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<blockquote data-quote="desperate" data-source="post: 74679407" data-attributes="member: 425488"><p>Thank you for your response. I will tell you my main issue: I have health issues that are making it nearly impossible for me to work. I used to be a high-achieving person. Over time I have been reduced to extreme fatigue, insomnia, breathing problems, etc. I want to be able to be my best self, not be this dysfunctional thing. I want to be able to use my God-given talents. It seems like a total waste. I struggle to do something every day, but it is no where near what I could do if I were in decent condition. I am having a hard time applying Jesus' teachings to my situation. I want to earn money and then use it for charitable works, not "learn how to suffer". I have wondered if God is trying to show me that he does not need my good works. I have wondered if God is "putting me in my place", humiliating and degrading me for some kind of ...purpose? I am continuing to try to heal myself with any protocol that makes sense, but I do not have a "system" for staying mentally OK about this. It's been twenty years like this. There are other issues but this is the main problem. I want to believe God wants me to be my best self, using my abilities, participating in life. I do not want to believe God wants me to be in this condition. I have tried to accept it, but I just can't. I have tried to "praise and worship" in spite of this misery but it is not working. God knows I'm unhappy. I don't even know what praising and worshipping entails. I asked Jesus to comfort me and help me to accept my condition, but so far, I am not feeling any comfort. I tried to tell myself this life is just evil garbage and I was put here to be punished, but it will get better once I die. I have tried telling myself that suffering makes me like Jesus, but it really does not...as far as I know, He had a healthy, busy life until He was taken to be crucified, and then His suffering on the Cross had MEANING! Laying in bed all day because I will black out if I try to stand up is MEANINGLESS. I was born with compassion. I did not need to be tortured into caring about people beside myself. I already did. If anything, this meaningless disease is making me hard-hearted and cold. I do not like what is happening. It's just been too long, too many opportunities were lost because of this. ...I know someone might say, this forces me to rely solely on God...but what do i have a body and a brain for if not to USE them? If I just lay down and say, "I give up, God can take over", I will end up in a gutter! Proverbs warns against not working! Sleep will clothe a man in rags! Etc!!! </p><p></p><p>I appreciate any insight.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="desperate, post: 74679407, member: 425488"] Thank you for your response. I will tell you my main issue: I have health issues that are making it nearly impossible for me to work. I used to be a high-achieving person. Over time I have been reduced to extreme fatigue, insomnia, breathing problems, etc. I want to be able to be my best self, not be this dysfunctional thing. I want to be able to use my God-given talents. It seems like a total waste. I struggle to do something every day, but it is no where near what I could do if I were in decent condition. I am having a hard time applying Jesus' teachings to my situation. I want to earn money and then use it for charitable works, not "learn how to suffer". I have wondered if God is trying to show me that he does not need my good works. I have wondered if God is "putting me in my place", humiliating and degrading me for some kind of ...purpose? I am continuing to try to heal myself with any protocol that makes sense, but I do not have a "system" for staying mentally OK about this. It's been twenty years like this. There are other issues but this is the main problem. I want to believe God wants me to be my best self, using my abilities, participating in life. I do not want to believe God wants me to be in this condition. I have tried to accept it, but I just can't. I have tried to "praise and worship" in spite of this misery but it is not working. God knows I'm unhappy. I don't even know what praising and worshipping entails. I asked Jesus to comfort me and help me to accept my condition, but so far, I am not feeling any comfort. I tried to tell myself this life is just evil garbage and I was put here to be punished, but it will get better once I die. I have tried telling myself that suffering makes me like Jesus, but it really does not...as far as I know, He had a healthy, busy life until He was taken to be crucified, and then His suffering on the Cross had MEANING! Laying in bed all day because I will black out if I try to stand up is MEANINGLESS. I was born with compassion. I did not need to be tortured into caring about people beside myself. I already did. If anything, this meaningless disease is making me hard-hearted and cold. I do not like what is happening. It's just been too long, too many opportunities were lost because of this. ...I know someone might say, this forces me to rely solely on God...but what do i have a body and a brain for if not to USE them? If I just lay down and say, "I give up, God can take over", I will end up in a gutter! Proverbs warns against not working! Sleep will clothe a man in rags! Etc!!! I appreciate any insight. [/QUOTE]
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