Down In The Dirt.

[Alexy1619]

Well,I guess that's just the way I am,then.

I'm a girl who is destroyed by her peers.I was strong for two years now,but now its really getting to me.I'm not retarted.I'm not dumb.And I'm not stupid.Why do they want to say that stuff?Is it their goal to crunch me down in the dirt and cover me in it,laughing in my face when I fall?

Just yesterday this guy in my class had a funky pen that looked like a carrot,and had a pompom on top of it.I asked him

"What the heck is that?" then a guy I absolutley despise said really loud

"What the heck is that?!" and pointed at my face.A bunch of people laughed,and you couldn't tell how humiliated and vulnerable I felt at that moment.I was so hurt.I don't want to say anything back,because I know that they will ALWAYS say something worse.But,I did.The dude that humiliated me had four fingers on one hand.So I said:

"I wouldn't say anything if I was you,chicken fingers." and continued to my cubby to get my math book.It's been like this ever since fourth grade,and now I'm really starting to get depressed about it.And God hasn't done anything about it for four years.I'm just facing it now.The absolute truth.

God doesn't love me.

 

[veganbunny]

God DOES love you!

Being bullied is hard; it can damage someone's self esteem completly, but there is always hope. I was bullied at school too, and didn't really cope with it in the best of ways. To be honest it ruined my education, and I really regret stopping going to school.

Ignoring it is difficult, but you can manage it; don't give up! The best thing to do is ignore them, or laught with them, showing that their not bothering you; I know, easier said than done.

I'm hear if you ever want to chat! God Bless and the best of luck!

 

[Mrs. Luther073082]

Kids can be pretty stupid. If they have to poke fun at you to make themselves look cool and feel good, that's pretty lame. It shows they do not have any sense of empathy, they do not have anything more creative or mature to talk about, and they do not have a healthy self esteem. They may seem completely full of themselves at school, but I'm telling you, if they feel the need to hurt others all the time, they're not mentally healthy.

Most people grow up and act more like people when they are adults.

God does love you. He doesn't always do things in the way we expect or ask Him to, but everything He does is always for the eventual good. It may take a long time before you can look back and clearly see what He was up to.

 

[.chrys.]

Alexy,

These young people are so very right! God does love you (and, believe it or not, He loves the bullies too). He wants for your happiness, and has a great plan for your life.

School can be one of the roughest hurdles in life. I pray that you will find some peace in school, some solace and some friendship.

Re-read what maycontainnuts has written in her first paragraph. She spells it out so wonderfully! The truth is that people do grow up once they are out of school, and life will get better with time.

Godspeed and blessings,
~Witness

 

[jsimms615]

Well,I guess that's just the way I am,then.

I'm a girl who is destroyed by her peers.I was strong for two years now,but now its really getting to me.I'm not retarted.I'm not dumb.And I'm not stupid.Why do they want to say that stuff?Is it their goal to crunch me down in the dirt and cover me in it,laughing in my face when I fall?

Just yesterday this guy in my class had a funky pen that looked like a carrot,and had a pompom on top of it.I asked him

"What the heck is that?" then a guy I absolutley despise said really loud

"What the heck is that?!" and pointed at my face.A bunch of people laughed,and you couldn't tell how humiliated and vulnerable I felt at that moment.I was so hurt.I don't want to say anything back,because I know that they will ALWAYS say something worse.But,I did.The dude that humiliated me had four fingers on one hand.So I said:

"I wouldn't say anything if I was you,chicken fingers." and continued to my cubby to get my math book.It's been like this ever since fourth grade,and now I'm really starting to get depressed about it.And God hasn't done anything about it for four years.I'm just facing it now.The absolute truth.

God doesn't love me.

I was bullied all through grade school, junior high and senior high. I was bullied and made fun of everyday on the bus in junior high. About 6 kids in the back of the bus would call me names everyday on the bus. I didn't try anything because I was outnumbered 6 to 1. I remember thinking that my name was like a dirty word. I hated myself and thought God did also. I have been where you are saying you are. I have felt that same exact way. I know the teasing hurts.
But, at the same time, I know that after examining what God has to say about me it really isn't true at all. He does love me. Satan would love for you to believe that God doesn't love you. But, God made you and God doesn't make trash. The evidence of that is that he would come down to earth when he didn't have to and endure the ridicule and slander and harsh death of the cross. He did that because he does love you.
I decided at some point that his opinion of me matters more than all those other people. You know, the funny thing is that when you get through school you can get the last laugh one day. You'll probably end up being their boss and telling them what to do all day.
Remember the song, "Jesus Loves Me This I know for the Bible tells me so. . . ."
The other thing I found out years after school is that sometimes people who make fun of others are the ones with the real problem. They make fun of others because they feel insecure themselves. I found this out years after high school from someone who use to pick on me. I heard him say that with his own mouth. He was picking on me because he was miserable himself and hurting.
If you want to talk further please feel free to pm me. I know what your going through. I went through it for over 15 years myself.

 

[angelkiss]

As it's already been said, God does indeed love you!!
I was bullied all through school for I was always so short. The biggest people always picked on me. Finally, I grew tired of it and started standing up to them. They backed down and realized that bullying me wasn't gonna get them anywhere. When they said humiliating things to me, I just went along with them and gave them nothing to feed on. They eventually left me alone, and some even turned out to be my friends.
I once had a boy make fun of my teeth for I had extremely buck teeth. My teacher saw the hurt within me and he called me up to his desk. He then said, "Don't pay attention to what others say about you, for one day, you're going to have beautiful teeth and a beautiful smile and he won't have a tooth left in his head." That's when I started taking things lightly. A couple years later, I got braces and my teeth were corrected. A few years after that, that same boy saw me in town and wanted to go out with me. And of course, I said absolutely not with a smile on my face.
I once shaved my head on top and had the very small prickles that were left bleached blonde. I had it shaved to the skin on the sides and long in the back. People called me opposum and made fun of me. But, when I just shrugged it off and told them that it's not my fault they wasn't brave enough to show how unique they are, they left me alone. I always had my own look, my own style and that made me different than everyone else. Eventually, that's what everyone liked about me. I was unique, I did things in my own way, and I took risks. (Not life-threatening) But, how many girls do you know who would just up and shave their head one day? No one ever knew what to expect from me for I was always doing something harmless and crazy.
Basically,if they see the hurt on your face, and they hear the anger and hurt in your voice, they feed on that, and then they just keep going and going. That's what they are looking for. But, if you try and not let things get to you, it gives them nothing to go on.
NOTE: I by no means am saying go shave your head to prove a point! But, just stay yourself and love who you are regardless of what others think or say.

 

[Alexy1619]

Thanks for the tips,guys!I know now that god loves me after my Mom yelled it in my ear over and over again...lol.But still,I myself beleive that now.Things are working out better,seeing that me and the dude made a truce.But,I still have wierdos going wacky on me lol.\

Thank you so much and God bless!<3

 

[Mrs. Luther073082]

I am so glad things are going better! Thanks for updating us.