. Specificly this board, but haven't been on very much.. if at all this year. I don't know many of you, only bamboo_chicken & bubblefish really that are still here, as well as girls who are no longer a part of the forum.
But I wanted to come back and share with you something, because this is the place that i felt the most loved, accepted, supported for a long time. and listened to my pain when i couldn't find hope.
So, for starters. I am almost 11 months cut free.
Coming from where I was, so deep in despaire, not even being able to make it one day most of the time. Thats gotta mean something.
If you care to know the story behind the self harm, feel free to ask and I will share.
But just from that, you guys. Please know. There IS hope. No matter how dark the nights, how deep the pain. You have a loving God with you every single step of the way. He doesn't sleep, He doesn't go on holidays, He doesn't take breaks or forget about you. His there 24/7, no matter what you're going through. Don't hold it back from Him, He knows what's going on anyway.
Something that always kept me back from worship, was my injuries and scars. But i want you to know, Jesus came for the sick, the broken, the hurting, the lost. Jesus came for you & He came for me. If we had it all together, we wouldn't need His sacrifice.
God doesn't want you harming, because He loves you. But because you harm, doesn't change His love for you. He loves you just the same. With everything He is. Nothing that we do, can make He love us more & nothing you can do, will make Him love you less.
Four bible verses I find are amazing and end all of the doubts I have toward God or wondering why I have gone through the pain I have and relise how much He loves me.
-My grace is sufficent for you, for my power is made perfect in your weakness. 2 corinthians 12:9
-I will repay you the years the locuts have eaten. Joel 2:25
-For He does not willingly bring affliction or grief to the children of men. Lamentaitions 3:33
-Because by one sacrifice He has made perfect forever those who are being made Holy. Hebrews 10:14
I don't have things all together, i'm only just starting to deal with my pain, counselling starts in 2 weeks. But God does. He is the same, today, yesterday and tomorrow. I couldn't have the courage to finaly seek help without Him.
If you EVER need someone to talk to. I'm here and so is God. Hang in there. There is hope. *big hugs to all*
So good to hear from you! 
