Eating Disorder?

[MarineMarie]

I'm not exactly sure if this counts as an eating disorder, but I feel I should talk about these issues I've been encountering recently.

I guess the best place to start is the begining. My whole life I have been a "bigger" girl. By bigger I mean 20 pounds over my recommended weight. My 4 other siblings were/are morbidly obese. My father used to make fun of us especially me about our weight. He even offered us $1.00 for ever pound we lost when we were little. Oh course we didn' lose weight just continued to gain. I stayed about 20 pounds over my recommended weight and felt somewhat comfortable. Around the age of 11 I was sexually and mentally abused by my father. My mother left him in the middle of the night with us 5 kids and moved us from Conneticut to North Carolina. Obviously I went through some inner struggles and my mother sent me to a psychiatrist. He prescribed me some medication to deal with my depression. This medicine made me gain almost 200 pounds in 1 year. I got even more depressed and food became my addiction.

Years later I go to college and lost 30 pounds by not eating, I find that this is amazing and I feel great! The problem is I begin to pass out to the point of having to be taken to the hospital repeatedly. I then learned the art of eating very little while exerciing very intensly. I lost about 150 pounds in less than a year. I felt a lot better about myself and fit into clothes a whole lot better. The problem is that whenever I look in the mirror I still see that fat little girl that no one wants t be with.

Recently I have been eating anything and everything in my sights while exercizing 2-3 hours a day. I've maintained my weight but I still feel disgusting and I can't stop myself from being that fat kid in the mirror.

 

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[sennydell]

The reason for eating disorders are poorly understood, but could have other conditions and situations. One study showed that girls with ADHD are more likely to an eating disorder than those who do not suffer from ADHD.One study showed that girls care are more likely to develop bulimia.

 

[blessedmomof5]

can you post where you saw that study please?

The reason for eating disorders are poorly understood, but could have other conditions and situations. One study showed that girls with ADHD are more likely to an eating disorder than those who do not suffer from ADHD.One study showed that girls care are more likely to develop bulimia.

 

[blessedmomof5]

From reading your post, you sound like you have all the characritics of anorexia, are you know underweight? yes or no is fine, as you can see they will not allows Numbers to be posted on here with good reason.
Anorxia is nto always about numbers its the mindset that gets u to the low ### and sounds like u might be heading that way....
please seek some guidence with your dr.....
God Bless you

I'm not exactly sure if this counts as an eating disorder, but I feel I should talk about these issues I've been encountering recently.

I guess the best place to start is the begining. My whole life I have been a "bigger" girl. By bigger I mean 20 pounds over my recommended weight. My 4 other siblings were/are morbidly obese. My father used to make fun of us especially me about our weight. He even offered us $1.00 for ever pound we lost when we were little. Oh course we didn' lose weight just continued to gain. I stayed about 20 pounds over my recommended weight and felt somewhat comfortable. Around the age of 11 I was sexually and mentally abused by my father. My mother left him in the middle of the night with us 5 kids and moved us from Conneticut to North Carolina. Obviously I went through some inner struggles and my mother sent me to a psychiatrist. He prescribed me some medication to deal with my depression. This medicine made me gain almost 200 pounds in 1 year. I got even more depressed and food became my addiction.

Years later I go to college and lost 30 pounds by not eating, I find that this is amazing and I feel great! The problem is I begin to pass out to the point of having to be taken to the hospital repeatedly. I then learned the art of eating very little while exerciing very intensly. I lost about 150 pounds in less than a year. I felt a lot better about myself and fit into clothes a whole lot better. The problem is that whenever I look in the mirror I still see that fat little girl that no one wants t be with.

Recently I have been eating anything and everything in my sights while exercizing 2-3 hours a day. I've maintained my weight but I still feel disgusting and I can't stop myself from being that fat kid in the mirror.

 

[healingrainbow]

Try drinking grape juice and/or gourmet tea and comfort yourself too ( be your own mother ) This is a really good comfort zone and it will give you a really good start. I used to eat all kinds of unhealthy foods & drinks in my teens dealing with abuse, but after I got out of that abuse I started to drink grape juice a lot and that encouraged me to eat healthy. Grape juice is sweet and tasty and it also curbs your appetite. Tea can help with the emotional stuff. I mostly recommend gourmet tea but whatever works best do it

 

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[Observer]

It sounds like you have binge eating disorder with anorexic/bulimic tendencies. Meaning you feel intense urges to binge but then have episodes of starving yourself and/or bulimia (excessive exercise is classed as a form of purging/bulimia).

Basically, you do not have a balanced relationship with food. It's all or nothing. You find yourself binge eating on absolutely anything, or starving and avoiding food all together. It is hard when you have food addiction. You can't go cold turkey like a drug addict can, you still have to eat 3 times a day (well you're supposed to anyway). I think what you're trying to do is go cold turkey on food because it's the only way you can a) think about food less and b) lose weight. Losing weight has become a bigger priority for you than being healthy because you feel like the rewards of being thin will be better than anything.

We need to learn to appreciate our bodies at any size. We are lucky that we are alive and that they function at all. But it's hard if you have an eating disorder. You often don't have control of your thoughts and find it hard to control your behaviour with food as well.

I think you should pray about it and also maybe see a psychologist/psychiatrist who specialises in eating disorders. I know you've been to one before, but I don't know how long ago that was and there are different options you can try, especially cognitive behavioural therapy.

To be able to beat this, you need to stop seeing your past in the mirror and you need to change your relationship with food. Food is either the devil or God to people who have binge eating disorder. Food can calm your anxiety, your stress, make you feel good and you begin to worship it. Then it's the devil because it makes you fat and makes you feel inadequate and you need to stop eating it and starve yourself to lose the weight. Food needs to become less of an entity in your life. It needs to become a simple tool you use in life to be nourished... it needs to be neutral, not bad or the best thing in your whole life. But it's really hard to get to that point, I still binge eat regularly. I am consumed by the taste and the feelings that brings me, I use it like an addiction. And people who have normal eating habits won't be able to understand it.

Just my experience

 

[blessedmomof5]

just checking something

I'm not exactly sure if this counts as an eating disorder, but I feel I should talk about these issues I've been encountering recently.

I guess the best place to start is the begining. My whole life I have been a "bigger" girl. By bigger I mean 20 pounds over my recommended weight. My 4 other siblings were/are morbidly obese. My father used to make fun of us especially me about our weight. He even offered us $1.00 for ever pound we lost when we were little. Oh course we didn' lose weight just continued to gain. I stayed about 20 pounds over my recommended weight and felt somewhat comfortable. Around the age of 11 I was sexually and mentally abused by my father. My mother left him in the middle of the night with us 5 kids and moved us from Conneticut to North Carolina. Obviously I went through some inner struggles and my mother sent me to a psychiatrist. He prescribed me some medication to deal with my depression. This medicine made me gain almost 200 pounds in 1 year. I got even more depressed and food became my addiction.

Years later I go to college and lost 30 pounds by not eating, I find that this is amazing and I feel great! The problem is I begin to pass out to the point of having to be taken to the hospital repeatedly. I then learned the art of eating very little while exerciing very intensly. I lost about 150 pounds in less than a year. I felt a lot better about myself and fit into clothes a whole lot better. The problem is that whenever I look in the mirror I still see that fat little girl that no one wants t be with.

Recently I have been eating anything and everything in my sights while exercizing 2-3 hours a day. I've maintained my weight but I still feel disgusting and I can't stop myself from being that fat kid in the mirror.

 

[Deba]

There are therapists, many are Christian, that specialize in treating eating disorders. I actually got saved because I sought professional help with an eating disorder. It really helps to have some who can help you redirect your thinking and help you to see yourself more honestly.