Does it ever seem like you are afraid of your own mind with OCD? I am still troubled that my mind can "say things" or I can force myself to think something that I don't believe. It's like my mind says it or wants to say it, but my heart doesn't. Is this how it is for everybody else? I'm still troubled by the holy spirit thoughts b/c of the fear...I do love the spirit, but I am afraid of what my mind might think or say so then my mind thinks about it. Is this familiar? It is so troubling to feel prisoned in your own head. I feel comforted when I know others feel the exact same way...to know I am not alone is a huge comfort. Obviously I have not beaten this, but I am trying...I went to the therapist yesterday for the first time and he was unfortunately clueless. I actually felt smarter than him and he was supposed to be helping me! I told him I needed someone specialized in OCD so I think he realized that was out of his league and he would make some phone calls for me.