Don't Think I'll Make It.

[Amin]

Amin, you have touched many people, God is already using you in ways you can't imagine. I pray that the Lord will help you sort through things and find the answers you need. Keep us posted!
timlamb

Hi, timlamb, I don't know who i may have helped, but i'm truly glad if i did. In all honesty, i don't even feel like i'm part of the world outside anymore, it's a little freaky, but some things are. On a happier note, i was looking out my window near my computer this morning, and a beautiful big, wild turkey, came walking by, just 50ft. from where i was .
Take Care, Amin.

 

[gwenevere]

Praise be to the Lord, to God our Savior, who daily bears our burdens. Psalms 68:19


Still praying for you....

 

[Amin]

My friend I know what it feel to loose hope. All I can say is that i'll keep you in my prayers. Look for God, he is with you and just wants to hold you. Tell him how you feel and cast all your burdens to him. He won't disapoint you. He love you too much to see you the way you are.

Thanks for your prayers,I feel that's what i need the most, but i feel so tired inside from the struggle, I don't have the energy to pray anymore. I sit here at the computer and look out the window a lot. My last prayer was; Lord, you know my situation, i'm tired and don't feel much like praying anymore. So i give it to you, if You want to help, fine, if not, i'll just take what life brings my way.

 

[Amin]

Praise be to the Lord, to God our Savior, who daily bears our burdens. Psalms 68:19


Still praying for you....

Hi, gwenevere, One of things i don't understand is: If God is bearing my burden, then what is it that i feel everyday. I don't mean to sound ungrateful for your prayers, because i appreciate it very much. I guess i'm just at the point where, i can't see the forest for the trees, And i'm really very tired of the whole mess. So Please forgive me if i sounded unappreciative. God Bless You, Amin.

 

[timlamb]

Amin, Hi there, God must have blessed you with a beautiful place to live. Wow, wild turkey, I have only seen a couple of thoise in my life.
Ok Amin, lets get our perspective right,LOL. You're supposed to say, "Wow, think how heavy my burden would be if God weren't helping me carry it".
Seriously though, bad feelings are not of God. Guilt, doubt, all those things satan uses to bring us down. Satan is fighting real hard for your soul right now, because you are valuable and on Gods side you are a threat to him. You have a good heart, that just shines through.
That is great that you gave things to the Lord, now get up and put that big heart of yours to work. God can't steer a ship that is not moving. If you think a new job will help, don't just read the paper or wait for the phone to ring, go knock on doors. If there is a scripture that has meaning to you, look it up in three diferent bibles, see how it is worded differently, then use the bible that speaks the best to you. Go for a hike, look, as you do from your window, at Gods beautiful creation, but do it close up and personal.
Is there someone who has been nice to you, that you have never told thank you. Or someone you love that hasn't heard those special words from you in a while, do it now, it's the best medicine for depression, share your heart.
It is great that you are telling God exactly what you think, just make sure you speak with love, talk to Him like the friend He is.
God has an abundant life for you, believe it.
timlamb

 

[timlamb]

Amin, I hope your silence is good news. We would love to get an update, I pray you are finding streangth in God and getting any other help you need.
God Bless,
timlamb

 

[LetMeHideHere]

Wow...
this sounds a lot like something I would post.
even though i don't know what you're going through
I can relate to what you're saying
& I'm sorry.
no one deserves a life like this.

whenever I feel like doing something drastic...
I always think,"what if things suddenly get better?"
so i duno, maybe when you feel like you can't make it,
hold onto that tiny sliver of hope.
even though things are likely to get worse,
things just might get better...
& it might be worth holding on a little longer

 

[Mrs05]

Amin,
It sounds like this time is very hard for you. Please try to hang in there. We all care about you and would be extremely upset if anything were to happen to you. We are all here to support you and get you through this tough time. There are ways to beat the depression, I assure you. First step, go and see someone. A psychologist. It is a very scary thought, to share these personal details with someone you don't know. But it is a step in the right direction to getting to a place where you can not feel like this anymore. You have been so brave already for sharing what you have with all of us and on behalf of everyone, congratulations, that must have been hard for you. Please I urge you to go and talk to a proffessional, they can and they will help you through this tough time, that is what they are here for. I am also here for you so feel free to send me a private message if you wish, I will do all I can to help you.

Good luck, take care, God bless.

 

[Amin]

I've read the whole book, and like you say, the only up part is the end.

Amin, you're sounding like King Solomon right now. You ever spend much time in Ecclesiastes?

I like to read that book when I'm feeling down. It's like an old friend and mentor speaking to me thru the ages, and it ends on an up note.

 

[Amin]

Hi, sorry it's taking me so long to get back, i've been a little preoccupied. I feel like you do at times; what if the answer is just around the corner. Unfortunatly i still feel the same.
One thing for sure, i appreciate everyones concern. I hope things are going okay for you. Take Care, Amin. short for the musical note~~A-minor

might[/I] get better...
& it might be worth holding on a little longer

 

[Amin]

Hi, And thank you for your words of concern. I've been to all those you have mentioned, counselors, etc. I see my DR. again this Friday, i hope he has something good to say. I've also been on a variety of meds. in fact, he said we're almost out of options when it comes to other meds. to try. That's why i say: If
anything good is going to happen, it's going to have to be of God:, but i'm not sure that will happen because i've been
seeking, (but not finding) comfort in other areas, only because they're closer, and more available. I don't think things will happen until i reverse that. It reminds me of a song by Bob Dylan,
Try And Catch The Wind. Take Care, Amin, short for the musical note, A-minor.

Amin,
It sounds like this time is very hard for you. Please try to hang in there. We all care about you and would be extremely upset if anything were to happen to you. We are all here to support you and get you through this tough time. There are ways to beat the depression, I assure you. First step, go and see someone. A psychologist. It is a very scary thought, to share these personal details with someone you don't know. But it is a step in the right direction to getting to a place where you can not feel like this anymore. You have been so brave already for sharing what you have with all of us and on behalf of everyone, congratulations, that must have been hard for you. Please I urge you to go and talk to a proffessional, they can and they will help you through this tough time, that is what they are here for. I am also here for you so feel free to send me a private message if you wish, I will do all I can to help you.

Good luck, take care, God bless.

 

[timlamb]

Amin, FAITH!!! Believe that God has good things for you. And then go out and give him something to work with. Look at the world around you and find things to praise God for, they are there, more things than you can count. When Jesus taught us to pray, He didn't say "give us food for the week" He said "Give us this day our daily bread". One day at a time, that is faith.
Pick one person today to talk to about the Lord. You like music, sing a song of praise and thanks giving.
Love is active, not passive, LOVE THE LORD!
Worship Him with laughter,
timlamb

 

[UnitynLove]

All of us have large portions of our time that need to be devoted to what we will call "common life and everyday business." I'm sure you know what I mean, things like, laundry, grocery store trips, auto repairs, dentist's visits, sweeping the floor, washing the dishes, going to work, etc. We tend to see these chores as being quite different from and even far below our "Spiritual Life," or the things we do which we consider to be holy. Most of us who really love and are devoted to God prefer the holy times to the common. Holy times are like praying, spiritual reading and meditation, sharing conversation about the Lord with friends, going to church, or other spiritual meetings. Seeing the two sides of our life as being in two entirely different categories usually causes quite a problem within the believer.
Often we feel divided within ourselves struggling to get finished with "common life and everyday business" so we can return to holy things, because we feel that we are holier or more right with God when we are doing what we believe to be holy things.
I believe this is one of the greatest deceptions of Satan. It keeps most people in a state of turmoil; dreading, and even despising the tasks of common life and everyday business. All of us must do them; it is part of life. They cannot be avoided. So we must have understanding on how in reality (truth) there is no difference between common and holy, except in our own minds. And if we will read the Bible properly and not be so religious in our thinking, we will move into an area of freedom that will shake the gates of hell. SATAN DOES NOT WANT YOU TO ENJOY YOUR LIFE. Naturally, if he can keep you thinking that God is only pleased with you when you are engaged in some sort of a so called "spiritual activity"; He can keep you unhappy a large part of the time. This misconception is one of his greatest tools to keep people from enjoying life. Often this comes as a vague feeling that makes a believer miserable, and he doesn't even understand what is wrong with him. All he knows is that something is amiss.
Everything we do is to be offered to the Lord; and if done so with a pure heart of love, it becomes holy. You can do common tasks, like go to the grocery store, and it will be just as holy as prayer, as long as you do all to the glory and honor of God. In the realm of importance, prayer is certainly more important than a trip to the grocery store, but not any holier. What I mean by prayer being more important is that it has eternal value, whereas a trip to the store or mopping the floor doesn't.
Romans 14 is an excellent chapter in the Bible to bring liberty in this area. Verses 5 & 6 (paraphrased) says: One man esteems one day as better than another (holier), while another man esteems all days alike (holy). Let everyone be fully convinced in his own mind. He who observes the day, does it in honor of the Lord. He also who eats, eats in honor of the Lord, since he gives thanks to God; while he who abstains, abstains in honor of the Lord and gives thanks to God.
Let's rewrite Romans 14:5-6 for a minute (Joyce's translation): One man sees prayer and Bible study as better (holier) than ordinary tasks. While a person that is really free in the Lord sees them all alike (all holy), because whatever he does, he does it in honor of the Lord.
This is true liberty—to be able to live an undivided life where we categorize some things as common and some as holy. Thereby as a result, we never enjoy the common because we are desperately trying to either avoid them completely or at least to rush through them so we can get to those things that are holy.
I just learned this lesson while traveling on an airplane to a speaking engagement. I was pondering on the thought of how glad I would be when I get to my destination, so I could pray and study. I was feeling very restless. The Lord began to minister to me that I needed to thoroughly enjoy the airplane ride and that it was just as holy to Him if I would offer it to Him. He is Holy, and He lives in you so that makes you holy. Therefore, wherever you go and whatever you do becomes holy. Now I realize, we are growing in manifesting holiness, but I'm sharing that it is His presence that makes things holy.
Another thing that had quite an effect on me in this area was a plaque I saw in a pastor's office. It said, "My work is worship." As long as I remember that, I find myself enjoying everything common life and everyday business as well as prayer, Bible study, and other things we define as spiritual. Join me in this liberated lifestyle and begin to enjoy everyday life.

 

[Amin]

Hi, How are you? I know what you mean. It used to be i read my bible so much, i wore it out. I was always praying, at church everytime the doors were open. I'm not really sure what happened. I know depression has alot to do with it, but i'm at a point now, nothing makes a difference anymore. Everything i used to love to do does'nt mean anything anymore. I'm not even sure if i care where i'll end up, as far as this world is concerned. I can't see a reason to care when in the end, it's all going to be gone.
I honestly don't think i'm thinking right, depression seems to cause you to think as tho you were in a heavy fog, you can't see as well as on a clear day. What people don't understand is, this feeling of not caring is more than just a passing thing, there are very few things that stir my emotions anymore. It feels as tho i've been tattooed with feeling, it's that much a part of me. I've prayed to God: I don't have the strength anymore, if anything is going to happen, it will be of You, i can't do anymore. Thus i've given up, I'm tired of the struggle, therefore, i've given up, and i guess given it to him.
Thanks for you reply. Take Care, Amin.

All of us have large portions of our time that need to be devoted to what we will call "common life and everyday business." I'm sure you know what I mean, things like, laundry, grocery store trips, auto repairs, dentist's visits, sweeping the floor, washing the dishes, going to work, etc. We tend to see these chores as being quite different from and even far below our "Spiritual Life," or the things we do which we consider to be holy. Most of us who really love and are devoted to God prefer the holy times to the common. Holy times are like praying, spiritual reading and meditation, sharing conversation about the Lord with friends, going to church, or other spiritual meetings. Seeing the two sides of our life as being in two entirely different categories usually causes quite a problem within the believer.
Often we feel divided within ourselves struggling to get finished with "common life and everyday business" so we can return to holy things, because we feel that we are holier or more right with God when we are doing what we believe to be holy things.
I believe this is one of the greatest deceptions of Satan. It keeps most people in a state of turmoil; dreading, and even despising the tasks of common life and everyday business. All of us must do them; it is part of life. They cannot be avoided. So we must have understanding on how in reality (truth) there is no difference between common and holy, except in our own minds. And if we will read the Bible properly and not be so religious in our thinking, we will move into an area of freedom that will shake the gates of hell. SATAN DOES NOT WANT YOU TO ENJOY YOUR LIFE. Naturally, if he can keep you thinking that God is only pleased with you when you are engaged in some sort of a so called "spiritual activity"; He can keep you unhappy a large part of the time. This misconception is one of his greatest tools to keep people from enjoying life. Often this comes as a vague feeling that makes a believer miserable, and he doesn't even understand what is wrong with him. All he knows is that something is amiss.
Everything we do is to be offered to the Lord; and if done so with a pure heart of love, it becomes holy. You can do common tasks, like go to the grocery store, and it will be just as holy as prayer, as long as you do all to the glory and honor of God. In the realm of importance, prayer is certainly more important than a trip to the grocery store, but not any holier. What I mean by prayer being more important is that it has eternal value, whereas a trip to the store or mopping the floor doesn't.
Romans 14 is an excellent chapter in the Bible to bring liberty in this area. Verses 5 & 6 (paraphrased) says: One man esteems one day as better than another (holier), while another man esteems all days alike (holy). Let everyone be fully convinced in his own mind. He who observes the day, does it in honor of the Lord. He also who eats, eats in honor of the Lord, since he gives thanks to God; while he who abstains, abstains in honor of the Lord and gives thanks to God.
Let's rewrite Romans 14:5-6 for a minute (Joyce's translation): One man sees prayer and Bible study as better (holier) than ordinary tasks. While a person that is really free in the Lord sees them all alike (all holy), because whatever he does, he does it in honor of the Lord.
This is true liberty—to be able to live an undivided life where we categorize some things as common and some as holy. Thereby as a result, we never enjoy the common because we are desperately trying to either avoid them completely or at least to rush through them so we can get to those things that are holy.
I just learned this lesson while traveling on an airplane to a speaking engagement. I was pondering on the thought of how glad I would be when I get to my destination, so I could pray and study. I was feeling very restless. The Lord began to minister to me that I needed to thoroughly enjoy the airplane ride and that it was just as holy to Him if I would offer it to Him. He is Holy, and He lives in you so that makes you holy. Therefore, wherever you go and whatever you do becomes holy. Now I realize, we are growing in manifesting holiness, but I'm sharing that it is His presence that makes things holy.
Another thing that had quite an effect on me in this area was a plaque I saw in a pastor's office. It said, "My work is worship." As long as I remember that, I find myself enjoying everything common life and everyday business as well as prayer, Bible study, and other things we define as spiritual. Join me in this liberated lifestyle and begin to enjoy everyday life.

 

[heatherwayno]

Hi, It's been a while since i've been here, but , things have'nt been going so well. Ive gotten to the point where i don't think i'm going to make it. Days seem to get worse, my attitude stinks, and i've even backslided just a little, mainly for something different. The bottom line is, don't know what to do anymore, nothing seems to work, i feel like GOD is a million miles away. There are very few things i like anymore. Certain people, and music. Other than that, who cares? I know my attitude is bad, even so, you don't have to reply to this thread, all i ask is that you pray for me, ain't no way i'm gonna make it without a miracle. God Bless You, and may all of you find the peace you're looking for. Amin. (short for the musical note~A-Minor.)

Have you tried going to therapy. I have started and have went on medication and it has made a world of difference. Remember that God never allows anything to happen to us if he doesn't intend for it to makes us stronger. I know from experince it is hard to see the big picture when you are so down. It has brought me so much closer to God. I will pray for you. One of my biggest causes of depression was unforgiveness that I had in my life. The devil uses this to attack you with depression. Keep in the word of God, keep praying, and surround yourself with positive people. I know you probably do not even want to get out of bed, but the worst hting you can do is stay inside and sulk. Maybe you should try to help others- find some meaning/purpose in your life. I hope this helps and you feel better!

 

[Darrell2006]

Hi Amin,
I have similiar feelings of faith issues, and in the past have also been on many meds, (even 1X had a doctor push me off to another doc). I don't have any advice, just wanted to let you know your not alone.
If you ever want to talk you can pm me or Instant message.

God bless you, and everyone.
We can get through this.

Daryl

 

[gwenevere]

Hi, gwenevere, One of things i don't understand is: If God is bearing my burden, then what is it that i feel everyday. I don't mean to sound ungrateful for your prayers, because i appreciate it very much. I guess i'm just at the point where, i can't see the forest for the trees, And i'm really very tired of the whole mess. So Please forgive me if i sounded unappreciative. God Bless You, Amin.

Why do you feel depress? Did something happen in the past? I'm just coming out of my drepresstion. It wasn't easy but I had to battle some issues I had. I know God is still helping me heal and slowly getting my joy back. he can do the same for you. It's not going to be over night. It will take some time but learn to trust him and look God.

 

[cbrown74]

Why do you feel depress? Did something happen in the past? I'm just coming out of my drepresstion. It wasn't easy but I had to battle some issues I had. I know God is still helping me heal and slowly getting my joy back. he can do the same for you. It's not going to be over night. It will take some time but learn to trust him and look God.

It would seem to me that depression is caused by some event or something particular that has happened in someone's life, but maybe I'm wrong. Could it be chemical imbalance or something? For me, my depression is ALWAYS centered around relationships. Either I'm single and don't feel like anyone loves me, or I'm with someone, happy, then they dump me (like what just happened) and then I get depressed again. I'm currently now trying to fight off this DEEP depression that I have. I thought I was going to marry this girl. She was perfect, very compatible, very pretty, a great Christian, very simple, didn't require a lot of maintenance, etc. Just a down to earth girl that I REALLY loved. It really feels like a lost a limb or something. It's THAT painful. But, rather than just stopping my life, I'm trying to keep myself busy by going to 3 to 4 church services a week, going to the gym daily, and looking into also volunteering my time to serve the Lord. I don't think the Lord ever promissed that we wouldn't experience any pain, but he did promise to get us through it. That's where I'm at right now. Just trying to trust that God will get me through this and ultimately find my purpose in life and hopefully find another wonderful person to share my life with. however, i'm not going to lie and say it's easy. It's VERY difficult, but just trying to move on.

 

[gwenevere]

It would seem to me that depression is caused by some event or something particular that has happened in someone's life, but maybe I'm wrong. Could it be chemical imbalance or something? For me, my depression is ALWAYS centered around relationships. Either I'm single and don't feel like anyone loves me, or I'm with someone, happy, then they dump me (like what just happened) and then I get depressed again. I'm currently now trying to fight off this DEEP depression that I have. I thought I was going to marry this girl. She was perfect, very compatible, very pretty, a great Christian, very simple, didn't require a lot of maintenance, etc. Just a down to earth girl that I REALLY loved. It really feels like a lost a limb or something. It's THAT painful. But, rather than just stopping my life, I'm trying to keep myself busy by going to 3 to 4 church services a week, going to the gym daily, and looking into also volunteering my time to serve the Lord. I don't think the Lord ever promissed that we wouldn't experience any pain, but he did promise to get us through it. That's where I'm at right now. Just trying to trust that God will get me through this and ultimately find my purpose in life and hopefully find another wonderful person to share my life with. however, i'm not going to lie and say it's easy. It's VERY difficult, but just trying to move on.

I think you right.

 

[ArmouredSaint]

Amin- Be assured your watched over. You can do this.