Hi....
I want to tell you that its not wrong to question God...it shows that you are seeking the truth...it shows that your heart has a desire to know the truth....it shows that you just wont believe anything the world throws at u....a questioning attitude is something God welcomes. The world and "religion" teaches that we shouldnt question God....but thats just a lie from the enemy who wants to keep u from knowing the truth. God doesnt just welcome questioning, He is also open to negotiation! What makes the difference is your attitude.....are you coming to God with a critique kind of questioning, or a seeking kind of questioning.
I myself am from a Hindu family, but found Jesus about 4 years ago...right now im praying for my family's salvation and i know my miracle is just around the corner. But what i want to say through this is that for all these years, i studied the Bible and i prayed about things.....but i still never had all the answers. I didnt know how i could prove to my parents why Christianity is the right faith. Also, Im a science student and i have an innate questioning attitude. But no matter what happened, I believed simply in my heart that the Bible is true and Jesus is Lord. And i told God that if this is so, then everything in this world must agree with your word, including other religions. On this basis, i started researching other religions for proof of salvation through Jesus. Before I took a stand for this in my heart, I thought its sin to look into other religions...i thought just like u...i thought i should just shut up and believe what the Bible says and not question God about anything....but this thinking only made me narrow minded. This was another lie from the enemy. The Bible says "My people perish for the lack of knowledge." So, believing in my heart that Jesus is Lord, i started questioning other religions and their teachings.....i started looking for scientific evidence towards the Creation in Genesis......and i started finding amazing answers to all of those questions! I finally was seeing the truth! I found verses in the Hindu scriptures that talk about a God-Man coming to earth, being born of a virgin, sacrificing his blood for our sins, and dying on a sacrifical post....this is in the Hindu scriptures.....i found that modern hinduism which is based on idol-worship is actually opposed in their ancient scriptures. What im trying to say is that the more i questioned, the more truth i found. I found that world medicine has put all diseases of this world into 39 major categories....and the Bible says that "through Jesus' stripes, I am healed" and it records that Jesus took 39 whip-lashes. Coincidence?? I think not! I found biblical scriptures pertaining to dinosaurs. I also found how the bible explains the presence of all these fossils and man-like creatures on the earth....and this explanation was actually provided 400 years before the evolution theory came up!
My point is that when you question God, God sees your attitude of questioning. Its not wrong to question God at all.....as a matter of fact, unless we question Him, He wont reveal His character to us....but we have to know in our hearts our intentions of questioning Him! Through all my questioning, i found awesome answers and it increased my confidence in Christ. If i hadnt questioned, i would still be in bondage and would never know the extent of God's truth.
I hope this helped. Be strong minded and do not fall weak. Pray to God to give you the strength during this time.
Take care.
-SBB