Eating Disorders.

[Cerulean_Butterfly]

How many people here have or have had an eating disorder? I've had one on and off for 3 years. I've been purge free for 4 months. I've also been eating regualarly for 4 months and have been recovering well. I'd like to help in anyway i can.

Jo.

 

[jen_soccer13]

well others say i have an eating disorder....i say it is a diet...but i don't really know anymore

 

[Cerulean_Butterfly]

What is the diet? Are you eating at all? and when you do eat... are you making yourself get sick?

Jo

 

[jen_soccer13]

I eat only 300 calories a day tops.....and when i eat more than that and break the diet i make myself throw up

 

[Cerulean_Butterfly]

you have an eating disorder hun. i know what your going through. If you ever need to talk im here. You're eating disorder is called Bulimia. I have that too. love ya,

Jo

 

[jen_soccer13]

u really think so?

 

[Cerulean_Butterfly]

Yeah... If you have doubts just look up Bulmia on google. You're bound to come across something that will tell you a better description of what it is. If it doesnt sound like your condition try Aneorexia or Ednos.

Jo

 

[Ceccia]

well others say i have an eating disorder....i say it is a diet.

Same here. And no, I really don't want to change or stop.

 

[Cerulean_Butterfly]

i wouldnt ask you to change. I know how hard it is. I'm going through it too.

Jo.

 

[Loopi]

my mates say i have an eating disorder. i dont agree

 

[WhereareyouGod?]

I do i guess, I take slimming pills, don't eat, excercise way too much etc etc. Well done you, extreme_love_4_god its tough to beat an ED and you are doing brilliantly

 

[InvisibleExistence]

It used to be not eating anything except supper (because I can't really get away from that) then excercising in the evening to burn it off. Then it became eating loads and purging. And now it's not eating much at all and excercising loads, then fasting the next day to make up for it. I did look it up on the internet some time ago, I think it's 'non purging' bulimia, using pills and excercise and fasting instead of purging. I still purge sometimes though.

Anyone else who has an ED, i'm always here to talk to because I sure need someone to talk to me sometimes.

 

[TheMainException]

I just wanted to say to all you guys...keep going...it will be hard...and remember...I will listen...even though I have no eating disorder...I've been through and am still going through depression and anxiety and I know what that is like and how hard it is...so PM me if you need something.

 

[Celtic Camel]

Dear friends,
I came across this thread with the half-hearted hope of not finding it...
Like the arguement between Smeagol and Gollum in The Lord of the Rings, I find myself hating that anyone else is experiencing the destructive lifestyle of an ED, and yet it gives me strength to know I am not alone...
The argument I refer to above is also representative of my 'relationship' with the ED... I love it - I hate it... I want to be free, but I fear that freedom...
So, maybe I should share a little of myself... maybe I have been battling this longer than the rest of your, I don't know...
My name is Lisa...I'm 28... I have had an ED for "ever" (well, at least 10 or so years, I guess, but possibly a lot longer...) I first started skipping lunch when I was about 9 or 10... weekday breakfast quickly was struck from my menu when I was at high school...so by about 13 or 14... needing that extra 10 minutes sleep in the mornings meant I was always late, so breakfast was no longer an option...
For the last 6 years or so...dinner was the only meal I 'allowed' myself, because it was inescapable... But most days, that too isn't an intake I can tolerate... I purged as soon as possible, and have used many 'tools' to help with this...Now, I guess that label most likely used to describe me would be "anorexic : bulimia-type", which basically means that I restrict my intake of food, and purge what I do eat.
Please understand me - I am not here to lecture, I just want to help you, and let you know that I truly do understand... but any ED is deadly... I think we all know that, but choose to deny it. If it doesn't kill you, then there as so many horrendous effects it has on your body, mind and soul!!
I have been truly 'lucky' with my physical health... God has taken amazing care of me in that sense. (my mind and soul haven't cope so well...)
Also, I must tell you all, that I may not be here much after January 12, as I am going away to a place called Mercy Ministries, in search of some healing from this nightmare that I live. I still don't know if that is something I truly want - but I do know that this is a chance that God alone could have provided me... and that is the only thing I have left to cling to.
Please, PM me if you want to talk, or look me up on MSN or AOL instant messenger... I know of at least one other wonderful, supportive site for anyone struggling with ED which is for anyone who isn't pro-ed, (although it is non-Christian, but they have been one of the amazing ways God has got me through my worst times).
Lastly, I just have a couple of things that might be worth considering in this forum... Most people that have an ED find it quite 'easy' to 'feed' off the ed-behaviour of others... that being the case, please try to be sensitive in your posts, and maybe just write "triggering" at the start of a post? I don't know - I'm not the moderator of this place... these are just things that have protected me elsewhere...
Anyway, please take care, and remember that God does know what we are struggling with. You are never alone.
With all my love & prayers,
Lisa

 

[InvisibleExistence]

Hey Lisa, yes, I totally agree with you about the 'triggering' thing, I hadn't really thought about it but now I do and I realise that yeah, most of my behavior has been triggered by reading about what other people are doing. I will consider that before I write in future.

Thank you for sharing with us, you're a lot like me.. supper is inescapable and is the only thing I eat during the week.. but the new year is hopefully a new start for me and i'm going to try and stop this before it goes too far.

Happy new year everyone,

Lots of love
Jess xxxx

 

[Celtic Camel]

Dear Jess,
It takes a lot of courage to even admit that there is something that needs to be stopped.... that is a huge step, and I am proud that you have seen the need. I will keep you in my prayers...
About the trigger warning...it's not something that's meant to stop people writing what is on there hearts and minds... it is just to give others a chance to not read if they are feeling vulnerable in that way.
I have found that talking (ok - typing is more accurate) honestly about my struggles and often just the 'little things' that build up, has sometimes been such a help for me... it's healthy to have somewhere safe to vent our frustrations, pain, and even share our dreams of a better future. It's not a sign of weakness to ask for help, it's a sign of courage and strength.
Take care, dear friend,
Love & prayers,
Lisa

 

[Gwendolen]

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