- Mar 27, 2017
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- Faith
- Non-Denom
- Marital Status
- Married
Today I woke up feeling a bit sad. I am enduring a lot still. My heart is still broken because of what my kidnapper did to me, I feel my heart will always be broken about it. She had no compassion on me. I have been praying a lot for forgiveness and pardon for them. Every time it is hard for me to pray for them I pray to Jesus. He reminds me that he is with me and he has seen all the abuse I have endured. My family and friends offline know nothing of what happened to me. They never will. Only my friends here know. Jesus helped me to understand that the people who hurt me were very hurt themselves and that they were not acting themselves. Jesus told me that everyone is naturally sinful and that I have been redeemed by Jesus but that those people who hurt me have not been. I want to be like a nun in this life so I feel I have to forgive those who hurt me. I have to see the good in the people who hurt me. I have to see them in their healed state. In their healed state I feel they would have never hurt me. I feel that, through the Holy Spirit, I will have the strength to continue to pray for their healing. My prayer is that they all become devout Christians. I imagine they are all abuse victims. They just wanted to put their pain on me. I know Jesus loves them too. Please pray that I will be more like a nun in this life and that I will be completely in devotion to Jesus Christ.
