*Cries*

[ToxicBex]

I just want someone to understand. Someone to hug me, to be there for me, to love me, to never leave me. I just want someone to tell me that I can call them any time of the day, and them not to say "I'm sorry, I'm busy" when I do call them. I want someone to actually care about me.

I was gonna tell my Mum today, but we had an argument just before I was going to, so I didnt.

More and more people are finding out, at school, at church...etc...and It's getting to me. I don't want people to know. I want to hide it, but I can't. I want to just run away and not be me. I want to have a new clean skin, and purified body, and to be as good as everyone expects me to be, except even if I was as good as that, they wouldn't think I was, because they all think I'm stupid...

 

[luv4godremains]

*hug*
I don't think you're stupid, and I wish I could help in some way, but I'm praying for you, and I care, even though I don't know you!

 

[Nan1]

 

[oneandlonely]

Aww, hunnie. I am sorry. I wish I knew what to say. But I don't. Just know that if you ever need someone to just listen, send me a pm, and I would be more than happy to give you an ear. I am sorry that everyone is finding out. But I know how you feel. My youth pastor told my parents last night. and I was imformed today, that the whole youth group knows. My friend told me that she has heard other people in the youth group talking about it. They all have seen my scars, I didn't think that they where that bad... lol...

sorry that I rambled

anyways, I am here for you. I know that it is not the same as having someone that you can call. But it is just an idea

Bethany

 

[bassdrum1]

i love u. and i don't think u r stupid. if needed. u can pm me. i wouldn't mind at all. i've been there too. just hang in there.

 

[eccl12.13]

you know what, honey? I do understand. I was involved in si for about eight years and I know exactly what you're feeling. If you want to talk about anything, I would love to help you in any way I can. just let me know what i can do to help.

 

[BlackRain]

 

[Loopi]

*hugs* you have my number. You can ring me any time of day or night. I know its not enough, i know who/what your looking for, and i know its not me, but i know that sometimes just to know you can ring at least SOMEONE is of some comfort.

I promise, i genuinly care about you, 100% care about you, because i can see so much good inside of you, so much potential. You are a great girl hun!

Try and talk to your mum if you want to/think it will help, hopefully you will find a time when you can.

*hugs again*

 

[always_hope]

You're not stupid at all! God loves you.

 

[Victory of the Cross]

Hi Bex you can always PM Me I am here for you

 

[Godslilflutterby]

Hey,
I want to let you know that you are NOT stupid. Infact,you were thought about by your heavenly daddy before you were even born. He thought and thought about you and how to make you untill he finally decided that you were perfect. So in your mother's womb He formed you. He knew EXACTLY how long to keep you in your momma's belly until you were done.
Because of this, I SO know that you are not stupid, my dear! In fact you show of the very beauty of God.
As for how you feel, I know. This is the only reason why I even joined this forum,....but I've been too scared to open up,let people see inside. You've made a wonderful step, that many can't even do. I love you with the love of heaven,..even though I don't know you. You understand me, and for that I love you. Thank you for opening up and reaching for help,...and for helping me!
*ash*​

 

[ChasingADream]

I just want someone to understand. Someone to hug me, to be there for me, to love me, to never leave me. I just want someone to tell me that I can call them any time of the day, and them not to say "I'm sorry, I'm busy" when I do call them. I want someone to actually care about me.

I was gonna tell my Mum today, but we had an argument just before I was going to, so I didnt.

More and more people are finding out, at school, at church...etc...and It's getting to me. I don't want people to know. I want to hide it, but I can't. I want to just run away and not be me. I want to have a new clean skin, and purified body, and to be as good as everyone expects me to be, except even if I was as good as that, they wouldn't think I was, because they all think I'm stupid...

Ok. My eyes just filled with tears because I feel the EXACT same way as you do. I have even said the same thing almost word for word to my boyfriend but he gets angry when I say what I feel because he doesn't understand it. I was alienated from all of my friends when I went to them for help (5 years ago) and that just made it all worse. To this day I still don't have any close friends.

I really hope you feel better. I've read some of your posts in the other topics before and you seem to be a very sweet person.

Try to picture yourself in the middle of this group hug.....

May God Bless You.

 

[PorcelainHeart]

I know how you feel, I tend to hurt myself, I don't think your stupid at all. I know how it feels, God bless you.

 

[amtvball4jesus]

nope, u are not stupid at all. i went thru the same thing. ppl found out b4 i wanted them to. i still have a bunch of scars on my arms and hips but that's a reminder of my PAST! i did s/i - cutting from 2003 - 2004, but i am free of it now. i am healing more and more everyday. it's hard thinking bout what i did, but im doing great of it!

~michelle~