Did God remove him from my life? or did God remove me from his?

[luaulucy]

I'm so hurt,
If you haven't read my previous thread heres a little insider.
I'm 19, I drifted from God in the worst way possible, drugs, alchohol, sex..
So in about august of 2017 I hit a new low point in my life. I gave up all the sining I was doing but didn't think to seek God.
Well I spent about a month in my apartment, I lived alone for a while.
And to keep myself from doing stupid things I tried to not go out much, or talk to guys.
Well I started talking to this guy who I actually didn't like.
I met him at the skatepark I would regularly go to,
We started talking through snapchat and instagram a lot and he asked to hang out.
I didnt really want to so I lagged on him, but again he asked. I let him come over to my apartment and nothing happened. Well we did end up cuddling because he stole my phone and knew the passcode somehow and I was holding onto it for dear life.
I didnt think anything of it but the next day he just showed up to my apartment, things went down and we ended hooking up. He told me he was christian and that he was in the church band. We spent the next month together almost every other day,
This is where it gets bad, I did like him but something in me didn't let me show him
We fornicated A LOT. I would tell him mean things like "I'm going to drop you and hook up with a bunch of guys to get over you", and I'd always try to end whatever we had going on because I knew i'd end up getting hurt. He never let me go, he knew the struggles I had, and that I was eventually going to move to a different state. I'd also hang out with guys who he knew wanted to hook up with me (I wouldn't do anything, I would actually talk to them about him). One night he asked what he thought of us, and what our relationship was. And I just replied with "We're just F*** buddies". This obviously hurt him bad, but he still stuck around. We had a few pregnancy scares, but we ended up not even caring if I was or not. This confused me a lot. Well he ended up texting me one day and telling me that he doesn't feel attached to me. I freaked out and said I didn't wanna continue anymore, and he said no that wed talk things out.
I said okay but it would have to be on a specific day or else I didn't want to hear anything. Well that day came and I texted him that he could come over and talk to me. Never replied, and ended up posting on social media. I freaked out and told him horrible things and blocked him. Well I ended up telling my mom EVERYTHING. I talked to him the next day and appologized. I tried to be cordial but something in me wasn't going to let him go. I prayed to God that day and asked if it was his will he would take me back. He ended up taking me back but things weren't the same. I asked him a couple days later if he felt the same way, and he said he didn't want anything to do with me because things were getting complicated in his life.
I begged him to give me a second chance and that we could fix things through God. He merely said "I'll talk to my mom about it" this made me feel bad because as a christian I would've expected him to say "Ill pray about this". I obviously know that him and I weren't in the right path with the Lord but this broke me.
I would constantly text him asking for forgiveness, and pray for him daily. He wouldn't reply to my texts ever.
Well I began to continue my life, and stop bothering him. But then he started stalking my instagram and I would tell him to leave me alone because it confused me.
Well now he has a girlfriend and I'm crushed, I continue to pray to God daily for him.
I don't want him to stay in the same path he was in, it hurts me so much to see him in a relationship.
I just wanna know what y'all think, did God remove me from his life? or did God remove him from mine?
Also, I am now devoting my life to God again. I asked for forgiveness and have been born again. but still I feel weak for this kid and can't get him out of my mind and my prayers.

 

[Another Lazarus]

Girls should never let a boy taste her body beyond marriage, because once they taste it easily they wont appreciate it any longer.

You need repent and focus on God.
There's still tomorrow........

 

[Kit Sigmon]

What matters is that you live godly now...no need to
go over past ungodly living. It wasn't how you were to
be living any ways.


Romans 6 Amplified Bible (AMP)
Believers Are Dead to Sin, Alive to God
6 What shall we say [to all this]? Should we continue in sin and practice sin as a habit so that [God’s gift of] grace may increase and overflow?
2 Certainly not! How can we, the very ones who died to sin, continue to live in it any longer?
3 Or are you ignorant of the fact that all of us who have been baptized into Christ Jesus were baptized into His death? 4 We have therefore been buried with Him through baptism into death, so that just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory and power of the Father, we too might walk habitually in newness of life [abandoning our old ways]. 5 For if we have become one with Him [permanently united] in the likeness of His death, we will also certainly be [one with Him and share fully] in the likeness of His resurrection. 6 We know that our old self [our human nature without the Holy Spirit] was nailed to the cross with Him, in order that our body of sin might be done away with, so that we would no longer be slaves to sin. 7 For the person who has died [with Christ] has been freed from [the power of] sin.

8 Now if we have died with Christ, we believe that we will also live [together] with Him, 9 because we know [the self-evident truth] that Christ, having been raised from the dead, will never die again; death no longer has power over Him.
10 For the death that He died, He died to sin [ending its power and paying the sinner’s debt] once and for all; and the life that He lives, He lives to [glorify] God [in unbroken fellowship with Him].
11 Even so, consider yourselves to be dead to sin [and your relationship to it broken],
but alive to God [in unbroken fellowship with Him] in Christ Jesus.

12 Therefore do not let sin reign in your mortal body so that you obey its lusts and passions.
13 Do not go on offering members of your body to sin as instruments of wickedness.
But offer yourselves to God [in a decisive act] as those alive [raised] from the dead [to a new life], and your members [all of your abilities—sanctified, set apart] as instruments of righteousness [yielded] to God.
14 For sin will no longer be a master over you, since you are not under Law [as slaves],
but under [unmerited] grace [as recipients of God’s favor and mercy].

15 What then [are we to conclude]? Shall we sin because we are not under Law,
but under [God’s] grace? Certainly not! 1
6 Do you not know that when you continually offer yourselves to someone to do his will, you are the slaves of the one whom you obey, either [slaves] of sin, which leads to death, or of obedience, which leads to righteousness (right standing with God)?

17 But thank God that though you were slaves of sin, you became obedient with all your heart to the standard of teaching in which you were instructed and to which you were committed. 18 And having been set free from sin, you have become the slaves of righteousness [of conformity to God’s will and purpose].
19 I am speaking in [familiar] human terms because of your natural limitations [your spiritual immaturity]. For just as you presented your bodily members as slaves to impurity and to [moral] lawlessness, leading to further lawlessness, so now offer your members [your abilities, your talents] as slaves to righteousness, leading to sanctification [that is, being set apart for God’s purpose].

20 When you were slaves of sin, you were free in regard to righteousness [you had no desire to conform to God’s will].
21 So what benefit did you get at that time from the things of which you are now ashamed? [None!] For the outcome of those things is death!
22 But now since you have been set free from sin and have become [willing] slaves to God, you have your benefit, resulting in sanctification [being made holy and set apart for God’s purpose], and the outcome [of this] is eternal life.
23 For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God [that is, His remarkable, overwhelming gift of grace to believers] is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.

 

[paul1149]

Slow down. Stop chasing him, stop pushing him away. Focus on God, and gear up for the long haul. Maybe when the dust settles things can get worked out, the right way. See Mat 6:33 and the last part of James 3.

 

[Sketcher]

I just wanna know what y'all think, did God remove me from his life? or did God remove him from mine?

I don't know which of the two, or that it has to be either/or. Focus on your walk with God.