Death Dream

[Mcgarick]

Greetings!
I would like to share a dream from God I had back in 2002, April 15th.

This dream came after a time of repentance, and six months before a POWERFUL conviction of sin, original sin.

I had went to bed that night like any other night...I had this dream where I was in the pilot house of a large boat like the kind I work on.
Anyway, it was night and I'm sitting at the wheel of this boat and I'm looking out at the water ahead (boats at the dock) and seeking the moon light play on the water, very peaceful and kind of pretty.

Then, I just slumped over and died......... I then find my spirit floating in this black outer space area that seemed to be huge, like outer space. But with no stars,just total blackness.

After a few seconds or so, I said "LORD where art thou?"

Now, I've got to tell you...I don't normally talk like that, so that was weird, but that is what I said none the less and meant it too.

At the same moment I finished my sentence, I was hurling down a tube or tunnel of light at incredible speed, traveling an enormous distance almost instantly!
I knew in my spirit that I was going where God was, his dwelling place, heaven!
Right before I got there I woke up out of bed...I sat straight up!!! My heart was racing so fast the only thing I could compare it too would be a machine gun.
I lay back down in bed and felt my chest and thought my heart was going to rupture if this continued, because it was WAY OFF THE CHART FAST!!!! I prayed "LORD, please calm it down". He did..
I looked over at my wife's clock and it was around 2am, I lay there praising God for this wonderful dream.
After about 5 minutes of praising God and collecting myself, the Holy Spirit comes and went through me in waves of holy glory for around a minute or so. This was just incredible! and I wish he would come like that again because it was sooo wonderful!

I could really feel my sin, it started to stick out against his purity, i.e Holiness. Nothing specific, just being a sinner.

I could sense his awesome majesty, and his holiness, the weight of his glory made me think," if he increases it, I might come apart at the seams"... literally.

I could also feel his great love and kindness in spades, and that he has me covered by Jesus righteousness. Like his hand was on my shoulder,like a father. It's weird, because there was some fear, but there was deep peace...all at the same time! I was compelled to say thrice, "Your Holy". It just came out of me, it was so overwhelming..

I floated on air for three days after this experience, that I can tell you. My spirit felt dead next to his, he's full of power and life, I'm not.

We are like lifeless shells next to him...

I tell my son, God is heaven, think of heaven as a being,God. He's what makes heaven...heaven! Like he said to Abraham " I am your great reward" It's true. He sure is.

Well, I know this was long winded, but I thought I would post it here and maybe someone will benefit from this experience I had.

May God bless each and everyone of you!

Comments welcome.

P.S It took me a few years to get the death and taxes thing, was God joking with that?

 

[MastersPiece]

That is an awesome experience to have with Papa!
I see in part of this message and experience that the Lord is making you holy ... this is symbolized by how you could sense the amazing contrast of yourself in His light. It's further confirmed by saying "you're holy" three times. Even though it was you who spoke these words in the dream, the fact it was said thrice shows that these are the words of God being spoken over your life (3 = God).
I pray this blesses & uplifts you

 

[Mcgarick]

Hi Masterspiece
Thank you for your observations! I stuggle living a holy life because I'm still a sinner...I can't be sinless yet, but I have forgiveness of sin, grace.

I am aware of sin now. Which is a blessing and can feel like a curse too sometimes, I do strive for a more surrendered life. When the Holy Spirit came I was wide awake and that was after I woke up from the dream.
Yes, he is making me holy, but it is a process. Not being able to do it perfectly is a bummer....His grace is my rest.
I sure try not to take that for granted. I want to walk in the spirit 24-7,and that is a learning process too. Thanks for you comments!

 

[Glorify]

Mcgarik....when I first came to this site....I posted about being taken out of my body and up to heaven and I saw and spoke with Jesus. A nice man told me his experience.....it was exactly like yours!!! But he got to see the outline of a door with light shining thru the cracks!!! I'm going to pm him to come read your vision!!!!!

 

[Mcgarick]

Cool Glorify, Thanks!

 

[Glorify]

I just sent him a note. You need to talk with him. He'll be able to tell you better than me what he felt and saw! It's very similar! Isn't God great that he shows us things we don't fully understand....then he shows others so we can share and help each other understand.

 

[Glorify]

One thing similar to me....Jesus sent me back down to earth and into my body from the light of his face. The light wrapped all around and thru me...kind of like a tunnel. I sat up gasping with my heart racing!!!! It's something you never forget!!!!

 

[Glorify]

When you are in Gods presence you really understand how sinful we are!!!! It's humbling! You also feel his love and forgiveness....I can't wait to see him again!!!!!!

 

[Mcgarick]

Yes, the experience alienated me a little because people generally don't get Gods holiness(think wife) I didn't, until I experienced it.....which really leaves me with MORE questions ...., but I now have some perspective.

When I read the OT when people became afraid of God, I think they were afraid of what there sinful condition feels like around the Holy one....His holiness was the occasion for there fear. Maybe not all the time but sometimes for sure...think of Moses and what he experienced with Gods Holiness, just to stand as he did, he must of been shielded much..I don't know?! It's out there!

Yes! I want to leave the earth and be with God now,which is where we should be... GOD FIRST..(I know he has work for us here) funny, I got the impression in my spirit "Son, this is but a drew drop of my Glory"Like a single mist droplet... I'm paraphrasing there, but that was the jist of it though.. And that "dew drop" was super powerful, about all I could take in the flesh.

Glorify, was you experience a dream or a vision? or you don't know, I would like to hear your whole story about this.....can you link to me where it is??

Thanks

 

[Glorify]

Sadly I can't link you. I was new at the time and posted in the wrong form. The mods deleted it. I will tell you what I saw. I too understand how in the bible they were overcome in his presence because I collapsed at his feet! It is so overwhelming our body's can't take it! And you can't hide from sin in his presence. I guess it was a vision. I was asleep....but awake?! More of an out of body experience. I will tell you what I saw and heard in a bit. I can't wait till my friend gets here and tells you what happened to him!

 

[Tigger45]

Hi Mcgarick; Gorify PM'ed me that we had simular visions. I'm still not sure why they deleted our thread. The funny thing is Glorify and I hadn't conversed for maybe a month or so and at either the Maundy Thursday or Good Friday services I went to we sang a song with the verse "He knows our name". The first thought that popped into my head was wow that's the topic Glorify and I used to share back and forth! Just a little "God coincidence I thought I would share.

Anyway Mcgarick we do have several things in our vision in common. First it was through repentance that proceeded both of our experiences. After repenting I was taken up past the stars to a place of complete darkness. I really don't know if it was a dream or vision or if physically of spiritually. I was positioned on my knees but there was nothing actually under me. All of a sudden the darkness cracked by a sliver of brilliant light in the shape of a door. It only had three sides. A top a bottom and the right side were outlined. It opened a jar alowing more light to come out at which time I got frightened and said "where is Jesus". I heard a voice directly behind me. I'm right here, I just want to show you this Tony". Wow it was like he spoke right into my soul. It's like you have an instant connection with Him. Right after that I was taken back down to my house.

When I have really bad days I think back. I know that I know that there is a heaven and I will be there some day and that's why He wanted to show me at least that much, to encourage me through the tough times.

 

[Glorify]

This happened in my early 20s...I read your profile. We are the same age! I was close to God all my life at that point. There was nothing happening in my life unusual. Things were going well. I was asleep. I just woke up on steps! It was all white. I could see the top step but wanted to see was was up there. There was a top floor with a bannister surrounding all three sides. I was running up the steps but was going no where....imagine running up an escalator that's going down. (You stay in the same spot). I was frustrated and confused...when from behind me I heard a man call my name! I froze! I knew when I heard him that it was Jesus! I prayed to God, "please don't let this be a dream! Please let me turn and see him!!!" I turned. And there was Jesus slowly walking to my right. He was so bright but I could see he was wearing a long robe. His face was brighter than the sun. I was at about eye level with his feet. He was bare foot. I noticed that at the bottom of his robe were 3 layers of material. They looked like triangular rips. He was taking slow steady steps. There was no wind....but the rips of his robe made the sound of thousands of flags blowing in the wind! As he walked...I was able to slowly walk up the steps. He said to me, "do you know who I am?"

I thought to myself, "why would he ask me that?! I knew who he was when I heard his voice?! And...I know he knows I knew his voice when he called my name." So I answered, "yes Jesus."

At that point he was standing on the top step...blocking my view of what I believe was heaven. He sat down...and I collapsed at his feet a few steps down. I was crying. From complete joy (from being near him) and complete sorrow (cause I knew he was sending me back). I wanted to hug on to him and never let go!!! But I felt like I shouldn't do that. So as my head was down...all I could see was his feet and a few of the rips from his robe were lying on the steps by my hand. So slowly and gently I took my finger and thumb and touched one of the pieces of his robe. At that point he took his right hand and put it under my chin. He lifted my head up to look at his face. At first I could almost make it out....but the light got brighter and brighter.....the light grew and grew....it wraped all around and thru me. The light rushed me back to my body!!!!

I think about seeing him almost every day since!!!!

 

[Glorify]

Tigger...it's so nice to talk to you! That's awesome about the song! I too thought of you today when in church scripture was read where Jesus called Mary's name from behind after he had risen!!! God has brought us together even though we have never met face to face! We are no longer strangers thru Jesus!!!!

 

[Glorify]

Friends....there were three sides to the light of the door...and three sides to the bannister that went around the steps. And three times you said "you're holy! 3 is the father, the son, and Holy Ghost.

 

[Glorify]

Oh...and three layers of fabric at the bottom of his robe!!! We keep learning! Thank you Jesus!!!!

 

[Mcgarick]

Glorify, thank you so much for sharing,I read every word and slowly...to take in everything you said. What a beautiful testimony! wow... thank you for taking the time,I believe everything you reported, it all rings true. The beauty of God, who can tell!? You are one lucky lady and I'm am blessed too. I want to walk worthy of God. I do the best I can and hope grace covers me.

tigger45, thank you also for taking the time to type out your thoughts. When you said "
When I have really bad days I think back. I know that I know that there is a heaven and I will be there some day and that's why He wanted to show me at least that much, to encourage me through the tough times.

It kinda choked me up, because it has been really dark, I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy, my marriage, my personal growth (painful) had been put to the crest of trial. God fathered me through the last decade and it has been painful growth. A tough,tough marriage, BUT Knowing God had healed her of Alcoholism over night( yes a real miracle) and seeing her repentance and recomitment..well I'm still struggling with forgiveness but I know she has changed, really hard stuff. You want to talk about dying to yourself.....and doing his will. I feel like I've been force fed. I love God, but tough tough lessons friends. I feel like I'm on the verge of some sunny days..I am due a season of joy. Getting "ahead" in faith is dying to self and its not easy. Life is tough with God or with out God, at least with him will have a hope that will not disappoint us. As both of you know.

 

[Glorify]

Mcgarick....I cried when reading what you just said. I've told about seeing Jesus on this forum a few times. But I haven't shared what I'm about to share with you. I have recently had my eyes opened from God. And for the first time I am reading and studying the bible. (I've always been Christian....just lazy...or not understanding totally....ie....Jesus asked if I knew who he was....I thought I knew. But he knew I didn't really comprehend) Jesus is so smart!!!

What I've learned is that the devil doesn't like it when we experience God....or when we start to understand! He will come after us in our lives. Making it difficult. Hoping we turn our backs to Jesus.

I had just started my life (after seeing Jesus) when the devil slowly worked his way in....very tricky. Sadly...I sinned!!!! Have you ever seen the movie, a beautiful mind? I went from a successful, happy business person....to a crazy, homeless person. I was so angry with God! How could he let this happen to me! Most of my 30s were living in hell. Till one day.....I was at the bottom. I spoke to God and the demons. I told the demons that I would turn my back on them! They could talk to me....but I wasn't listening any more! I would turn back to listening to God if he would take me back. I begged him to forgive me...I said I realized it was me that caused my life and mind to go the path it did...not him. I chose life over death! It took years of slow recovery.....just what you are starting into. But I have to tell you......my life and happiness has been back for years now. I have a good job....a husband and a wonderful daughter! Keep close to God mcgarick!!! You will come out of this so strong!!!!!

 

[Glorify]

I hear God clearer every day! I'm so happy to have met you! By the way...there is another man here who was in the blackness and saw Jesus! His name is eyesee. I'm sure he will read your post soon and tell you what he saw! This is so exciting! I love hearing about people seeing Jesus! There is another man that has experienced God. He was awake! His name is jehoiakim. He will be here soon too. If not....I'll pm both of them. There is something on the Internet that I found that I want all of you to see. I will post it here!

 

[Glorify]

Here it is....he is awake when he sees Jesus. But he experiences a little of everything that each of us has experienced! The blackness...the light...the clouds and Jesus coming from them....the voice from behind....and frozen time!!!!

I SAW JESUS CHRIST WITH MY OWN EYES ! - YouTube

 

[Tigger45]

Hey bud I know what you mean about being in dark times. This last June I lost a good job. With this economy and being in my fifties I was devistated! If it wasn't for the Lord who has provided each step of the way I may have had a nervous break down. It's funny the Lord only provided enough for each day kind of like the Isrealites in the desert. I told myself I would not loose faith. Kind of like when the Apostle Peter said "who else has the words of eternal life?" This life here on earth really is short. The older I get the more I realize that. And Jesus warned us there would be trials in this lifetime, but that He would be there along side with us.