Distressed

[DeerGlow]

I am having blasphemous thoughts saying evil against God and talking about rejecting Him. I feel hell-bound and frightened and sad and also angry at the thought of being trapped in hell. I kind of wonder if I have just been trying to make myself love God to save myself as much as if He had said all who love rubber ducks will be saved, trying to love a rubber duck for no other reason. I feel very hard hearted and full of doubt. Please pray for God to have mercy and lead me to salvation. Please pray for God to show me His grace and mercy and to accept me.

 

[Victory-N-Christ]

Prayers...

 

[DeerGlow]

Prayers...

Thank you. I don't really know what else to do I feel very depressed and weighted.

 

[faroukfarouk]

Thank you. I don't really know what else to do I feel very depressed and weighted.

Regular prayer and the Scriptures is where to go for the settling of your thoughts, right?

A 'quick fix' isn't what is to be expected: we need to discipline our hearts and minds in prayer and Scripture reading, don't we?

 

[Victory-N-Christ]

Thank you. I don't really know what else to do I feel very depressed and weighted.

Hi. Try to remember that Jesus loves you and will forgive anyone who asks. I'm really sorry that you're going through this.Prayers..

 

[SpiritofaDove]

I pray for you often. I know one day you are going to overcome all this with the Lord's help. You will look back and see how far you have come. I believe it. you just make sure you don't stop believing it. God bless.

 

[DeerGlow]

I pray for you often. I know one day you are going to overcome all this with the Lord's help. You will look back and see how far you have come. I believe it. you just make sure you don't stop believing it. God bless.

It just feels so hopeless right now. Like I will never be free from my sin. I don't want to do anything but I can't die because I'm so afraid to burn.

 

[Truthfrees]

praying

 

[Theadorus]

I am having blasphemous thoughts saying evil against God and talking about rejecting Him. I feel hell-bound and frightened and sad and also angry at the thought of being trapped in hell. I kind of wonder if I have just been trying to make myself love God to save myself as much as if He had said all who love rubber ducks will be saved, trying to love a rubber duck for no other reason. I feel very hard hearted and full of doubt. Please pray for God to have mercy and lead me to salvation. Please pray for God to show me His grace and mercy and to accept me.

Here my advice when it comes to your thoughts.

2 Cor 10:4, (For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds
2 Cor 10:5, Casting down imaginations (Thoughts, reasoning), and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God (Human wisdom, Human reasoning, Demonic forces), and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ;

Here is a verse you should really look into if you are having that much trouble with those kind of thoughts. This is a promise from God that we have a say over what are minds think about, and that we can command our thoughts to come into submission to the things of Christ. My pastor once told us that we cannot stop a bird from flying over our head, but we can stop it from building a nest in our hair. Likewise we can't stop thoughts from coming into our mind, but we can stop them from staying. So when you do have evil thoughts like that come in (which are from demons), we can tell them to leave in the name of Jesus.

So read these verses, and sow these words into your heart. They will come in handy when the enemy comes against you like that.

 

[Theadorus]

It just feels so hopeless right now. Like I will never be free from my sin. I don't want to do anything but I can't die because I'm so afraid to burn.

Right here, to me, it sounds like you are trusting more in your ability to live a holy life, than you're are trusting in what Jesus did for you on the cross. The moment you became saved, God sealed you with the Holy Spirit, and you were imputed with Jesus' righteousness. So therefore, when God looks at you, he doesn't see that dirty old sinner we use to be, but rather, he sees Christ in you. Right now, in your spirit, you are as holy, righteous, redeemed, sinless, blameless, reconciled, and saved as you'll ever be. Your confidence needs to shift from you, and be placed in Christ. Because if it doesn't, I hate to say this, but you'll live like this for the rest of your Christian walk. You'll live a life in fear, rather than a life a victory that Christ promised for us.

I'll be praying for you as well

 

[DeerGlow]

Right here, to me, it sounds like you are trusting more in your ability to live a holy life, than you're are trusting in what Jesus did for you on the cross. The moment you became saved, God sealed you with the Holy Spirit, and you were imputed with Jesus' righteousness. So therefore, when God looks at you, he doesn't see that dirty old sinner we use to be, but rather, he sees Christ in you. Right now, in your spirit, you are as holy, righteous, redeemed, sinless, blameless, reconciled, and saved as you'll ever be. Your confidence needs to shift from you, and be placed in Christ. Because if it doesn't, I hate to say this, but you'll live like this for the rest of your Christian walk. You'll live a life in fear, rather than a life a victory that Christ promised for us.

I don't know I am saved though.

 

[Theadorus]

I don't know I am saved though.

Did you asked Jesus into your heart? Did you ask to receive salvation?

 

[DeerGlow]

Did you asked Jesus into your heart? Did you ask to receive salvation?

When I was a little kid. Then in high school I fell away into atheism and Taoism and horrible sins.

 

[Theadorus]

When I was a little kid. Then in high school I fell away into atheism and Taoism and horrible sins.

If you don't feel confidant that you really accepted Christ when you were a Child, then why not asked now? Instead of worrying about whether you are a Christian or not, why not make yourself confidant today. All you have to say is, "Lord I believe in you, I believe you died on the cross for my sins and made salvation available to us. So Lord, right now, I believe and I receive your gift of salvation for my life, and I thank you Lord."

And there you go, you can now have the confidence that you are saved. Don't just repeat it though, but really mean it when you pray that prayer. I know you really want to be saved, so I really don't have any doubt that you'll pray that prayer in faith.

 

[elytron]

You continue to suffer so much. If you want, I will pray for you again.

I still believe that you should seek/try Doctor's medicine and care. In addition to Christian counseling.

In the past I suffered from similar evil thoughts towards God. Believed I was doomed and going to be sent to hell for blasphemy. So I started to fast every day, and almost died from starvation. Eventually was sent against my will to a hospital, were they made me take medicine. I resisted for a time though, because I was told demons were oppressing me. They were well meaning Christians, but lacked experience with mental illness. So eventually the Meds prescribed me took effect. I improved and was let out to my parents. Was diagnosed as Schizophrenic with OCD. I take medicine to this day, was the answer to my prayers. Was also blessed to have zero side effects from them. I haven't had a blasphemous thought in years.

You are saved from your sins already, and loved by Jesus. Just may need some medicine on the side to help you. So you can stop thinking these random thoughts towards Him. Sorry for the long post, and if it wasn't helpful.

 

[DeerGlow]

You continue to suffer so much. If you want, I will pray for you again.

I still believe that you should seek/try Doctor's medicine and care. In addition to Christian counseling.

In the past I suffered from similar evil thoughts towards God. Believed I was doomed and going to be sent to hell for blasphemy. So I started to fast every day, and almost died from starvation. Eventually was sent against my will to a hospital, were they made me take medicine. I resisted for a time though, because I was told demons were oppressing me. They were well meaning Christians, but lacked experience with mental illness. So eventually the Meds prescribed me took effect. I improved and was let out to my parents. Was diagnosed as Schizophrenic with OCD. I take medicine to this day, was the answer to my prayers. Was also blessed to have zero side effects from them. I haven't had a blasphemous thought in years.

You are saved from your sins already, and loved by Jesus. Just may need some medicine on the side to help you. So you can stop thinking these random thoughts towards Him. Sorry for the long post, and if it wasn't helpful.

I see a counsellor unofficially (went to church with her, she's liscenced as a Christian counsellor I think) but I lost my driver's liscence and I don't think my parents would let me go without a liscence. I don't know where it's gone to. :/ Don't worry, it is helpful. If you don't mind praying for my faith to remain I would appreciate it.

 

[Kindled]

Continuing To Pray For You,Brother!

 

[Solomons Porch]

Praying

 

[DeerGlow]

Thank you all for your support and prayers. I am doing better than earlier but do not think my recovery (overall, it's been a long struggle) is done. I am trying to push through and ignore the impulsive thoughts. All of you.

 

[“Paisios”]

I still pray that God will calm your fears and erase your doubts, that He would free you from the prison of your mind, and give you the peace that comes from knowing Him and being assured of His love. His love is unchanging, but your perception and understanding of it can become clearer. Walk in faith, sister. You can do nothing to make Him love you less, nor can you do anything to make Him love you more. His love for you is not dependent on you, but on His faithfulness and loving kindness to His people.