Depression Support

[Restoredsoul]

Thanks yeah i am trying to remember to take time outs.

I've been struggling with feeling tired all year, I think I've learnt now its prob due to taking this prozac...but I just about got by, during coursework/teaching sessions, but now the revision period's hit me i honestly am finding concentration impossible...I just feel like a zombie lol! I really wish I'd made the decision to switch meds earlier instead of screwing up finals now, grr!

Anyway I'm seeing someone at uni on monday at 3, to find out if i can get exam deferrals, and how to go about all that. Quite nervous at seeing them hehe, I really wish I could do them now, graduate and be done, but I really don't think I'll be able to right now.
Sorry to hear you've been really stressed, just remember why you're doing it, and pray, God will help plans fall into place and run smoothly. He loves u both, and wants things to go well im sure! God bless xxx

P.S. would it be ok if 1 or 2 ppl could pray that the meeting with the uni person goes well on mon? I'm quite nervous, i dont want the uni to think im being lazy, i do want to do well, but this exhaustion seems to be preventing it at the moment

I'm sure that the uni won't think your lazy at all, is there any time for you to go to your doctor before the meeting and ask him if he can write a letter or something about the effect the meds are having on you?

uni's are really good about illness i was ill in my third year and they were great about it - i didn't need to retake they just changed my exams to a later date- slightly different because i was doing a performance but they were still good.

Just make sure you explain exactly how you are feeling and why - they will want to do everything to help - or they should do.

Hugs
Rs xxx

 

[Restoredsoul]

Lovely? Haven't been called that in a while. Thanks. It's been alright. Not great, but alright.

oh i always call people lovely, sweetie, darling etc... especially the kids i work with! i think it's good for people to be reminded that they are great



Glad you've been ok - thinking of you
Rs xxx

 

[Eponine]

oh i always call people lovely, sweetie, darling etc... especially the kids i work with! i think it's good for people to be reminded that they are great



Glad you've been ok - thinking of you
Rs xxx

*Yawns and stretches* I love weekends. I particularly need this one because of CIF swimming finals on Thursday. I went to cheer on my teammates that made it, which I'm glad I did, but it meant I didn't get to bed 'til 11 on Thursday night and so I was really tired yesterday. I'm talking about the "Wake me up if I doze off during class" kind of tired (not that I actually did doze off during class, though I would have preferred not to have to drive yesterday. I really didn't feel like I belonged behind the wheel when I was that tired but there was nobody around to drive me.)

Anyway, enough about me. How's everyone else here?

 

[AnointedPoetess]

Hi all, have I been forgotten about in here???? Hmm.. I hope not.. anyhoo.. happy mothers day to all the mothers on the thread!!

 

[Godschild]

AnointedPoetess, you will never be forgotten! And Happy Mother's Day to one and all!

 

[AnointedPoetess]

AnointedPoetess, you will never be forgotten! And Happy Mother's Day to one and all!

thanks for saying that.. it was sweet..

 

[Bay]

God loves you immensley more than you could ever imagine and He wants you to use His strength not yours.

I know what it's like to feel this way and i just want to say that we are all here for you If you feel it would help to talk about it.

Know you are loved

Rs xxx

such a sweet thing for you to say. my day was dull only because of the way I percieve things. it's oddly all my doing because I am having trouble finding joy anymore. thanks for your supportive post! i'll get with it soon!

 

[Restoredsoul]

Hi all, have I been forgotten about in here???? Hmm.. I hope not.. anyhoo.. happy mothers day to all the mothers on the thread!!

Of course you're not forgotten! How are you?
Rs xxx

 

[Restoredsoul]

such a sweet thing for you to say. my day was dull only because of the way I percieve things. it's oddly all my doing because I am having trouble finding joy anymore. thanks for your supportive post! i'll get with it soon!

May God remind you of the joy you felt when you were first saved and may you know his peace

hugs
Rs xxx

 

[Soulwings]

*peeks back in*

It's been awhile since I've been here. I was in hospital for 9 days.

How is everyone? I've missed you all.

 

[katylees]

yayay you're back sis It's nice to have you back. IT bought a smile to my face

 

[bfly]

Let's make this a thread where each day (or week.. or whenever).. we can all come on here and share with each other how we are going....

This can be a space for venting feelings, encouraging one another, sharing what we are doing each day, talking about how we are healing and coping, being accountable to each other, relating to each other, sharing what is working 4 each of us, listening, support and anything else!

I am 22. I'm on anti-depressants - Effexor XR. I was abused by my mother verbally, physically and emotionally. My dad took his life. I am healing from the lies I believe about myself because of the abuse from my mother. Obviously I miss my Dad too and grieve that he is gone. Each day I struggle with lies in my head about myself - they don't feel like lies, they feel like the truth because that is what I have been told all my life (by my mother). I struggle when someone is kind to me or compliments me - I get suspicious, I guess I wonder why are they being nice to me? I wonder if they have another motive? It's hard to believe good things about myself. When someone pays me a compliment, it feels like something inside me is rejecting what they are saying. I don't know why. I guess it's because its foreign or something.

I have to fight thoughts that tell me "I must be perfect" or "I am not good enough, because I am not perfect" or "I am worthless and unlovable because I am not perfect". My wonderful husband tells me these are all lies and I have to not believe them. They are maybe from the devil or something. Maybe the devil is using the abuse I experienced to torment me and hurt me.

But I am seeing a psychologist who is doing cognitive behavioural therapy (CBT) with me which is awesome! Its really hard work and I have to keep at it, but surprisingly, it really is working!! Ive been given exercises to do where I go back to the past (in my mind) and "visit" a memory.. a sad memory where I am being abused. Then I get the adult me to go and help the younger me (my "inner child"). It really works!! I was told how to do it and I must admit I was skeptical and pessimistic. It sounded all weird and strange and new to me, I wasn't sure how it could possible work??!! But it does!

I've also been told to keep a journal and write in it regularly. I've been told "its ok" that I don't have much energy and motivation some days- because that is all part of the depression illness. I have to learn to accept that.

I wish I was stronger. I wish I was happy all the time. I think I would be more lovable then. Probably sounds crazy. But thats honestly how I feel.

Anyway, enough babbling from me... lol

I'd love to hear from others.. please share about yourself.. what you are going thru.. it would be great to also hear from some people who had depression and got through it..

Oh, goodness, where should I start.

I am very stubborn, so for that reason, I refuse to let satan use my mind as a battlefield.

I refuse to let a negative thought enter into my mind. I have practiced this for many years, so that really works well for me.

Common sense tells me that for each negative thought there has to be a positive thought. Days when I can't seem to get my thought process to work the way it needs to work, I just sit and not think at all.

I know that God is my Father, Jesus is my brother, and the Holy Spirit is my comforter. Now what more could a human being want or need.

I am a child of the Most High King and his blood runs through my viens. Satan don't want that blood on him. So he won't do something to me that would cause that blood to get on him. Praise God.

I take medication and stay up to date with information that will keep me and my doctor armed with tools necessary to keep my health good.

I have given God complete control of my life and if and when I am not able to make the right choices, then God steps in and takes control.

God gives me a new life every day. It is always exciting to wake up and find out what God has in store for me today.

I have given God complete assurance that if I am not taken responsibility as I should be, then He can bring me to my knees untill I can pour out the garbage that is pulling me down, then get up and praise Him and have full confidence He is in control of my life.

None of us know what tomorrow may bring. This I know whatever it brings, God will bring me through it and I will be the better for it.

Positive thinking, Positive thinking, is the answer or it is for me. Praise God, He put positive thinking in my soul.

I pray God will be allowed to bring peace to others that He has brought to me. All is well, All is well, within my soul. All is well. I live for the Father and He lives in me.

 

[Judy02]

*peeks back in*

It's been awhile since I've been here. I was in hospital for 9 days.

How is everyone? I've missed you all.

Good to see you back darling, I've missed you! I hope you're feeling better, Judy xx

P.S. let me know if you ever need to talk (or anyone else for that matter too!) xx

 

[AnointedPoetess]

Of course you're not forgotten! How are you?
Rs xxx

Awwwwwww RS thanks so much sweetie.. im ok just struggling with Alot! thanks 4 asking... how r u?

 

[AnointedPoetess]

*peeks back in*

It's been awhile since I've been here. I was in hospital for 9 days.

How is everyone? I've missed you all.

Heyyyyyyy SW!! I've missed u Sooo much!! Is everrything ok now?? I've been wondering where you've been.

 

[Eponine]

*peeks back in*

It's been awhile since I've been here. I was in hospital for 9 days.

How is everyone? I've missed you all.

I missed you too. I'm sad to hear why you were gone but I'm glad you're back. I hope you're alright now; I'll be praying.

I myself am doing fine at the moment, though the Spain thing still weighs on my mind at times.

 

[Restoredsoul]

Soul wings great to have you back!
Anointed - i'm good only 12 days til my wedding!!
Laurelin big hugs to you sweetie

Rs xxx

 

[Eponine]

Soul wings great to have you back!
Anointed - i'm good only 12 days til my wedding!!
Laurelin big hugs to you sweetie

Rs xxx

Hugs to you too, RS. How are the preparations coming? IIRC you were a little stressed earlier.

 

[Restoredsoul]

Hugs to you too, RS. How are the preparations coming? IIRC you were a little stressed earlier.

had a day off work yesterday as felt so ill - had a migraine apparently but i have never had one in my life - felt better today - went to work but feel really apprehensive all the time

Think it's just cos it's so near now and i want to be able ot relax and know it will all be fine - but still lots of little bits to do

Hugs
Rs xxx

 

[Restoredsoul]

Hey guys
How are we all doing - it's been a little quiet here recently.
I hope you are all ok - i am thinking of you
Big hugs
Rs xxx