depressed at christmas

[jsimms615]

I don't know why. I have everything to be thankful for. But, this year, I have been depressed the whole christmas season. I couldn't care less what I get for christmas or what we do. I don't know why I feel this way. I have no bad memories that I could associate with christmas. But, I do remember this time of the year being difficult before when I was a teenager.
I find myself getting angry all the time and short with people.
I don't know what to do about it. I'm making myself miserable and others around me.
J

 

[Amin]

I don't know why. I have everything to be thankful for. But, this year, I have been depressed the whole christmas season. I couldn't care less what I get for christmas or what we do. I don't know why I feel this way. I have no bad memories that I could associate with christmas. But, I do remember this time of the year being difficult before when I was a teenager.
I find myself getting angry all the time and short with people.
I don't know what to do about it. I'm making myself miserable and others around me.
J

Iremember one year i didn't open my gifts until the 2nd week of january.
I couldn't tell you why.
Ever since then I've been not in quite the X-mas spirit.
I just realize that's how i feel and go thru the motions for the sake of others. It still isn't fun, but i don't bring others down that way.
Chuck.

 

[tapero]

Hi, I feel kind of down myself too. Just don't know why. But I don't make others feel bad, but you may not mean to - you may just be saying that being that way makes others feel miserable, but your not responsible for how they feel. I can't explain my depression. I do hope you feel better a little lifted by now.

I'm glad your online. I think it helps when you write how you feel. Take care, God bless you, tapero

 

[veganbunny]

I got very down yesterday myself. I feel as though I ruined my family's Christmas. Because I was down my brother called my an attention seeker, which caused an argument between us, resulting in me leaving the table in a "strop". I opened my presents, but I didn't feel very worthy of any of the gifts, as I feel as though I don't deserve them.

 

[jsimms615]

Hi, I feel kind of down myself too. Just don't know why. But I don't make others feel bad, but you may not mean to - you may just be saying that being that way makes others feel miserable, but your not responsible for how they feel. I can't explain my depression. I do hope you feel better a little lifted by now.

I'm glad your online. I think it helps when you write how you feel. Take care, God bless you, tapero

Yes, it does feel a little better to be able to write down how I feel. Even though it doesn't even make sense to me.
I went for a walk today and though it was a little cool and windy it was nice. I have a 45 minute route that I walk a couple of times a week.

 

[harri1974]

I dont like the christmas period i allways have a mental breakdown around this time two separate occassions both around this time i was severely ill and hospitalized. This year i had an anxiety attack and felt ill , i felt i had ruined everyones christmas.

I feel very, very guilty that i dont like christmas after all it is the time we choose to celabrate Jesus' birth and i love him with all my heart.

Hope everyone had a good one, now just new years to get through

 

[discardedsoldier]

I was surrounded by lively people, but I felt like a corpse. I wonder why God keeps me alive. I find no joy in life anymore. I'm just empty.

 

[tapero]

I was surrounded by lively people, but I felt like a corpse. I wonder why God keeps me alive. I find no joy in life anymore. I'm just empty.

Dear Discardedsoldier,

Not all of us are lively. I know I'm not, and I can relate to being a quiet person if you are. I'm so sorry you feel empty. I wish you had some love in your life. Some fellowship, a brother or another believer to come along side you. I pray that for you. It helps. It's helped me a lot to have friends on cf, otherwise, I have no local friends, and yet the love I've gotten to recieve here has helped me a lot.

God bless you, and I see your nick, and I'm sorry you have been treated so poorly. God loves you, God loves you very much. He will carry you through. Love, tapero

 

[veganbunny]

I was very sad to hear that you (discardedsoldier) are feeling so bad. I believe that God is keeping you alive so as he believes in you, sees your potential, and loves you dearly. He knows that you will get through these bad times, and feel better.

I also often feel empty, and wish that I was dead, the only thing I can do is distract myself from my bad thoughts; sleep, do crafts etc

Well, sorry that I'm not much help!