don't have the guts

[nessa]

I don't have the guts to call my doc....There is a chance i could be bipolar II..i fit every sign..and today, i basically had some kind of anger spell...was scary, but nobody knows. I don't know what to do. I pray every night for the courage in the morning, but i have yet to have it. My therapist doesn't believe me, and i can't tell my parents. I don't know what to do..and i need help....

does anyone have any ideas?

 

[FlatpickingJD]

I don't have the guts to call my doc....There is a chance i could be bipolar II..i fit every sign..and today, i basically had some kind of anger spell...was scary, but nobody knows. I don't know what to do. I pray every night for the courage in the morning, but i have yet to have it. My therapist doesn't believe me, and i can't tell my parents. I don't know what to do..and i need help....

does anyone have any ideas?

Nessa, it's not going to get better on its own. Your reaching out here is a good first step. I pray that you'll find a way to get to a doc. Are you in college? Can you go to your student health services? A first step might be to call a depression hotline if you can't bring yourself to go in to see someone. Not the same thing, I know, but they might be able to help.

Why doesn't your therapist believe you and why can't you tell your parents? I don't know your folks but ,from my experience, parents are a lot more supportive and stronger than than you might anticipate. Please don't delay. You deserve better than to suffer in silence.

 

[Zita123]

Your 18 You can make your own doc appnt. Your parents don't have to know until you tell them ( which you should when you find out ) It could be a lot of things. Go and make sure so you can get put on the right kinds of meds!
Hope this helps.
GOD BLESS!!
Zita

I don't have the guts to call my doc....There is a chance i could be bipolar II..i fit every sign..and today, i basically had some kind of anger spell...was scary, but nobody knows. I don't know what to do. I pray every night for the courage in the morning, but i have yet to have it. My therapist doesn't believe me, and i can't tell my parents. I don't know what to do..and i need help....

does anyone have any ideas?

 

[GuidingStar]

If you think you might be bipolar, you need to tell your doctor or a doctor that will listen. Once you're diagnosed, you will be able to get your life on track and it's only up from that point. Good luck, love.

 

[Jeshu]

I don't have the guts to call my doc....There is a chance i could be bipolar II..i fit every sign..and today, i basically had some kind of anger spell...was scary, but nobody knows. I don't know what to do. I pray every night for the courage in the morning, but i have yet to have it. My therapist doesn't believe me, and i can't tell my parents. I don't know what to do..and i need help....

does anyone have any ideas?

Nessa it wasn't untill I was 39 years of age untill I was finally diagnosed with bipolar with my third major psychosis.(which was changed a few years and a psychosis later to Schizo-effective) As you can see also doctors generally wait untill the signs are very obvious before they diagnose a mental illness in a person.

About you suffering all there in silence because you don't dare to tell your family. Don't do it! I suffered in silence from 12 till 36 years of age, it was hell. Who to talk to you must choose but ultimately a lot of people will know for you can't keep it silent for ever. My silence exploded when in my first psychosis I hurt those I loved the most - I don't recommend it.

Go and see a doctor at least and start the process especially when you are experiencing manic rages.

God's speed with this.

Gerry

 

[angelkiss]

Nessa, any form of Bipolar is nothing to mess with. You need to get to the doctor and seek the help you need. The longer you go without help, the more danger it puts you in. Possibly others, as well. Please, take a stand and insist that you have a problem and you need help. Even if it isn't bipolar, it could be something else. I will keep you in my prayers.

I don't have the guts to call my doc....There is a chance i could be bipolar II..i fit every sign..and today, i basically had some kind of anger spell...was scary, but nobody knows. I don't know what to do. I pray every night for the courage in the morning, but i have yet to have it. My therapist doesn't believe me, and i can't tell my parents. I don't know what to do..and i need help....

does anyone have any ideas?

 

[GreyWolf]

Hey Nessa, hello. I too encourage you to talk to your doctor. Just tell him how you've been feeling. I will pray for you.

 

[justafayes]

I don't have the guts to call my doc....There is a chance i could be bipolar II..i fit every sign..and today, i basically had some kind of anger spell...was scary, but nobody knows. I don't know what to do. I pray every night for the courage in the morning, but i have yet to have it. My therapist doesn't believe me, and i can't tell my parents. I don't know what to do..and i need help....

does anyone have any ideas?

Lord, thank you for my sis... I lift her up to you,, bless her with your wisdom. Go before her and speak to the heart of the Doctor. Guide and direct her as to what to do and where to go for you to help her...

Bless her to do what she has the ability to do,, and allow you to take care of the things she has no control over...

you're so good to us,, bless her in a mighty way,, In Jesus Name Amen

 

[nessa]

ty fayes....

I think one of my many issues is that i haven't quite found God in my life yet...i say i believe, i go to church...but i don't have him in my heart.

If i am bipolar..then it is just getting worse with every passing day....my mood swings get worse, i am eating less, and i just want to die.

I need help, and i know it, but I am so afraid to ask for help and to receive it.

 

[Jeshu]

I think one of my many issues is that i haven't quite found God in my life yet...i say i believe, i go to church...but i don't have him in my heart.

If i am bipolar..then it is just getting worse with every passing day....my mood swings get worse, i am eating less, and i just want to die.

I need help, and i know it, but I am so afraid to ask for help and to receive it.

Nessa please remember that God is in your heart when you have faith in Him. When we get depressed we can't feel God all that well in general, yet in the Bible it says that He will never forsake us.

You need Him right now with your mood swings, your low diet and your wish to die (I know these symptoms all to well).
It is as easy as accepting Jesus as LORD of your heart and believing that He will certainly come and reside inside of your heart in Spirit even if you can't feel Him because it says so in the Bible. (John 17:20-23)

I'm sure that with Jesus as friend you will find less loneliness and isolation.

 

[mikeforjesus]

I dont know if God sometimes makes exceptions .. but I think you need to be annointed with oil to receive the Holy Spirit (which I think you'se to be done by laying on of hands) .. and I think needs to be done by a legitimate priest... you can find some of these priests in some coptic orthodox churches and some other types of orthodox churches.. also I think baptism.. full water immersion is important for salvation.. unless you will die as a martyr for Christ I think..

 

[nessa]

I think my point is that i am honestly freaking out about any type of change.....i have lived on my own now for a little over a month, and it isn't not as easy as i was hoping it would be since i am closer to my family (when i lived on my own the first time, i was almost 1000 miles from them).

i have noticed that i am freaking out about the smallest stuff lately. Like there is a stomach virus going around home and the high school *bro is in high school*...and i am freaking out that i might get it (i have a fear of puking, literally). And to make matters worse, i already AM sick w/ a sinus infection and a cold.

My cutting has gotten better...i just think about it all the time now instead of do anything about it. but i am always thinking of killing myself....obviously, i am fine...but i am so afraid that i am going to do something that i will regret one of these days....

 

[nessa]

holy crap...mood swings are REALLY getting annoying.