Don't know where to turn anymore

[pockleberry]

I feel so scared all the time I can't handle the things that go on in my head all my thoughts scare me even more...I didnt think suicide would ever look like a gd option to me. But all the time I feel like a fake compaired to other ppl I know with depression i have been through nothing...I don't know what to do ppl around me already know I have depression but still I don't feel safe and I don't feel helped...Am I just being selfish in wanting attention? I don't know what I'm saying or feeling anymore all i know is that I'm scared

 

[mikeforjesus]

yes even when people know about our depression it wont make it much less but it helps them to understand us and avoid doing things that make us feel worse.
Have u ever been put on medication? and how often do u read the word of God?
What do u think about Pslam 88 - read it here. Especially about the friends and acquaintances.. (?)
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?book_id=23&chapter=88&version=50

 

[mikeforjesus]

You are not a fake, everyone has their own hell. And some people can go through some of the worse stuff without depression through Gods grace while others might be left with their depression simply because it can be a medical condition, right?

 

[Stanfi]

The apostole Paul wrote about his "thorn in the flesh", an affliction that he had that kept him dependant on God. I often think for some of us, depression is our "thorn in the flesh".

No, do not think you are a fake. Everyone is different, we all have different levels of tolearance. What we can handle, and what we can't. There are those who can seeminly handle anything, and then are those who the slightest thing tears them apart.

Learn to accept who you are, and not compare yourself to other's and make yourself feel inadequate. We are all different.

 

[pockleberry]

yes even when people know about our depression it wont make it much less but it helps them to understand us and avoid doing things that make us feel worse.
Have u ever been put on medication? and how often do u read the word of God?
What do u think about Pslam 88 - read it here. Especially about the friends and acquaintances.. (?)
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?book_id=23&chapter=88&version=50

yes i have been on medication but im not on it anymore cause it didnt make much difference to the way i felt and i actually think it made me feel suicidal more than when im not on anything...I dont know about the stuff about friends in pslam 88 some of my friends don't want to know me anymore because they dont understand self injuery but some are closer to me

 

[luv4godremains]

hang onto the friends you have, they will be there to hold you when you need it, they will be close to you when you need someone's shoulder to cry on, and quite obviously don't care about what you do that is considered "wrong" instead, they care about how you feel.
It's ok to be scared, it's only human to be scared, no more, no less! God has plans for you, he has plans for how to turn this into a good things, and you need to hang onto his love, place your life in his hands, and ask for him to be there to protect you, I'll be praying for you, even need to chat, just PM me!

 

[2scoops]

Pockleberry, I think maybe if you have a pastor that you should see him. I think your depression is a symptom of some emotion that you try to repress. Maybe it's fear, low-self esteem, worry, etc. I used to do that, I was afraid to tell anyone, because I thought it may make me look weak, and everyone around me seemed to be so strong. I let Satan, let me hold things in, until my worry, fear hit a breaking point. Then it was substituted with depression, then physical pain. If I would have talked to my pastor back then, like 15 years ago, I could hae saved myself so much pain. Take your depression to God and ask Him to send His comfort, and His chosen people to help you. In Proverbs in says we are wise to seek out wisdom and knowlege from our elders in God. We are not weak, but wise. God did not give us the spirit of fear, but of POWER, and of LOVE, and of a SOUND MIND. That's what God gave us, satan gives us the depression. You will be healed.

 

[pockleberry]

My church leader knows but we dont really ever talk...I have told ppl and asked for help but I don't feel liuke things are getting any better...theres nothing I can do

 

[skywatcher]

Pockleberry, It's o.k. to be scared, all of the adivice that's been given to you is good,
We care about you. If we could I'm sure all of us would run to your side in a moment
to talk,pray and just be your friend...Try to get some help. It doesn't matter who or where you are. I understand what your saying and feeling.We are just a click away!
My prayers are with you.(If you need keep in contact with us. anytime!!!!)

 

[ArmouredSaint]

there is something you can do and you're doing that by talking about it.last thing you should do is think nobody will listen or care.the right people will.sometimes that means calling on prof help see because our friends and family want us to snap out of it.ok so regardless of what your church associate can do,you need more.I went for prof help and left the church out of it.they can be there for you but rarely are they skilled in dealing with mentally impaired depression,IF thats what you're suffering from.i hope for the best here,take it seriously.

My church leader knows but we dont really ever talk...I have told ppl and asked for help but I don't feel liuke things are getting any better...theres nothing I can do

 

[pockleberry]

there is something you can do and you're doing that by talking about it.last thing you should do is think nobody will listen or care.the right people will.sometimes that means calling on prof help see because our friends and family want us to snap out of it.ok so regardless of what your church associate can do,you need more.I went for prof help and left the church out of it.they can be there for you but rarely are they skilled in dealing with mentally impaired depression,IF thats what you're suffering from.i hope for the best here,take it seriously.

ive tried profesional help as well and now im left with a sence of defeat...i tried two different meds but that didnt help and now it looks like im gonna stop seeing my councellor because im soo rubbish at talking face to face so when i say i dont no where to turn its because ive tried so many things and im still in this place of depression