i was going through this thread and wow, i'm soo glad i made an account here, you guys are blessed fo real, GOD IS GOODD
.. well i dunno if my story will match up to everyone elses because even i am ashamed of telling it..
well i lived in africa since i was born, my mom and dad were rich there, we had 2 houses, 3 cars, maids and everything, i lived a life of luxuary, i think the freedom was the start of my wrong ways, i was a menace since i was young doing things against what is right, but my mom and dad were to busy working and all that to tell me about god and what is wrong and right, like i heard about god but i really didn't care, i just wanted to do what i wanted, well we moved from africa to netherland, my parents wanted to give me and my sisters and brother better education, that was my first WINTER!!,Then after liek 3 months my mom wanted to move to Canada, this is when devil started talking to me and teaching me bad things, before it was just childish stupidness, i guess that is when the bad seed inside of me was growing, devil wanted to bring me up on his ways at a young age, and it worked, i started doing bad things, and thats when my mom started talking to me, but it all went in my ear and out the other, i was too hooked in the hood experience, and i kept feeding that evil in me day in and day out, until the bad things turned even bigger, i started stealing, robbing houses, sexin, smokin weed, gettin into gang related fights, treatin people under me like they r nothin, but through all that god has been showin me miricles, i knoe for a fact without gods grace and love i would have died when i was in that block, but u don't see gods hand in ur life when devil has ur eyes shut now do u?, i just thought it was my luck, the life of going to court became normal, my family wept for me day in and day out and for a moment i felt sorry and said to my self i would stop, but as soon as i exited my building door it was devil who was in the driving seat.
Then here comes god, at 16 i had everything power, grls, money, street repp, and a block i was part off, satan is somethin else fo real, u wanna hate TAKE UR HATRED TO HIM
, do what he hates, his weak stop his gods word feed it to him, what may look good is really bad bad u can't knoe because again he has his hands across ur face, so i thought everything was going crisp, then i cought my 4th or 5th offence and my mom couldn't bail me no more because she already did so i spent tyme in juvie for a while, during me tyme in there, mothers day came, i couldn't beleive it, the day i was supposed to praise my mom for all she has done, i was doing spending time in the bin, i called on mothers day, i told her i was done wit my ways, n all that, but as i came out i was back at it again, i guess what I.M said was tru " when the devil asks you for a dance say no, because a dance with the devil could last you forever"
.. i couldn't pull away from my bd ways, i didn't have enuff good in me to fight off the great evil in me, so my mom moved me to ajax, this is where i am right now, by moving here i started to calm down a little, i hated the fact that i had to move to this place but god had his reason, my makrs started to go up a little, until devil came again, he lurked in my shadow everytime, i couldn' tget rid of him, i foudn some friends, bt the wrong friends, we started doin stupidness, i started robbin houses again, sexin, i started blazin way more that i moved to ajax, because it's so boring that all uc an do is blaze, but this one day i was wit my bois and we were in my room, and they were jus there chyllin, den out of no where another me apeared infront of me (and i knoe u might think i was high but nah, we were lookin for grls that night not for highness) so this next mee started tellin me " STOP PLAYING WITH GOD TK, STOP PLAYING WITH GOD." the other me infront of me was red like it was burning, it looked like i was in pain (like burning in hell).. this is when i started to think, and i started to resist evil a little, i could tell satan didn't like that, the more i resisted the more he came at me, until this one day i was at church and they were having a life week thing it was really good, all my life my mom kept on telling me "tk god favours you, with all u do, he still shows his love towards you".. God shows love for everyone, but i should have been dead at that point, or in juvie for a couple of years, but god saved me, he always did but i never was able to tell, during that life week like on wednesday, my pastor had cups in front of the stage, the cups reflected how much dirt u had in ur cup(cup meaning life), one had full dirt, another had half dirt, another was empty and the last had half full water, the full dirt cup meant that u were in darkness and u need saving, the half dirt meant u knew of salvation but u arn't ready to get rid of ur old life to recive new life, and the empty cup means that u were saved but u lacked wisdom, and faith, u needed to ask god to fill ur cup, and the half full water one meant that u had wisdom, and you had faith, but it wasn't enough u needed to ask god to keep on filling your cup, the reason why there wasn't a full water cup is because no one is perfect, we are always imporving, so then the pastor asked us to come up and hold the cup that represented us, no one moved, so somethin in me made me decide to go up, i went up and grabed on the full dirty cup one and started to pray, tears fell from my eyes, i was so close to accepting god it was right there in my grasp, my light was startin to shine a little, then on thursday night i was waiting for my mom to come so we can go to the following service, but satan didn't want me to leave his grasp, i got a phone call from some dectactive saying how i had to turn me self in before 12 am that morning, i was shocked, i started questioning god asking him why he is doing this to me, i was so close then this came up, then my mom came and i told her what happend and she didn't even have a suprised face, she just said " tk devil sees your leaving him, and he is trying to bring you back, hold on to god". As we were driving i started to crying, i beleived in the words my mom told me and i went to the police station wit my head up they took me and i spentt the night in the holding sail waiting for bail in the morning. In my head i was thinking, well my mom dumped her bf so i had no one to bail me, and because my mom already bailed me she can't do it again, but i just kept faith, in the holding cell i was wit my boi, before when i got send to juvie, my boi got charged wit me, but he recieved bail and i got put in, so this time he was making fun saying how he will leave me in there again, but i never returned the same statment, i just said what ever happends will be gods plan, i didn't knoe how i was gonna get out because there was no one to bail me, but bail hearing came and both me and my boi were taken to court through the video survailance thing, they told us the statments made and all that, and then we were returned back to our holding cell waiting to see who got bail and who was going to juvie, hours passed and one police guard came and opened the door, he called my friends name, u don't knoe how i felt that tyme, my heart was torn, i couldn't beleive it, i sat back down motionless, i thought why god i beleived in u and u let me down, then the same police guard came and told me to come with him, as i walked up i looked to my right and i seen my boi moved to another holding cell, he was going to juvie and i was going home, and we both had the same conditions, his mom and dad already bailed him he couldn't get bail, but in some miricle i went out, i started laughing as i had my cuffs on me, GOD DID IT AGAIN, through all odds he saved me, my mom was waiting for me outside and she was just smiling and she told me the same thing "tk god favours you, with all u do, he still shows his love towards you", she talked to the judge and told him about her faith, judges are nto allowed to make decisions by emotions( learned that in law) but he told me mom she could take me home, my mom told me how the judge was christian god worked his hand in that court room. as we were driving home i started cring i thanked god for his mercy, i got home and that night we went to the last life cycle, it was friday, i will always remmeber that day, it was like my eyes finally saw god, i finally understood and thats when i accpeted him, i went home and i had my sleep, when i was about to go off to dream land, i felt a feeling in me that made me start laughing, it was soo smooth so peacefull it's nothing i have ever felt i felt, u knoe that instant feeling u get when something exciting is about to happend and u can't wait, well that feeling lasts a second, but this kept on going till today it's there in me, and till today i can't get over how good it feels, i thought i was gonna die from feeling too good lol if that makes sense, that tyme i never knew wat it was but now i knoe, thats when the holly spirt decended down to me, from that day i have been a god fanatic, i styll fall and sin, but we are justified thankz to christ,
Now i'm on the journey to to damage satan, for all the years he had me in the dark, Jesus christ died for me now i live for him, i want to be holly so bad that i forget that i just started, i just need to trust god and trust in the full treatment hes working in me, now i need to try and sum up the courage to speak to people about god and his love, u knoe when u get something soo good that u can't keep to ur self thats how i feel, god is soo good, i love him with all my heart, i don't know how he sees me as his child after all that i did, but his love is eternal, i just wish to please him, i want to be great in his eyes, not in the eyes on men.
P.S.. if u finished reading all of that.. THANKYOU SOO MUCH IT MEANS ALOT FO REAL.. i knoe it's alot, but i got caught up in the moment when i was writing
.. well i dunno if my story will match up to everyone elses because even i am ashamed of telling it..well i lived in africa since i was born, my mom and dad were rich there, we had 2 houses, 3 cars, maids and everything, i lived a life of luxuary, i think the freedom was the start of my wrong ways, i was a menace since i was young doing things against what is right, but my mom and dad were to busy working and all that to tell me about god and what is wrong and right, like i heard about god but i really didn't care, i just wanted to do what i wanted, well we moved from africa to netherland, my parents wanted to give me and my sisters and brother better education, that was my first WINTER!!,Then after liek 3 months my mom wanted to move to Canada, this is when devil started talking to me and teaching me bad things, before it was just childish stupidness, i guess that is when the bad seed inside of me was growing, devil wanted to bring me up on his ways at a young age, and it worked, i started doing bad things, and thats when my mom started talking to me, but it all went in my ear and out the other, i was too hooked in the hood experience, and i kept feeding that evil in me day in and day out, until the bad things turned even bigger, i started stealing, robbing houses, sexin, smokin weed, gettin into gang related fights, treatin people under me like they r nothin, but through all that god has been showin me miricles, i knoe for a fact without gods grace and love i would have died when i was in that block, but u don't see gods hand in ur life when devil has ur eyes shut now do u?, i just thought it was my luck, the life of going to court became normal, my family wept for me day in and day out and for a moment i felt sorry and said to my self i would stop, but as soon as i exited my building door it was devil who was in the driving seat.
Then here comes god, at 16 i had everything power, grls, money, street repp, and a block i was part off, satan is somethin else fo real, u wanna hate TAKE UR HATRED TO HIM
, do what he hates, his weak stop his gods word feed it to him, what may look good is really bad bad u can't knoe because again he has his hands across ur face, so i thought everything was going crisp, then i cought my 4th or 5th offence and my mom couldn't bail me no more because she already did so i spent tyme in juvie for a while, during me tyme in there, mothers day came, i couldn't beleive it, the day i was supposed to praise my mom for all she has done, i was doing spending time in the bin, i called on mothers day, i told her i was done wit my ways, n all that, but as i came out i was back at it again, i guess what I.M said was tru " when the devil asks you for a dance say no, because a dance with the devil could last you forever".. i couldn't pull away from my bd ways, i didn't have enuff good in me to fight off the great evil in me, so my mom moved me to ajax, this is where i am right now, by moving here i started to calm down a little, i hated the fact that i had to move to this place but god had his reason, my makrs started to go up a little, until devil came again, he lurked in my shadow everytime, i couldn' tget rid of him, i foudn some friends, bt the wrong friends, we started doin stupidness, i started robbin houses again, sexin, i started blazin way more that i moved to ajax, because it's so boring that all uc an do is blaze, but this one day i was wit my bois and we were in my room, and they were jus there chyllin, den out of no where another me apeared infront of me (and i knoe u might think i was high but nah, we were lookin for grls that night not for highness) so this next mee started tellin me " STOP PLAYING WITH GOD TK, STOP PLAYING WITH GOD." the other me infront of me was red like it was burning, it looked like i was in pain (like burning in hell).. this is when i started to think, and i started to resist evil a little, i could tell satan didn't like that, the more i resisted the more he came at me, until this one day i was at church and they were having a life week thing it was really good, all my life my mom kept on telling me "tk god favours you, with all u do, he still shows his love towards you".. God shows love for everyone, but i should have been dead at that point, or in juvie for a couple of years, but god saved me, he always did but i never was able to tell, during that life week like on wednesday, my pastor had cups in front of the stage, the cups reflected how much dirt u had in ur cup(cup meaning life), one had full dirt, another had half dirt, another was empty and the last had half full water, the full dirt cup meant that u were in darkness and u need saving, the half dirt meant u knew of salvation but u arn't ready to get rid of ur old life to recive new life, and the empty cup means that u were saved but u lacked wisdom, and faith, u needed to ask god to fill ur cup, and the half full water one meant that u had wisdom, and you had faith, but it wasn't enough u needed to ask god to keep on filling your cup, the reason why there wasn't a full water cup is because no one is perfect, we are always imporving, so then the pastor asked us to come up and hold the cup that represented us, no one moved, so somethin in me made me decide to go up, i went up and grabed on the full dirty cup one and started to pray, tears fell from my eyes, i was so close to accepting god it was right there in my grasp, my light was startin to shine a little, then on thursday night i was waiting for my mom to come so we can go to the following service, but satan didn't want me to leave his grasp, i got a phone call from some dectactive saying how i had to turn me self in before 12 am that morning, i was shocked, i started questioning god asking him why he is doing this to me, i was so close then this came up, then my mom came and i told her what happend and she didn't even have a suprised face, she just said " tk devil sees your leaving him, and he is trying to bring you back, hold on to god". As we were driving i started to crying, i beleived in the words my mom told me and i went to the police station wit my head up they took me and i spentt the night in the holding sail waiting for bail in the morning. In my head i was thinking, well my mom dumped her bf so i had no one to bail me, and because my mom already bailed me she can't do it again, but i just kept faith, in the holding cell i was wit my boi, before when i got send to juvie, my boi got charged wit me, but he recieved bail and i got put in, so this time he was making fun saying how he will leave me in there again, but i never returned the same statment, i just said what ever happends will be gods plan, i didn't knoe how i was gonna get out because there was no one to bail me, but bail hearing came and both me and my boi were taken to court through the video survailance thing, they told us the statments made and all that, and then we were returned back to our holding cell waiting to see who got bail and who was going to juvie, hours passed and one police guard came and opened the door, he called my friends name, u don't knoe how i felt that tyme, my heart was torn, i couldn't beleive it, i sat back down motionless, i thought why god i beleived in u and u let me down, then the same police guard came and told me to come with him, as i walked up i looked to my right and i seen my boi moved to another holding cell, he was going to juvie and i was going home, and we both had the same conditions, his mom and dad already bailed him he couldn't get bail, but in some miricle i went out, i started laughing as i had my cuffs on me, GOD DID IT AGAIN, through all odds he saved me, my mom was waiting for me outside and she was just smiling and she told me the same thing "tk god favours you, with all u do, he still shows his love towards you", she talked to the judge and told him about her faith, judges are nto allowed to make decisions by emotions( learned that in law) but he told me mom she could take me home, my mom told me how the judge was christian god worked his hand in that court room. as we were driving home i started cring i thanked god for his mercy, i got home and that night we went to the last life cycle, it was friday, i will always remmeber that day, it was like my eyes finally saw god, i finally understood and thats when i accpeted him, i went home and i had my sleep, when i was about to go off to dream land, i felt a feeling in me that made me start laughing, it was soo smooth so peacefull it's nothing i have ever felt i felt, u knoe that instant feeling u get when something exciting is about to happend and u can't wait, well that feeling lasts a second, but this kept on going till today it's there in me, and till today i can't get over how good it feels, i thought i was gonna die from feeling too good lol if that makes sense, that tyme i never knew wat it was but now i knoe, thats when the holly spirt decended down to me, from that day i have been a god fanatic, i styll fall and sin, but we are justified thankz to christ, Now i'm on the journey to to damage satan, for all the years he had me in the dark, Jesus christ died for me now i live for him, i want to be holly so bad that i forget that i just started, i just need to trust god and trust in the full treatment hes working in me, now i need to try and sum up the courage to speak to people about god and his love, u knoe when u get something soo good that u can't keep to ur self thats how i feel, god is soo good, i love him with all my heart, i don't know how he sees me as his child after all that i did, but his love is eternal, i just wish to please him, i want to be great in his eyes, not in the eyes on men.
P.S.. if u finished reading all of that.. THANKYOU SOO MUCH IT MEANS ALOT FO REAL.. i knoe it's alot, but i got caught up in the moment when i was writing
