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[MemoriesXx]

i googled it, read a little bit about it and i know a little bit about the amygdala from psych at school too.

so i would be stupid for not wanting side effects and just being cautious?? sure. okay. >.<
and i don't take drugs. why would you jump to that conclusion?!
whatever. maybe it was best not coming here for advice.

thanks for everyones time.

 

[Criada]

Sweetheart, people are just sharing their experience and knowledge.
No-one thinks you are taking drugs, but it's an issue worth mentioning, just in case. Remember, we don't know you very well, and it often takes a while for people to be comfortable enough to share everything.

As for side effects, it's always wise to look into them, and your doctor should explain them to you. But usually the low possibility of serious side effects doesn't offset the benefit you can get from medication.

Hang in there, sweetie, and don't leave, please?

 

[Mayflower1]

Memories, the only thing I want to tell you, is to hold on tightly to Jesus... Hold His hand through this. everything is going to be all right. you have our prayers, support, and encouragement.

Shara

 

[MemoriesXx]

thank you both <3

 

[secretshadows618]

Hey memories, I just wanted to drop by and tell you a couple of short things. You're not alone in this... I have my own thread here that I've been posting in since July. Everyone here has been so helpful and encouraging. Rely on all of them, they just want to help, and sometimes that means hearing things that you don't want to hear. Another thing, don't keep your story quiet. Whatever happened to you needs to come out, people need to know, and you need to get it off your chest. Its terrifying and I can't say I've told my story verbally yet but I have confided it in a few people plus everyone here.

I can tell from what I've read that you're a fighter. Your stubbornness was my first clue Just remember that sometimes we don't really know everything about ourselves or whats best for ourselves... ( I have definitely forgotten that too many times) You're an amazing person, don't forget that and you're in my prayers.

Sarah

 

[MemoriesXx]

thanks if okay

 

[spazlegs]

Aw man, I hate it when my post doesn't get put in!!!! it was really good too. Oh well I'll hit the high points.

Okay memoriesxx, I wanted to tweak you a little and get you to think, and be a bit more open to medicine. I'm very stubborn too, and it took some plain talk to get me to go for help. So I gave you some young lady. I'm sorry if I got too far under your skin.

Medicines have side effects, some more than others, some noticeable, some not so much. Some work for you and your genetice makeup, some won't. Keep working with the doc, telling him/her how things are and report life threatening stuff right away.

Educate yourself on the meds you are taking. Discuss with your doc.

But do take them as long as the doc says they are good for you. Some can take them for a while and then don't have to take them. You may very well be one of them. But others have to take it for the rest of their life.

Meds help, but your dependence on Christ is the key, at least it is to me. Don't listen to the spiritual intimidators who say, just rely on Christ, and He will heal you. They don't rely on Christ to fix a broken bone, they go to a doctor and get a cast. Sometimes Jesus heals, sometimes He doesn't. He get to choose because he is sovereign. So go to the docs that God gave the smarts to and get the help they can give to. Okay?

You are smart as can be, I can tell simply by the way you write, so I talked a little more bluntly to get your attention. Again I apologize for any hurt I caused over and above what was needed to make you think. I care and so I was willing to alienate you from me and make you not like me. You are worth helping and there are lots of people here who can and will support you as you go through the work of getting better.

 

[secretshadows618]

thanks if okay

I'll take a hug any day Keep us updated on how things are going. We want to know! The good and the bad.

sarah

 

[MemoriesXx]

I'm going back to the counsellor and to the doctor tomorrow. I have a lot to disguss this week. and just to make a bad week worse, my dog is probably going to be put down tomorrow. I love her so much, she keeps me sane and keeps me fighting through the hard nights. She's the only one in this house that loves me. It might sound stupid, but that how it is.
Need to go get the card out of the car for prescriptions just in case, but at the same time, its in an obvious spot, so i don't think i can take it and mum not notice.. so i'll have to pay for them, rather than get them free with this card thing.
I'll let you know how it goes. :hugs: thanks for the support girls. it means a lot.

@ spazlegs. i do not need pushing or people being rude to make me do things. yes, i am stuborn, but your idea of how to make me do something is the way that stops me from doing it, just to annoy people. the only people that can make me change my mind on matters like that are people i love and trust.
the last few days i had a chat to one of my youth leaders who disclosed she was going to a counsellor while we were trying to help another girl a few weeks back. she said she was on meds and what an amazing help it had been. So i am thinking about it if thats what the doctor says to do.

 

[Criada]

I'm so sorry about your dog sweetie.
It isn't at all silly to feel that way, losing a pet is horrible, and you are bound to grieve. A dog is part of the family, and losing her is going to be very tough.
Let yourself grieve, sweetie, and don't feel that it's wrong.

I'm glad you are considering meds and counseling... it is a bit daunting, but it really can help a lot.
Thinking of you, sweetie. Hang in there.

 

[Mayflower1]

Memories, I am sorry about your dog, and those small irritants. You are in my prayers still sweetheart.

I am so proud of you! Know you continue to have my full support.

Shara

 

[MemoriesXx]

My dog was put down today, it hurts. A lot. I feel so alone in the house, loosing the only person here who loves me.
Tomorrow I have to go out for my brothers dinner and be around someone who let the abuse keep happening.
i also have to warn someone about my abuser to keep her daughter safe.
this all is so not what i need right now.
the doctor did prescribe meds.. i took the first one a few minutes ago. its called pristiq, apparently its a really low dose and i have to go back in 2 weeks.

 

[RuthD]

I am so very sorry for the loss of your pup. It is so hard to lose a beloved pet and they are family too. I lost my pet several mos. ago and miss him a lot. I want him to come back but I know that's not going to happen. You have my sympathy. I would probably not say much to the one who let the abuse keep happening, that's just me, though. I have experienced that, too. By all means warn someone, I agree. I hope the antidepressnants will help your mood. All the best to you.

 

[Criada]

Let yourself grieve, sweetie.
I'm glad you are taking meds, they will probably take a couple of weeks to have any effect, so keep taking them!

 

[Mayflower1]

*cyberhug*

I am sorry about your dog... maybe later on after you grieve awhile, you can get a new puppy.

keep strong memories. I am praying for you.

 

[secretshadows618]

I'm so sorry about your dog. I completely understand what its like to have a relationship with your animals. I have a cat whos like my best friend. Due to my past I have awful nightmares and he lays with me to comfort me. Don't feel silly for grieving over a lost pet. I'm happy to hear you went ahead with the meds. They will be sooo helpful in the long run. I hope everything goes well at your brothers. Facing all of that is going to be really tough. I'm praying for your strength

Sarah

 

[spazlegs]

Dear child of the King, I am so glad you are taking the meds. If that one doesn't work, tell your doc. Keep on trying till you get one that does it for you.

I'm sorry about your dog. Grieve. Talk it over with God. Cry. Then, after you don't miss the pup, except in a bittersweet way, look into getting another one.

Keep on coming here, the folks here understand a good bit of what is happening with you.

And remember, you aren't crazy, you are reacting to some really bad stuff that went down. You are a survivor and you will, with God's help and the help He brings into your life become an overcomer and be able to help others.

 

[Mayflower1]

Dear child of the King, I am so glad you are taking the meds. If that one doesn't work, tell your doc. Keep on trying till you get one that does it for you.

I'm sorry about your dog. Grieve. Talk it over with God. Cry. Then, after you don't miss the pup, except in a bittersweet way, look into getting another one.

Keep on coming here, the folks here understand a good bit of what is happening with you.

And remember, you aren't crazy, you are reacting to some really bad stuff that went down. You are a survivor and you will, with God's help and the help He brings into your life become an overcomer and be able to help others.

wonderful spazlegs. this is the stuff you listen to, Memories.

 

[MemoriesXx]

So, yesterday was my last session for 5 weeks. and I thought it was a great thing.. but now I'm all well, I'll be away for 3 of those weeks and because next week is christmas, she only had 2 times to offer me, neither of which suited, so she'll call next week to check in and then I'm on my own.
A few weeks ago I hated going to see her, and now look at me! its so silly. it should be fine, and everything. Its just become a pattern of going everyweek, its still so hard, but she's really nice and its good to get stuff out.

 

[spazlegs]

This is a time to reflect about the birth of our Lord, even though it probably isn't the time He was born. Reflect on who He is and the magnificent sacrifice He made in putting off His glory and being born to poor parents and to a woman who was painted with a scarlet letter for having a child that was conceived before her marriage. He came for you, He came for me. Such LOVE that He knows us and our afflictions, and He died for us.
He is our Counselor, He is our present help.

Read the Word, pray, talk with your parents who love you and are doing what they can for you. You will do well.

And congrats on how you are opening up to the counselor and getting schtuff taken care of.