Grace and peace to you!
I cannot believe this weekend!!! Well, it was very spiritual and very beautiful. I prayed and worshiped, even as I cleaned my house, from Friday evening through Sunday afternoon. Masses were wonderful on Saturday and Sunday. I spent a lot of time in intercessory prayer, meditation, contemplation, and of course, the Divine Office.
Sunday I went to my French church,
comme d'habitude, and afterwards, I went to work out at the gym for 2 hours. I felt PUMPED!!! Anyway, nothing happened
there -- it was later that I got sucked into some weird stuff.
I ran into this guy I knew who is the brother of the close friend of a friend of mine from Turkey. We met last year at his party at his place. He's from Costa Rica originally, but grew up in Miami. Anyway, he and some friends were on their way (it was late afternoon) to a birthday party for a friend and they asked me to come along. Now, I didn't know anyone but this Costa Rican guy from the group of 5 on their way to the party. And I'd not seen this guy for a year (not since my Turkish friend's visit last February!) but hey, I figured why not.
Probably it was a mistake. I wonder if God has a wicked sense of humour and I am sure He's laughing His divine butt off at me, but the party was very odd.
Already most of the people, by 5:30pm, were drunk out of their minds. This included all the women who took great pleasure in groping me, unbuttoning my shirt, kissing me, "grinding" me when dancing... it was not cool. Then I saw this one Costa Rican girl I'd met at that party last year, one with whom I "made out" at the time (this was before I made the decision to enter the Capuchins) last year, and had a "mild" interest in her
then but she never called me back so I got over her pretty fast. Besides, she wasn't
that alluring, she can't compare to my Jewish Carpenter spouse (who, even though He still lives with His Father, He's
waaaaaaaay cooler than any mortal woman I have met).
But there she was, buzzed out of her mind and pretending like last year was right now and would NOT get the hint, in all her kissing, touching and groping that I was
not interested...and would
not reciprocate! In fact, each of the 10 women who took their turns groping me did not get the clue. So at one point, I said to them very sternly, "You have
defiled the Temple of the Lord. Do not touch me again or you will incur the wrath of my Father in Heaven."
There was silence.
"Oh Timmy, why do you have to be so
serious all the time! Lighten up!"
Anyway, then another girl, who was way drunk and spent a lot of time telling me about how she was going to Texas to meet her "internet loverboy" (my words) next week, was very sweet (though drunk) and didn't grope me, but then she said, "I should be getting home. Come home with me. You're sleeping over."
I tried to tell her that that was stupid and was
not going to happen (by this point, all the people I'd come with had already bailed out on me to go watch the Grammy's...) and the more she insisted, I just turned and walked out.
And people ask me, "isn't it going to be hard to live the celibate life?!? To live without sex forever?!?"
Not when all the women I meet are as brazen as these.
Seigneur, prends pitié!