Hey all!
I think topics name says everything. A little about me...so i am 17 years old and started that when i was 16.
At first I was great...so restful...BUT then i just felt myself guilty...Something was telling me itsnt right. I just shouldnt do it. Then that feeling of guilt was growing and growing. But still i coulnd stop i didnt care...i wanted that 5 sec of you know what all the time. I just felt it started to swallow me. I was thinking only about it. I even masturbated once at school. I couldnt study normally...Or just FEEL FEEL love...I wanted that all the time. I was watching that damn porn in order to do it another time. I was in lust it was sick...I DID UNDERSTOOD that it ruins me...5 sec of great fun...heh lol.
I just felt that i became agressive ...If I saw nice girl i had to touch immediately ...FLESH was swallowing my mind... I felt myself isolated.
I just thought WHAT? i am not gonna exchange my spirit for 5 secs of fun. I cant stat in that condition all the time. I couldnt allow flesh swallow everything. Then I tried to refrain. Oh God! it was so hard. Just keep hands far Oh my God!
But most of my tried failed...Maximum was just 1 week without that...I was trying like for 5 months. i even stabbed my hand with screwdriver...i thougt mine might help BUT STILL! It made mad and anxious... This eternal struggle.
But i understood that i amnt able to do without Gods help. I did wanted to purify my spirit. And God HELPED ME! I was praying all the time!
What i was doing.
1) YES I DID CONVINED MYSELF ITS SINFUL AND LUSTFUL!IT CORRUPTS YOU! CHRSTIANS MUSTNT DO IT!
2) repeat all the time this if u wanna do it again.
"Flee the evil DESIRES OF YOUTH, and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart." - 2 Timothy 2:22
3)Dont watch porn or other u know what kind of things.
3) I also started to study harder harder...I had to DISTRACT MY MIND. TRY to find other hobbies.
4) If u still wanna do it DO PUSH- UPS I felt myself much better after it.
5) Again you must be 100% that masturbation is your REAL ENEMY! IT IS ADDICTION. Maybe its ridiculous but Linkin Park did helped me too
! In their song A place for my head... It became my anthem.(ofcourse after prayer)
I'm sick of the tension.
Sick of the hunger.
Sick of you acting like I OWE you this.
Find another place to feed your greed, while I find a place to rest.
and
You try to take the BEST OF ME.
You try to take the best of me, go away.
You try to take the best of me.
You try to take the best of me, go away.
You try to take the best of me.
You try to take the
Gooooo.
Go away, you, try to take the best of me.
Go away, you, try to take the best of me.
Go away, you, try to take the best of me.
Go away, you, try to take the best of me.
Go away, you, try to take the best of me.
Go away, you, try to take the best of me.
Go away, you, try to take the best of me.
Go (Get away from me.) away, you, tried to take the best of me.
Go away, you, tried to take the best of me.
Go away, you, tried to take the best of me.
Go away, you, tried to take the best of me.
Get AWAY from me!
This song was so great. It helped me to struggle alot. Yes i dont touch ANYMORE. I feel myself great. I just fly. My spirit is pure. I just feel it. There is no that burden. I dont want to feel that anymore. I dont want to say again that i dont want to do it each time after I DID IT.
I am 17 right. I do date with girl. Yes we do kiss and hug but i dont feel THAT CALL OF FLESH.THAT LUSTFUL and SINFUL THOUGHTS! I just feel GREAT LOVE in my heart. Love and feelings Yes I DO WANT to marry her.(later ofc).
GUYS DONT exchange 5 sec of fun for your spirit.
I hoped this story will help you all! I am not ashamed of telling and describing it. I DO want to help others.
I think topics name says everything. A little about me...so i am 17 years old and started that when i was 16.
At first I was great...so restful...BUT then i just felt myself guilty...Something was telling me itsnt right. I just shouldnt do it. Then that feeling of guilt was growing and growing. But still i coulnd stop i didnt care...i wanted that 5 sec of you know what all the time. I just felt it started to swallow me. I was thinking only about it. I even masturbated once at school. I couldnt study normally...Or just FEEL FEEL love...I wanted that all the time. I was watching that damn porn in order to do it another time. I was in lust it was sick...I DID UNDERSTOOD that it ruins me...5 sec of great fun...heh lol.
I just felt that i became agressive ...If I saw nice girl i had to touch immediately ...FLESH was swallowing my mind... I felt myself isolated.
I just thought WHAT? i am not gonna exchange my spirit for 5 secs of fun. I cant stat in that condition all the time. I couldnt allow flesh swallow everything. Then I tried to refrain. Oh God! it was so hard. Just keep hands far Oh my God!
But most of my tried failed...Maximum was just 1 week without that...I was trying like for 5 months. i even stabbed my hand with screwdriver...i thougt mine might help BUT STILL! It made mad and anxious... This eternal struggle.
But i understood that i amnt able to do without Gods help. I did wanted to purify my spirit. And God HELPED ME! I was praying all the time!
What i was doing.
1) YES I DID CONVINED MYSELF ITS SINFUL AND LUSTFUL!IT CORRUPTS YOU! CHRSTIANS MUSTNT DO IT!
2) repeat all the time this if u wanna do it again.
"Flee the evil DESIRES OF YOUTH, and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart." - 2 Timothy 2:22
3)Dont watch porn or other u know what kind of things.
3) I also started to study harder harder...I had to DISTRACT MY MIND. TRY to find other hobbies.
4) If u still wanna do it DO PUSH- UPS I felt myself much better after it.
5) Again you must be 100% that masturbation is your REAL ENEMY! IT IS ADDICTION. Maybe its ridiculous but Linkin Park did helped me too
! In their song A place for my head... It became my anthem.(ofcourse after prayer)I'm sick of the tension.
Sick of the hunger.
Sick of you acting like I OWE you this.
Find another place to feed your greed, while I find a place to rest.
and
You try to take the BEST OF ME.
You try to take the best of me, go away.
You try to take the best of me.
You try to take the best of me, go away.
You try to take the best of me.
You try to take the
Gooooo.
Go away, you, try to take the best of me.
Go away, you, try to take the best of me.
Go away, you, try to take the best of me.
Go away, you, try to take the best of me.
Go away, you, try to take the best of me.
Go away, you, try to take the best of me.
Go away, you, try to take the best of me.
Go (Get away from me.) away, you, tried to take the best of me.
Go away, you, tried to take the best of me.
Go away, you, tried to take the best of me.
Go away, you, tried to take the best of me.
Get AWAY from me!
This song was so great. It helped me to struggle alot. Yes i dont touch ANYMORE. I feel myself great. I just fly. My spirit is pure. I just feel it. There is no that burden. I dont want to feel that anymore. I dont want to say again that i dont want to do it each time after I DID IT.
I am 17 right. I do date with girl. Yes we do kiss and hug but i dont feel THAT CALL OF FLESH.THAT LUSTFUL and SINFUL THOUGHTS! I just feel GREAT LOVE in my heart. Love and feelings Yes I DO WANT to marry her.(later ofc).
GUYS DONT exchange 5 sec of fun for your spirit.
I hoped this story will help you all! I am not ashamed of telling and describing it. I DO want to help others.
