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picassoui
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Usualy for me at least it is easy to discern between what are intrusive thoughts and what are my own, but there are times when i have had blamphemous thoughts and im not certain whether i thought them myself or whether it was a product of mental illness ..Dealng with these thoughts are different when you know they are not yours so to speak , but when you are not sure it is alwful.
This morning it happened , I was in bed and a blasphemous thought or thoughts came up about the Holy Ghost and i cannot be sure if i thought it myself as in a FREE thought or if it was my condition the uncertainty is killing me and while i know that that terror is probably ocd becaue of runimrating still i cannot be sure if it was my thought as in from my heart or whether it was not So im terrified .. I dont want to think these things concsiously about the Holy Ghost i want to believe there is still hope for me but one of the fears isthat the thoughts came from my heart into my mind and that because i was relaxed it emerged .The way a person who is drunk often reveals what is in his heart . Im sure someone can relate to this fear and to the question:" How do i know it was not realy from me ?"
Thanks Andy
This morning it happened , I was in bed and a blasphemous thought or thoughts came up about the Holy Ghost and i cannot be sure if i thought it myself as in a FREE thought or if it was my condition the uncertainty is killing me and while i know that that terror is probably ocd becaue of runimrating still i cannot be sure if it was my thought as in from my heart or whether it was not So im terrified .. I dont want to think these things concsiously about the Holy Ghost i want to believe there is still hope for me but one of the fears isthat the thoughts came from my heart into my mind and that because i was relaxed it emerged .The way a person who is drunk often reveals what is in his heart . Im sure someone can relate to this fear and to the question:" How do i know it was not realy from me ?"
Thanks Andy