Depression Support

[Eponine]

i think sometimes we have to just keep on without expecting anything... sometimes it's just the fact we want to draw near. I'm not pretending it's easy i find it really hard! I just think i'd rather be focusing on God and His word than any negative feelings
Rs xxx

Well, it's not that I focus on my negative feelings instead. I just try to focus on the positive things and the beauty in the world without getting particularly religious about it. Spiritual, yes. Religious, no.

 

[Restoredsoul]

Well, it's not that I focus on my negative feelings instead. I just try to focus on the positive things and the beauty in the world without getting particularly religious about it. Spiritual, yes. Religious, no.

That's all good hun
Although i would not describe myself as religious. How's things with you?
Hugs
Rs xxx

 

[trinitygrace]

I've never posted on this particular thread before, but I decided I would to let others know I am there for them if anybody needs an ear or some prayer. I too suffer from depression that I inherited from my mom. I've had a hard year. The hardest yet of my life. But things are looking better thanks to the support from my family, friends, CF, therapist and of course, my savior Jesus Christ.

If you are depressed and feel helpless and lonely like no one cares what you are going through - cry out to Jesus! He will take care of you! Every single time I have, He's came through for me! He's never failed and never will! He'll do the same for you! I heard a song today on the Christian radio station in my area called "Praise you in this Storm". I think it's by Casting Crowns. We have to remember that whatever we're going through, Christ is still our Savior. God is still our awesome Father! We have to praise Him for he knows our hearts and "holds our tears in his hands".

 

[snowy27]

Has anyone, through their depression, felt negatively about something that was actually a good event? I have had a struggle since my weddding three months ago. I believe my mind has distorted the happiness my husband and i felt on that day. It really is frightening the extent to which we can tell ourselves lies when depressed. I began to feel angry and blew a few minor mistakes right out of proportion, completely ignoring the positive aspects of the wedding. After we returned from our honeymoon we realised i was suffering from depression. I resumed taking medication and now I am starting to feel much better. I am remembering the day more realistically. I am thankful to have so many wonderful photos and a video to remind me of what a great day our wedding was. However I feel terrible about what I must have put my husband through because of my distorted, unrealistic, negative viewpoint when I was depressed. He says he understands, I'm very lucky that he is so supportive.

 

[Eponine]

That's all good hun
Although i would not describe myself as religious. How's things with you?
Hugs
Rs xxx

It's just that I tend to associate "religious" with the "what I believe is the Truth and if you don't believe what I believe you're going to Hell" types.

Things are still going pretty well here, though the weather has been miserable. It's been mostly overcast for about the past 2 or 3 weeks. That kind of weather is typical for June around here, so it's usually called "June gloom" but this year people have taken to calling it "May gray." Maybe that means we'll have a sunny June this year... who knows. It would be nice to have beach weather for once; we hardly had any last summer. Anyway, enough about the weather. School is out in 2 weeks and I'm pretty happy about that. I'm ready to actually have a life for a precious 3 months. Prom is tomorrow night, though as a Sophomore I can't go. My friend is, however, because she got invited by a Junior friend of hers. I'm rather envious, particularly since I'll be missing my Junior prom while I'm in Spain, but oh well. I also have a voice recital in 2 weeks and a swim meet in 3, which I'm pretty nervous about but also kind of excited. I have a decent chance of getting 1, maybe 2, B times at the meet.

 

[Restoredsoul]

May has been really wet here! Am hoping i will have some sunshine for my wedding photos on Saturday!!

Am doing ok - feeling stressed out trying to get everything ready but i'm doing ok.

I have my beliefs but i do not wish to force them onto anyone or to make judgements about them.

Hugs
Rs xxx

 

[Soulwings]

I'm back to not doing very well. Again.
Suicidal and struggling.

Sorry I've not been in here very much. Hugs to you all.
Love y'all. xxx

 

[TonyL]

I often feel the same way but I always HOPE things will get better.

 

[Restoredsoul]

I'm back to not doing very well. Again.
Suicidal and struggling.

Sorry I've not been in here very much. Hugs to you all.
Love y'all. xxx

Hey hunni,
Have missed you
Sorry to hear that you are struggling - i am thinking of you and praying for you
Hugs
Rs xxx

 

[She]

I'm struggling again too. I just feel like crap. I feel useless and depressed. I cannot see the light. I feel like an old person. I have a low thyroid hormone level but I'm too scared to take the medication because it means I will be stuck on it for the rest of my life. The doctors round here don't want to do too much to help me, like try to find out why I've got a low hormone level or why I've got a pain in my throat where my thyroid is. Sometimes it feels like I'm choking. I have difficulty with swallowing, too. I cannot believe that this is all my life will amount to. I've had people persecuting me all these years and now this. What is the point of my life?

Sorry to bore you all with my problems. Sorry I don't post here often. I've only really got this bad, recently.

 

[Judy02]

I'm feeling pretty low at the moment. I feel pretty frustrated with myself at times. My dad makes comments like "you've got everything going for you...God has blessed you a lot in your life" etc, makes me feel even more frustrated like there's something wrong with me. I.e. I SHOULD be happy,blah. Things aren't perfect, but it's true, I do have quite a few things in my life I could, andmaybe arguably should be happy about, but despite what the external circumstances are...and as much as I'd like to be, somehow my mind just doesn't seem to want to be, its really strange and annoying. If happiness did just depend on external circumstances, surely our mood's would be so much easier to control.

Before I got depression, I used to believe you could make yourself be happy...I don't think I do anymore, haha how ignorant I was!

But, feeling slightly frustrated. I've been sitting my final year of university exams...I came so close to taking a year off and deferring them, but after a LOT of thought and prayer, I've decided to do them, mainly because I think that is what God is leading me to do, and what he would prefer me to do. So to be on the safe side, I did.

Anyway, they haven't gone brilliantly, I'm just not motivated to revise, being depressed, but whether I pass or not, I just wana leave uni for a while, I'm not very good at being academic right now...the depression just gets in the way.

But yeah, I do feel a bit anxious about the future, having an ok job I'll enjoy doing, and just being ok...I guess hoping I will be a bit better after uni, and things are slightly more under control.

I think I'll be switching anti depressant drugs soon, my doc just didnt want to do it, while I was about to sit my final exams. On prozac but don't think its really working.

Anyway, sorry that was a bit of a long rant, just getting some of my feelings for the last few days off my chest. I wish I could just enjoy life, see it as a nice place, and not be so miserable! Haha, I don't enjoy being this way

 

[Restoredsoul]

No one chooses to have depression and no one wants to feel down.

I hate the way people used to think i could just 'snap out if it' - if only it were that simple hey?

The thing is it's not that you can't see the good things in your life, or how you have been blessed etc... it's that it doesn't change the way you feel - and that doesn't make you a bad person.

Having depression does not make you a bad person, christian etc... It makes you a person with depression.

I don't have the answers in how to feel better - i konw for me it was a long road and i'm still travelling it - I don't know when things started to change or how but they did and i guess that's no so useful if you're looking for answers but it's the truth and it's honest and i think the worst thing is when people stop being honest.

Depression sucks - somedays it's a hard slog, sometimes you wonder why me? but then every so often there is that little glimmer of something good and so you strive for it - sometimes you reach and it and you think things aren't so bad - it's all gonna be ok and other days you don't and you think why did i bother?

All i know is that each one of you is a unique and beautiful person and each one of you is loved by God.

Hugs
Rs xxx

 

[She]

I'm getting married on the 27th May

Congratulations!

I hope you have a lovely day.

God bless.

 

[Judy02]

No one chooses to have depression and no one wants to feel down.

I hate the way people used to think i could just 'snap out if it' - if only it were that simple hey?

The thing is it's not that you can't see the good things in your life, or how you have been blessed etc... it's that it doesn't change the way you feel - and that doesn't make you a bad person.

Having depression does not make you a bad person, christian etc... It makes you a person with depression.

I don't have the answers in how to feel better - i konw for me it was a long road and i'm still travelling it - I don't know when things started to change or how but they did and i guess that's no so useful if you're looking for answers but it's the truth and it's honest and i think the worst thing is when people stop being honest.

Depression sucks - somedays it's a hard slog, sometimes you wonder why me? but then every so often there is that little glimmer of something good and so you strive for it - sometimes you reach and it and you think things aren't so bad - it's all gonna be ok and other days you don't and you think why did i bother?

All i know is that each one of you is a unique and beautiful person and each one of you is loved by God.

Hugs
Rs xxx

Great post restoredsoul, thanks!

Yeah I hate it when people say "pull urself together" etc as if we're choosing or want to be miserable, nothing could be further from the truth. And yeah I think its so true. I think being honest about who you are as a person, is one of thefirst steps in trying to help urself, or at least i find its that way with me. i dont see the point in pretending to others im somebody im not

Anyway yeah, wow soon to ur wedding day now hun! Will be praying everything goes well for it!and that ur not too stressed

Many congrats in advance! We wana see pics of ur special day, lol xxx

 

[Judy02]

I'm struggling again too. I just feel like crap. I feel useless and depressed. I cannot see the light. I feel like an old person. I have a low thyroid hormone level but I'm too scared to take the medication because it means I will be stuck on it for the rest of my life. The doctors round here don't want to do too much to help me, like try to find out why I've got a low hormone level or why I've got a pain in my throat where my thyroid is. Sometimes it feels like I'm choking. I have difficulty with swallowing, too. I cannot believe that this is all my life will amount to. I've had people persecuting me all these years and now this. What is the point of my life?

Sorry to bore you all with my problems. Sorry I don't post here often. I've only really got this bad, recently.

Don't ever apologise, feel free to post whenever you need to, that's what we're here for. Depp is really hard sometimes, and we need friends around us

I wish I could say more to help. Do u have many friends or family ur able to talk to? xx

 

[newyorknewyork]

wow RS its only 3 days till yr wedding!!!! CONGRATS!! i hope it all goes well ..maybe u can show us a pic later down the track?

 

[Eponine]

Great post restoredsoul, thanks!

Yeah I hate it when people say "pull urself together" etc as if we're choosing or want to be miserable, nothing could be further from the truth. And yeah I think its so true. I think being honest about who you are as a person, is one of thefirst steps in trying to help urself, or at least i find its that way with me. i dont see the point in pretending to others im somebody im not

Anyway yeah, wow soon to ur wedding day now hun! Will be praying everything goes well for it!and that ur not too stressed

Many congrats in advance! We wana see pics of ur special day, lol xxx

Boy do I know all about getting told to "pull myself together." I hate it too. All it succeeds in doing is making me shut up just when I most need someone to talk to.

 

[Restoredsoul]

wow RS its only 3 days till yr wedding!!!! CONGRATS!! i hope it all goes well ..maybe u can show us a pic later down the track?

I will post pics as soon as i can but i have my honeymoon first We have the rehearsal this eve so it's going to feel even more real!!

Hugs
Rs xxx

 

[Restoredsoul]

Great post restoredsoul, thanks!

Yeah I hate it when people say "pull urself together" etc as if we're choosing or want to be miserable, nothing could be further from the truth. And yeah I think its so true. I think being honest about who you are as a person, is one of thefirst steps in trying to help urself, or at least i find its that way with me. i dont see the point in pretending to others im somebody im not

Anyway yeah, wow soon to ur wedding day now hun! Will be praying everything goes well for it!and that ur not too stressed

Many congrats in advance! We wana see pics of ur special day, lol xxx

I promise you will see pics as soon as i can get them on here

Am not too stressed - not much left to do and i'm just getting ready to enjoy my day

Hugs
Rs xxx

 

[Restoredsoul]

Congratulations!

I hope you have a lovely day.

God bless.

Thanks so much
Rs xxx