Drinking, depression and BPD

[EbonNelumbo]

Hello.

Has anyone on here had trouble with substance abuse or more importantly, alcohol? I'm on medications which are never supposed to be combined with alcohol and yet I find myself downing at least 4 shots of everclear every night. I rarely sleep more than 3-5 hours and am constantly exhausted. I cannot focus and I am in college taking 18 credits. I feel completely lost.

 

[goldenviolet]

this is so incredibly dangerous. i'm scared for your health. please go see a doctor. please

 

[HVNbound]

My sons father use to mix drugs & alcohol all the time!

I told him not to but he'd tell me he knew what he was doing and to leave him alone!

Needless to say, that's one of many reasons we are not together anymore and never will be again!

 

[goldenviolet]

sweetheart, i'm still thinking and worrying about you *prayers*

 

[EbonNelumbo]

Hello. Thank you HVNbound and goldenviolet for your kindness and prayers.
I have no medical insurance. Everytime I see my campus psychiatrist he suggests I go back to my old counselor, though I cannot afford to.
I took your advice, GV, and scheduled an appt at my clinic that I do go to when I need it. I intend to try and see about some options.

As for now though, life is extremely hectic and the only thing which had been guiding me, unfortunently was not my faith, it was alcohol.
I am trying very hard now, in faith, to stop and it is very hard. I am falling behind in classes and cannot afford to do this. (Note, I am in college...)

I just am at a loss of where to go...

 

[HVNbound]

Hello. Thank you HVNbound and goldenviolet for your kindness and prayers.
I have no medical insurance. Everytime I see my campus psychiatrist he suggests I go back to my old counselor, though I cannot afford to.
I took your advice, GV, and scheduled an appt at my clinic that I do go to when I need it. I intend to try and see about some options.

As for now though, life is extremely hectic and the only thing which had been guiding me, unfortunently was not my faith, it was alcohol.
I am trying very hard now, in faith, to stop and it is very hard. I am falling behind in classes and cannot afford to do this. (Note, I am in college...)

I just am at a loss of where to go...

Try County/local Mental Health, they will go by a slidding scale, and if you can't pay there's no charge, they can also give you meds through the MH office if you can't afford them!

 

[madison1101]

I am a recovered BPD and recovering alcoholic. I could not get my life together till I put down the drink. I had to go to Alcoholics Anonymous to get sober. I strongly urge you to do the same. You don't stand a chance of recovering from the BPD till you stop drinking and start learning to deal with the emotions in a healthy, responsible way.

Hugs,
Trish