It is not true that I do not want to have an opinion about Jesus. I am not sure why you say that.
It is likely that I misread your attitude, in which case you are right to correct me and I'm sorry to have presumed this.
I would love to have an opinion about Jesus. But it's not possible.
Are you certain that it is 'not possible'? I mean, this is why Jesus went peacefully, He knew that it would be possible for some of us to form the right opinion about Him.
I could say that Jesus exists, I could tell others that Jesus exists, I can pray to Jesus and tell my self that Jesus exists. I could do everything imaginable to "decide" that Jesus exists but it does not make Jesus exist for me. Do you see the problem here. It sounds like you are asking me to believe something in order to develop a belief in something.
The problem is that none of what you describe here is anything like "believing" that Jesus exists. What you are saying here is a hypocritical lie, lying to others and lying to yourself, and you are right not to do that.
Reason for honoring God? I am not sure what "honoring" God means. I have needs that motivate me to discover the truth about God. If God exists then then I want to know this so that I can know God. If I know God then I would honor God.
Am I missing anything you are saying?
I think you might be, but that's not really important to the matter. I think what is important is that you seem to be missing something God says. I would suggest you to read the entire new testament, or at the very least one of the entire gospels to get an idea of what Christianity is, because you're not looking here to just join a social club.
I've found that
The Living Translation is the most comfortable to read. It's paraphrased so it's familiar language, but it's surprisingly accurate for a paraphrased Bible. I'd suggest you read at least Matthew and Acts, that will give you a feel for how the church of Christ came about on earth, because it is clear that the kind of knowledge that you're seeking can only be obtained from God Himself and not just by picking the brains of believers.
It is important to take the right attitude toward this, as I have said, if you don't believe that the Bible is telling you the truth about God, you're simply not going to be able to hear the truth about God when you read it. This is because you've already decided to believe that it isn't true. Anyhow, it's up to you if you want to give it a go, but you really can't expect to grow a better understanding of God if you are not wanting to achieve that, and if you are wanting to find proof that you are right not to believe in God, strangely the Bible will give you the opportunity to believe that too. So it really will be a test of your sincerity toward God.
Here's what Ray said:
1. Approach the Bible with the attitude that it is God speaking to you, telling you about how to relate to Him.
This is bang on. If you think the Bible is men trying to dicate your life, you'll be resistant to it. If however you think this is the official documented truth about the God that Jesus and Christians know, then at the very least you will learn something you didn't know, and could even come away with a new set of questions to fuel your fire.