Don't know where to go

[Quiet Storm]

I'll try to make this as short as possible:

Basically, summer was torture for me. My relationship with God isn't what it used to be because of a lot of things happening over those three months, and now I'm on a fast. The thing is, I want to get back in fellowship with God, but honestly don't at the same time. Not because I don't want to be back in fellowhsip, but because of all the stuff that happened over the summer, regardless of how I may want to, it doesn't seem appealing because........well it's hard to put into words. But please, the last thing I need is to be condemned because of any misinterpretation of what I'm trying to say. I've felt enough of that recently to last me a lifetime. I really don't know what it is that I want or need. All I know is that despite my desires to get back on the level that I once was concerning love and everything else, religion is about the least appealing thing for me to think about right now. I guess I just need prayer period.

 

[ZiSunka]

Come to me all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light. Matthew 11:28-30

If you are finding the Lord laborous to serve, if doing religious things is getting to be too much, if you have tried every possible way to please Him and can't, then you need this verse. The Lord doesn't overburden His people, He gives their souls peace and rest.

You don't DO things to get close to God, you just sit quietly and KNOW that God is already there. He's never left you and you don't have to do anything to make Him like you. The things you do to try to get his attention are just religious exercises, they do not impress Him as much as just seeking Him out to sit quietly with Him.

Psalm 50 says that He already has everything He needs, except ONE thing--your gratitude. The only thing He lacks in this entire universe is your thankful love.

So sit down and have something to eat. Going without food right now is not impressing Him. He's sitting next to you saying, "Come one sweetheart, have something to eat. You're famished physically and spiritually and it's time to be refreshed, not fasting. Let me fill your spirit the way this sandwich is going to fill your stomach. You don't have to work to impress me, you only have to call on me and I am right here.

 

[Stanfi]

I don't know what all has happened to you, but God does. Talk to him, and be honest, spill out everything that is in your heart, and ask him to help you. Ask him to "Restore the joy of your salvation" like David cried out to God in one of his psalms, and God will. He is sitting and patiently waiting to hear from you. Jesus love you so much that he died for you.

Praying

 

[ukok]

Come to me all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light. Matthew 11:28-30

If you are finding the Lord laborous to serve, if doing religious things is getting to be too much, if you have tried every possible way to please Him and can't, then you need this verse. The Lord doesn't overburden His people, He gives their souls peace and rest.

You don't DO things to get close to God, you just sit quietly and KNOW that God is already there. He's never left you and you don't have to do anything to make Him like you. The things you do to try to get his attention are just religious exercises, they do not impress Him as much as just seeking Him out to sit quietly with Him.

Psalm 50 says that He already has everything He needs, except ONE thing--your gratitude. The only thing He lacks in this entire universe is your thankful love.

So sit down and have something to eat. Going without food right now is not impressing Him. He's sitting next to you saying, "Come one sweetheart, have something to eat. You're famished physically and spiritually and it's time to be refreshed, not fasting. Let me fill your spirit the way this sandwich is going to fill your stomach. You don't have to work to impress me, you only have to call on me and I am right here.

Lambslove said it better than i could, so all i have to add is "ditto", and i'm for you.

 

[forjesus]

praying for you.

 

[vibrant]

i'll pray for you.

 

[TheOriginalWhitehorse]

It's the proverbial battle between the spirit and the flesh. You're fasting-this indicates you care more than you may realize. The thing that always helps me when I get the doldrums is to simply believe that everything will work out, even if I can't see it. And then I look for areas of my life that need to be brought under submission to God. Even small attempts, even weak attempts, will be honored by God. He will increase your desire if you trust Him to do that. Tell Him respectfully how you feel and why, then put it in His hands and do what you know you should. Read. Spend lots of time in prayer. You may not want to at first, but He will make it sweet for you. I'll pray for you, my friend. You can talk to me any time you want.

Here's a true story I read not too long ago that might help. I tell it to everyone who is going through a spiritual valley:

Some missionaries were given some news that a rebel militia was coming after them. They hopped into a boat to escape, but a storm befell them. So they prayed for God to calm the storm, but He didn't. In fact, the storm increased after all those prayers! As you can imagine, the missionaries were frightened. They thought God had shut out their prayers. Still, the storm increased in intensity, tossing their tiny boat on the billows.

In the end, however, they never did capsize. But the boat full of people chasing them did.

Blessings and peace to you.

 

[desi]

Quiet Storm, you seem to both know what you are having problems with (sin) and blame yourself for it. All you have to do is choose to repent and change your ways or 'return to your folly as a dog returns to its vomit.'