discontent in life

[orangeyyy]

Background: Physically abused etc as child, have been told i have either bipolar or some kind of anxiety disorder

Hello
I need prayers and suggestions
I have always wanted to live anywhere other than where i live. I went to a vocational school so I dont have a degree. My spouse wants to live in the same place forever. The only way we can move is if i make more money than my spouse which would convice them it would be ok to move. The problem is i dont have any money for shcool and we make just a little too much to get any aide from the goverment.
I pray and pray to be content with my life but i just cant, i feel below everyone else and held back. I dont take any medicine, should i or am i just discontent. overall my husband and i want to totally differnt things in life.
Has anyone been through this? Is this a sign of my bipolar or is it truly just discontentment?
Thank you
orangey

 

[Alive again]

I also am a go getter and love to travel. My hubby is a TV junky and couch potato, runs in ruts and grows deep roots. He would promise we would move if x, y and z. When x,y an dz happened he just wouldn't do it. I ended up very depressed and living a lot of my life in unforgiveness and bitterness and anger. It was not fun. I let my choices and anger worsen my depression. Finances were such that I could not travel on my own, because my anger and depression got so bad I could no longer work and I ended up on disability. My pdoc believes this pattern kicked in my bp genes as I had not had manias until in my 40's. I say all of this to say. There are things in our life we may or may not be able to do anything aobut, but we can control or responses emotionally to them. And that can have not only a dramatic effect on our emotions, but on our life.

No one here can say whether you have bp or not, only a qualified dr can. Is discontentment a part of BP or depression, I honestly don't know and have not thought much about it. Butr I do know I wish I had chosen much younger to react differently to my circumstances and that I would be in a far different place then I am in now. But I also know the Lord has and will redeem the years the Locust have eaten.

Feel free to PM or email me, as it sounds as if we deal with similiar idssues.

I will be out fo town until thursday or Friday.

But welcome to our little bp site!