don't know what it's like to be loved

[amanda17]

i have never been loved. i was the black sheep in my family and my parents were distant and uninvolved because they had too many problems - i am sure they tried to do their best as parents. i was always told i was ugly and bad. there was one aunt who loved me. when i accepted Jesus in my heart and i read the bible, i feel like i am the ones who are called hypocrites in the bible because i have so many negative thoughts in my head and i really don't like people. when i read the stories about the bad ones like jezebel, i think that is me and God does not like me very much.

i am afraid of people because i just think nobody will accept me. how do i know God can love me, i am not really that good but i try and i pray. but i still feel i am not part of God's family because how can Jesus love me when i am so far from the wonderful people in the Christian church who do so many wonderful things for others?

please pray for me and give me advice. thanks.

 

[TexasGirl06]

i have never been loved. i was the black sheep in my family and my parents were distant and uninvolved because they had too many problems - i am sure they tried to do their best as parents. i was always told i was ugly and bad. there was one aunt who loved me. when i accepted Jesus in my heart and i read the bible, i feel like i am the ones who are called hypocrites in the bible because i have so many negative thoughts in my head and i really don't like people. when i read the stories about the bad ones like jezebel, i think that is me and God does not like me very much.

i am afraid of people because i just think nobody will accept me. how do i know God can love me, i am not really that good but i try and i pray. but i still feel i am not part of God's family because how can Jesus love me when i am so far from the wonderful people in the Christian church who do so many wonderful things for others?

please pray for me and give me advice. thanks.

O' Lord...
Amanda17 is having a really hard time...
and I lift her before Your Throne tonight.

Father, You created Amanda.
You knew her before time.
You created her in Your image.
She is your child.

You love her so much..... that You chose to send Your Son to die on the cross for her.

You have an incredible plan for her life.
Your family of Believers loves her dearly.

I pray that You will surround Her with Your Peace this night.
May she be directed to Your Word.
Show her all of the Promises You have made to the one who Loves You.

Do Your great works in Amanda.
Use her in Your Kingdom.
She has experiences....that many have not had.
Use those experiences, Lord.
She understands things that many do not.

I pray Your Mighty Will for her life.
In the Precious Name of Your Holy Son, I pray.
Amen.

 

[amanda17]

i have a question. can God give people new minds? i need a new mind so i can think and see and feel differently. my old mind the one who was not a Christian is very negative and can you please pray that God can bless me with a new way of seeing and thinking about others? thank you!

 

[JPPT1974]

Lord watch over Amanda and
Grant and give her peace
Help her to find real love in you
In thy name and will Lord amen

 

[amanda17]

another reason why i think i am not really a Christian is because i do not feel bad at things like if somebody dies, i don't feel that sad. when my Dad got very sick, i just felt numb inside. i was not happy that he might die but i was not like other daughters who would be so sad. i feel like my heart is dead and cannot love or know love.

i am not really angry with anyone, i am more just unfeeling and afraid to know people and be known. does Jesus still love people like me?

 

[amanda17]

thank you texasgirl and JPPT for praying....

 

[JPPT1974]

Jesus never stops loving nobody
He is not a judgemental and mean God
But a kind and gentle God who only wants
What is best for us!

 

[TexasGirl06]

i have a question. can God give people new minds? i need a new mind so i can think and see and feel differently. my old mind the one who was not a Christian is very negative and can you please pray that God can bless me with a new way of seeing and thinking about others? thank you!

Heavenly Father...
You see what Amanda is seeking.

Will you renew her mind, Dear Lord.
In Jesus' name !

 

[TexasGirl06]

another reason why i think i am not really a Christian is because i do not feel bad at things like if somebody dies, i don't feel that sad. when my Dad got very sick, i just felt numb inside. i was not happy that he might die but i was not like other daughters who would be so sad. i feel like my heart is dead and cannot love or know love.

i am not really angry with anyone, i am more just unfeeling and afraid to know people and be known. does Jesus still love people like me?

Our Father in Heaven...
Hallowed be Thy Name !

Lord, there is no greater Love than the Love you have for us.

Show Amanda her sin, Lord.
Show her the punishment for her sin.
Show her that You have provided a way for her to go to Heaven when she dies.
Show her Jesus on the cross.
Shoe her that she put Jesus on the cross that day.
Show her what it means to repent of our sin.
Show her Father...

Renew her relationship with You.
Renew her mind.
If there was not a relationship, .... will You call her into Your Kingdom, Lord.

Father...it is so precious when people are drawn to You.

I pray all these things...
in the Name of the Lord Jesus Christ.
Amen.

 

[Stephanie7]

Father God, reveal Your love to this person, that she may know without a doubt that You love her and accept her. Heal her of her past hurts and the lack of love which is causing her to feel this way...show her that she is worthy to be loved, and that she is priceless in Your eyes, In Jesus Name, Amen

 

[amanda17]

"worthy to be loved" - that is so hard for me to believe

 

[ivory]

Father God, reveal Your love to this person, that she may know without a doubt that You love her and accept her. Heal her of her past hurts and the lack of love which is causing her to feel this way...show her that she is worthy to be loved, and that she is priceless in Your eyes, In Jesus Name, Amen

Father I stand in agreement with this prayer. Show her how much You love her. In Jesus Name. Amen

 

[TexasGirl06]

"worthy to be loved" - that is so hard for me to believe

I know.
It can be a hard concept to grasp at first.

But,
when you realize what you have been saved from....
you will begin to understand the magnitude of God's Love.

 

[sistakrista]

1Therefore I urge you, brethren, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies a living and holy sacrifice, acceptable to God, which is your spiritual service of worship. 2And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect.
3For through the grace given to me I say to everyone among you not to think more highly of himself than he ought to think; but to think so as to have sound judgment, as God has allotted to each a measure of faith. (Romans 12 NAS)



For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. (2 Tim 1:7 KJV)


Renew your mind, by reading the Word...

Feeling "numb." instead of sad - is NOT terrible or "bad."
Jesus LOVES you & it's NOT about our own "mushy," feelings. The more you grow, the more you will learn.
Love is not a feeling, it's an act of our will.

 

[amanda17]

I know.
It can be a hard concept to grasp at first.

But,
when you realize what you have been saved from....
you will begin to understand the magnitude of God's Love.

that part of sin, i understad that. even before i accepted Jesus i know i was a sinner and that is all i ever know of myself. i was not a kid whose parents told about their talents and what to do with my life. i pretty much was self raised. my dad stuck me in my bedroom to read books all day becuase he was over protective and trusted no one. i was not allowed to play with other kids but they can only come to my house. on top of that, i was called a pig. i wasn't even that fat.

when my sister died because of kidney failure, her boyfriend said i should have been the one who died because i was ugly and she was pretty.

 

[amanda17]

For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. (2 Tim 1:7 KJV)


i will memorize that and hopefully Jesus can help me believe it someday...

 

[TexasGirl06]

that part of sin, i understad that. even before i accepted Jesus i know i was a sinner and that is all i ever know of myself. i was not a kid whose parents told about their talents and what to do with my life. i pretty much was self raised. my dad stuck me in my bedroom to read books all day becuase he was over protective and trusted no one. i was not allowed to play with other kids but they can only come to my house. on top of that, i was called a pig. i wasn't even that fat.

when my sister died because of kidney failure, her boyfriend said i should have been the one who died because i was ugly and she was pretty.

Amanda...
I am going to tell you some Truth.
You don't have to completely understand it right now.
But know that it is Truth.
I am a Christian...
and I do not lie.

Here goes...

Ready?

God loves Amanda.
Amanda is special.
Amanda can be a loving person.
Amanda is not alone in this World.
God has a great plan for Amanda's life.
Amanda can overcome anything...
...with the help of the Living God.
Amanda has a purpose in life.
Amanda is precious.

There you go.
All Truth.

 

[inHISstepsalways]

As believers, our self-worth is based on the fact that God loves us so much that He calls us His children. We are His children now, not just sometime in the distant future. If your mind is full condemnation for past hurts and pain, if you hear your conscience telling you that you are not worthy, that you are not good enough to be loved, that you are so bad that even God cannot love you, these thoughts are not of God and remind yourself that God is greater that your conscience.

Who dare condemn you when God Almighty has puts His arms around you and He says "this is my beloved child". God is truth, He cannot lie, and HE SAYS HE LOVES YOU.

Lord, bless this beloved child of Yours. You have already shown her how much she is loved now Lord open her mind and spirit to accept it. In Jesus name Amen and Amen.

 

[synger]

May the loving, gracious Lord envelop you in His comforting arms and give you the assurance through His Word and His people that you are beloved and precious in His eyes. He knew you while you were being knit together in your mother's womb. He knows every hair of your head. He loves you dearly, completely, unlike any human can even imagine. Show her Your love, O Lord, and ease her heart-sick soul.


canticum graduum levavi oculos meos in montes
unde veniet auxilium meum
auxilium meum a Domino factore caeli et terrae

I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills.
From whence cometh my help?
My help cometh from the LORD which made heaven and earth. (Psalm 121)

 

[amanda17]

thank you for all the prayers....

one thing i believe in is the power of God. i know he is awesome and mighty and Lord of all. that is where my hope lies...so things might still change for me. i struggle when i look at who i am but one thing i believe is that God is good and he is powerful.

it's sleepy time for me and i really feel Jesus' love in all your words. i just have to understand and believe. i pray the Lord makes me believe, i lay my will at his feet.

thank you everyone for saying a prayer for me and your kind advice.