- Mar 27, 2017
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I am feeling depressed about my torture. I am feeling like God does not love me or care about what I endured. I feel suicidal and feel weak against the enemies attacks on me. I wish I had never endured the torture. It damaged me a lot. My body never feels like it belongs to me. It feels like it belongs to my torturers. My mind does not feel like it belongs to me either, it feels like it belongs to my torturers too. I was treated worse than an animal. I wish I could peacefully take my life but I do not know any good ways to peacefully take my life. Why did God let it happen to me? I am praying God sees me and will help mend my heart.