Depression

[suase10]

Hello everyone and blessings to you,

I am looking for people out there who have or are experiencing what I am currently experiencing. About two years ago I moved to a new state to start a new life with my new husband. As soon as I moved here, I knew something was strange because I grew very lethargic and uninterested in the world around me. It turned out that I had a temporary type of depression and was prescribed a low dose of Lexapro 10 mg. to help me. It did. My husband was not supportive and about less than a year later, we ended up divorcing. He said he couldn't deal with my "depression". Finally, my parents were able to move over here and things got a lot better. I started attending counseling and I no longer have to be on the medicine.

I am currently very unhappy in my work. I work as a behavior specialist consultant; I work for families who have children that experience moderate-severe behavior problems. It is an overwhelming job, doesn't pay a lot, and I don't have my own office. I drive to all my appts. and I get no gas reimbursement excpet for mileage reimbursement that I will receive during tax time. I am up to 13 clients right now. I hired a woman who is a job consultant and she works busily submitting my resume to tons of employers. I have already had one unsuccessful interview and I am awaiting the most recent.

I have been suddenly feeling very depressed and in a state of dispair. I don't know what to do. I still seek counseling and my therapist prays with me, my current fiance and parents are aware of my situation and so are my pastors. With all of that, I don't feel a sense of relief. I feel every day locked in this world that I can't get out of.

Does anyone out there understand what I am talking about? I know God has a plan for me, but I dont' understand why I keep running into these jobs that leave me unfilled and when I try to go towards a job that I know I have the qualifications for, I get turned down. I have masters degree for pete sake and I am working on a doctorate. I have experience working in different arenas, I have enthusiasm, and I am a team player. but I keep getting doors shut in my face. Someone told me its because of my age and many people prefer people in the 40's and above to take director's type of positions and people with managment experience. But how else am I supposed to gain mangerial experience if no one gives me the chance?

I just need your prayers. I am feeling deeply depressed and alone. The friends that I used to have back home never call me and I make a huge effort to connect with new people here in this new state, but I have to call them if I should ever gain constant communication. I think that is ridiculous.

My fiance is extremely supportive and I can talkto him about anything. However, I want a larger network of people that I can turn to besides him and my parents. I dont' want my family and my fiance to get tired of me complaining about my job.

I am sorry I have written so much. If you want to reply please feel free to PM me.

Thank you for hearing the cry of my soul and may God bless you,

 

[Soulwings]

I'm not sure if what I say will be of any help, but know that I read and empathised.

It sounds to me as though you're in a high stress job. Is there any way that you could take a break from it for a brief while and get yourself sorted out a bit? Or even go into a new type of job altogether?

I'm glad that you are in counseling. I am too, and it helps, especially if your counselor is a Christian (mine isn't *specifically* although we do talk some spiritual matters in my sessions). Are you on any medication? If not, is there a possibility of you getting on some anti-anxiety or antidepressant (or both)?

God bless. You're in my prayers. If you want to talk, I'm always around.

 

[harmony85]

Hey, Im sorry to hear of your suffering.

I know it's not much what Im about to say but I hope it helps;

I was depressed from a young age for a good 6 years, until the Lord found me and gave me the only hope Ive ever had!

Its awful being depressed! But the good thing is is that your never alone! Being depressed taught me through not caring nor seeing the importance in 'human' paths and activities, that life certainly isnt about such things at all! Relevance lol.. It got to me that I didnt find our career culture important and I wondered what actually was worthwhile.

I took my appreciation in the small things like going for short walks thru a pretty park, or silence..

Unfortunately, things dont always go our way and also other things that do take time. If things happened too quickly we would we have realised how much we wanted it?

I still dont know what my calling is yet but you can be sure we'll both find out one day! God has a special plan for each of us!

Be strong and never give up hope, depression is a great lesson for coping skills! And once you find your true inner way of coping through the Lord, it might be that nothing could drag you down into that black hole again!
I certainly dont feel as tho I could get so low any more, not with the Lord behind me!.

Hope that helps, feel free to PM if you want 2 chat xx

God Bless xxxxxxxx

 

[bithiah2]

Hello everyone and blessings to you,

I am looking for people out there who have or are experiencing what I am currently experiencing. About two years ago I moved to a new state to start a new life with my new husband. As soon as I moved here, I knew something was strange because I grew very lethargic and uninterested in the world around me. It turned out that I had a temporary type of depression and was prescribed a low dose of Lexapro 10 mg. to help me. It did. My husband was not supportive and about less than a year later, we ended up divorcing. He said he couldn't deal with my "depression". Finally, my parents were able to move over here and things got a lot better. I started attending counseling and I no longer have to be on the medicine.

I am currently very unhappy in my work. I work as a behavior specialist consultant; I work for families who have children that experience moderate-severe behavior problems. It is an overwhelming job, doesn't pay a lot, and I don't have my own office. I drive to all my appts. and I get no gas reimbursement excpet for mileage reimbursement that I will receive during tax time. I am up to 13 clients right now. I hired a woman who is a job consultant and she works busily submitting my resume to tons of employers. I have already had one unsuccessful interview and I am awaiting the most recent.

I have been suddenly feeling very depressed and in a state of dispair. I don't know what to do. I still seek counseling and my therapist prays with me, my current fiance and parents are aware of my situation and so are my pastors. With all of that, I don't feel a sense of relief. I feel every day locked in this world that I can't get out of.

Does anyone out there understand what I am talking about? I know God has a plan for me, but I dont' understand why I keep running into these jobs that leave me unfilled and when I try to go towards a job that I know I have the qualifications for, I get turned down. I have masters degree for pete sake and I am working on a doctorate. I have experience working in different arenas, I have enthusiasm, and I am a team player. but I keep getting doors shut in my face. Someone told me its because of my age and many people prefer people in the 40's and above to take director's type of positions and people with managment experience. But how else am I supposed to gain mangerial experience if no one gives me the chance?

I just need your prayers. I am feeling deeply depressed and alone. The friends that I used to have back home never call me and I make a huge effort to connect with new people here in this new state, but I have to call them if I should ever gain constant communication. I think that is ridiculous.

My fiance is extremely supportive and I can talkto him about anything. However, I want a larger network of people that I can turn to besides him and my parents. I dont' want my family and my fiance to get tired of me complaining about my job.

I am sorry I have written so much. If you want to reply please feel free to PM me.

Thank you for hearing the cry of my soul and may God bless you,

my sister
you are doing the right thing and going in the right direction for yourself. i already sent you a PM but here is a prayer i used to pray when i felt alone and trapped on the job that i recently left. it was a step of faith but that is not the story here. this is the prayer i found and prayed many times in the past year until I got an answer. I know
God answers prayer:
Dear God who has promised never to leave or forsake us, grant that in my weakness I may know myself to be surrounded by your power. When I am restless and anxious, help me to find peace. Do for me what I cannot do for myself. When my heart condemns me grant me the grace of forgiveness. Fill my heart and my mind wtih your healing and comforting presence. God I feel alone and sad. Help me to live one day at a time, one moment at a time, accepting hardship as a parthway to peace. You give me another day O God, another gift from you. Whatever this day may bring, I place it in your hands. Give me the patience and strength I need during this time of frustration and anxiety. May your peace calm all of my anxieties. In Jesus Name Amen.

 

[inHisgripkim]

Hello everyone and blessings to you,

I am looking for people out there who have or are experiencing what I am currently experiencing. About two years ago I moved to a new state to start a new life with my new husband. As soon as I moved here, I knew something was strange because I grew very lethargic and uninterested in the world around me. It turned out that I had a temporary type of depression and was prescribed a low dose of Lexapro 10 mg. to help me. It did. My husband was not supportive and about less than a year later, we ended up divorcing. He said he couldn't deal with my "depression". Finally, my parents were able to move over here and things got a lot better. I started attending counseling and I no longer have to be on the medicine.

I am currently very unhappy in my work. I work as a behavior specialist consultant; I work for families who have children that experience moderate-severe behavior problems. It is an overwhelming job, doesn't pay a lot, and I don't have my own office. I drive to all my appts. and I get no gas reimbursement excpet for mileage reimbursement that I will receive during tax time. I am up to 13 clients right now. I hired a woman who is a job consultant and she works busily submitting my resume to tons of employers. I have already had one unsuccessful interview and I am awaiting the most recent.

I have been suddenly feeling very depressed and in a state of dispair. I don't know what to do. I still seek counseling and my therapist prays with me, my current fiance and parents are aware of my situation and so are my pastors. With all of that, I don't feel a sense of relief. I feel every day locked in this world that I can't get out of.

Does anyone out there understand what I am talking about? I know God has a plan for me, but I dont' understand why I keep running into these jobs that leave me unfilled and when I try to go towards a job that I know I have the qualifications for, I get turned down. I have masters degree for pete sake and I am working on a doctorate. I have experience working in different arenas, I have enthusiasm, and I am a team player. but I keep getting doors shut in my face. Someone told me its because of my age and many people prefer people in the 40's and above to take director's type of positions and people with managment experience. But how else am I supposed to gain mangerial experience if no one gives me the chance?

I just need your prayers. I am feeling deeply depressed and alone. The friends that I used to have back home never call me and I make a huge effort to connect with new people here in this new state, but I have to call them if I should ever gain constant communication. I think that is ridiculous.

My fiance is extremely supportive and I can talkto him about anything. However, I want a larger network of people that I can turn to besides him and my parents. I dont' want my family and my fiance to get tired of me complaining about my job.

I am sorry I have written so much. If you want to reply please feel free to PM me.

Thank you for hearing the cry of my soul and may God bless you,

Hello Earth Angel:

Have you considered changing your job to something less stressful, yet still soul rewarding. It sounds like you have enough experience that there are other organizations that would love to have your ministry.

There are two articles in my blog that you might find meaningful. One article is about "Contentment" and the other is about "the power of now." I hope you take a peeks and find some comfort in some of the words.

You are in my prayers. May you find God's peace in your heart.

Finding Peace
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We all have a potential for finding inner peace; we need only to let go of the idea that there is something that we need to do first in order to find peace within. ​

The way to be peaceful is to be peaceful.​

We can never find peace through war or strife; it just doesn't happen that way. The only way it works is to start out where we want to wind up, to begin by understanding and knowing that we've already arrived, and to realize all as wholely Divine.​

When we realize that God is everwhere and in everything, it becomes easy to see and love God in all that we do. Every word becomes a prayer, every action a spiritual ceremony, and every morning a holy day.​

I wish to be contented; therefore I am.
I want to be at peace; therefore, I am.
I want to be free of my Body Dysmorphic Disorder; therefore I am.​

In God I am.
In God you are too.​

Your sister in Christ,
Kim