Does the pain ever go away

[ConcreteAngel]

Hi

I feel so bad that i just want to hurt myself (but I wont). I just feel like I can't do this anymore...when will it end? I am in so much pain inside that i can hardly bare it.

 

[ConcreteAngel]

Thank you. I get so scared sometimes because I feel like God is so far away.

 

[Alcamo]

ConcreteAngel,

Many of us relate to what you’re saying and empathize. What are you doing to get those emotions out? Do you journal? Are you in counseling? When we’re filled with emotional thorns, they have to be pulled out. I hope you are giving yourself an outlet.

 

[BelindaP]

I compare the abuse to a really bad car accident. At first the pain is so bad you practically have to be on morphine to bear it. As your wounds heal, they get less and less painful, although they do flare up from time to time.

I'm to the point right now where I don't feel the pain most of the time. It sometimes is a dull ache just like the arthritis you get in a broken bone when you get older.

There is hope. It will get better. In the meantime, try to rest in God's comforting arms. He will carry you, if necessary.

 

[ConcreteAngel]

Thanks Guys
I'm seeing a psychologist (and I'm nearly one myself) and I also have the support of a wonderful female minister who helps me to work on all the God related stuff. It just feels so hopeless at the moment. I always used to self-mutilate before I was a Christian and now I'm just fighting the urge because I know once i start again I wont stop.

It's encouraging to hear from others who are further in their journey's than I am.

Love and prayers

 

[rikkitikkitavi]

Concrete Angel: It's hard to let go of the pain of feeling betrayed by the people you should be able to trust most in the world. I understand because, I too, was hurt and angry for many years. I didn't even realize I was. I had actually blocked it out along with much of what happened. I became involved in various self destructive behaviors. I didn't like myself. I felt guilty and ugly. But the good news is: the pain CAN go away. We have to give it to Jesus. In Mar of 1997 I gave my heart and soul to the Lord and I know it sounds cliche but I instantly found peace. God healed those scars and dried my tears. He wants to do the same for you, if you will allow Him. He loves you and you are very special to Him. GBU on your journey. If you need someone to talk to. I'm here.

 

[Surviving]

I'm so sorry to hear that you are hurting. The pain doesn't stop...it just gets easier to deal with. It might not seem like it now, but you are taking the right steps, and it will look like it in the future.

I stopped my self harming 6 1/2 years ago. That doesn't mean to say though that I get urges to do something. The only thing that is stopping me is knowing that I have a husband who loves me and hates to see me hurt in anyway. If I'm hurt, he gets hurt, and I don't want to see him hurt. However, that doesn't stop me feeling that when times get hard, I feel like doing something.

You will get there. Take each day at a time. God will be with you in each step you take. Take care.

 

[lostndown]

i know what u mean hon. i was date raped in febuaryand im still dealing w/ it. its hard n seems like it wont ever go away. i know it'll get better in time but im taking it day by day. it's gonna be ok in time hon.

if u want to talk, just pm me. im here for u. that goes for any1 if u need to talk and are female, just pm me. im a good listener and a good friend.

~michelle~ (alicia)

 

[ConcreteAngel]

Thanks all for all of your support.

 

[soyness]

I am one who also have Depression. I was hospitalized twice. YOu could fight this, as I did.