Discerning sadness and loneliness

[TheLordIsMySheperd]

Dear my brothers and sisters in Christ,

I would like to get your opinion and advice regarding what I feel in the last several months.

A little about me:
I was divorced 7 years ago (it was 10 years of marriage), and my ex-wife took our son with her, and I am unable to contact my son (they're out of the country). My daughter lives with me. I am recently re-married, 1.5 years ago, with a wonderful christian woman.

I live in the country and city where my wife and her family settled in. My parents, siblings, and close childhood friends live far away (out of the country). I haven't been able to find any close friend, as culturally friendship is different in here. My wife is a kind woman, but a bit short in empathy (she tried hard to), thus made it hard for her to be able to be in my shoes. Our emotional closeness is ok, even though not as close as I hope it would be. And I am ok with the situation, I go to Jesus to fulfill my emotional need, and fulfill my lack of close friends.

Day by day, I feel that He changed my heart more and more. I feel the changes, He soften my heart and I couldn't watch action movie lately as I felt they're too violent. (I didn't feel this way when I watch that movie couple years ago).

However, I am also saddened more and more with everything that happened in this world. It is so sad to see manipulations, greediness, and selfishness. I don't hate the people, I am only deeply saddened by their actions, as I saw the suffering that those actions bring to other people.

It made me longing more and more to see Jesus face to face (expecting His second coming soon). And from time to time, this sadness and longing crippled me.

I saw my friends help with poor elderly people in my home country in a very meaningful way, something that I cannot do here because of the law, etc.

I also feel that perhaps being unable to see my son all this time contributed to this sadness that I feel.

I told Jesus, my life is His, my breath is His, everything I have is His. If He allows/lets me to experience this sadness, I will gladly accept it and live with it.

But this burden and sadness is so heavy sometimes.....

Anybody feel the same way? Any suggestion?
I would really appreciate any help.

 

[rob_aston]

But this burden and sadness is so heavy sometimes..

brother, i prayed and Jesus

 

[shelley1952]

Dear my brothers and sisters in Christ,

I would like to get your opinion and advice regarding what I feel in the last several months.

A little about me:
I was divorced 7 years ago (it was 10 years of marriage), and my ex-wife took our son with her, and I am unable to contact my son (they're out of the country). My daughter lives with me. I am recently re-married, 1.5 years ago, with a wonderful christian woman.

I live in the country and city where my wife and her family settled in. My parents, siblings, and close childhood friends live far away (out of the country). I haven't been able to find any close friend, as culturally friendship is different in here. My wife is a kind woman, but a bit short in empathy (she tried hard to), thus made it hard for her to be able to be in my shoes. Our emotional closeness is ok, even though not as close as I hope it would be. And I am ok with the situation, I go to Jesus to fulfill my emotional need, and fulfill my lack of close friends.

Day by day, I feel that He changed my heart more and more. I feel the changes, He soften my heart and I couldn't watch action movie lately as I felt they're too violent. (I didn't feel this way when I watch that movie couple years ago).

However, I am also saddened more and more with everything that happened in this world. It is so sad to see manipulations, greediness, and selfishness. I don't hate the people, I am only deeply saddened by their actions, as I saw the suffering that those actions bring to other people.

It made me longing more and more to see Jesus face to face (expecting His second coming soon). And from time to time, this sadness and longing crippled me.

I saw my friends help with poor elderly people in my home country in a very meaningful way, something that I cannot do here because of the law, etc.

I also feel that perhaps being unable to see my son all this time contributed to this sadness that I feel.

I told Jesus, my life is His, my breath is His, everything I have is His. If He allows/lets me to experience this sadness, I will gladly accept it and live with it.

But this burden and sadness is so heavy sometimes.....

Anybody feel the same way? Any suggestion?
I would really appreciate any help.

I went through a time of what you are expressing but there was no family involved as with you and your son. For me it happened after a time of very intense studying and praying for several weeks. I believe that God allowed me to momentarily feel a light version of what He feels about what is going on in the world, even at that I couldnt handle it. It was so heavy on me and I felt so helpless about all I was seeing so I finally had to ask Him to take it away and He did. He did tell me He wasnt expecting me to do everything but to just do my part. Every so often I start feeling that again when I see things going on but I know its just a reminder. Like you I long for Him to come and get us and to stop the suffering.
I don't know if your situation with your son is part of it but I would imagine so, but all I can offer in advice is prayer that God will help you in your situation. Ask Him to lighten the burden you are feeling. Ask Him to show you where He wants you to help too. No matter where we live there are always people to help in some way. I hope you have a place of worship and if so ask someone there.

I told Jesus, my life is His, my breath is His, everything I have is His.

You told Him this now find out exactly what it means.
I will say a prayer for you and your family too. Remember, you are not totally alone, be careful to nurture this family you do have with you. Do not let your feelings come between you all.
God be with you.

 

[TheLordIsMySheperd]

brother, i prayed and Jesus

Thank you so much, Rob

 

[TheLordIsMySheperd]

I believe that God allowed me to momentarily feel a light version of what He feels about what is going on in the world, even at that I couldn't handle it. It was so heavy on me and I felt so helpless about all I was seeing so I finally had to ask Him to take it away and He did. He did tell me He wasn't expecting me to do everything but to just do my part. Every so often I start feeling that again when I see things going on but I know its just a reminder. Like you I long for Him to come and get us and to stop the suffering.

Thank you so much Shelley, I am glad to hear this experience of yours.
The longing is "tormenting", and the sadness is "choking"....
I will ask Him to lift it up.

You told Him this now find out exactly what it means.
I will say a prayer for you and your family too. Remember, you are not totally alone, be careful to nurture this family you do have with you. Do not let your feelings come between you all.
God be with you.

I see, now I understand. It's so beautiful to see His heart, but somehow I feel my heart became so "fragile" as it was easily saddened by what happened.
Thank you so much Shelley.