crazed and crazier

[mon_cherri_flower]

what a title huh? it's on my brain though. i feel crazy.
why is my med issue over, but not the symptoms. doc says give it more time. family says they see good changes. me... i feel nuts. my attention span is short. i'm wrestless and unsatisfied with the activies accessable to me. i feel like i'm a prisoner in my body and house.

i don't know what i need. help me Father! you know where i need to be. please take me there.

venting:
i went to lay out in the sun and read. the creepy man across the fence came outside to watch me. creeeeepy. i went back in. i need a freind. i have none. no variance of activities. no friends. creepy neighbors. my house needs spring cleaned and painted. don't have enough money though. my house is ugly. my neighbors have pretty land and houses. i need a truck to go to the dump. that would help. junk junk junk junk. sorry.

i really need an adult in person to talk to.

 

[wonderwaleye]

Dear Mon_Cherri_flower


If the symptoms are still there the meds issue is NOT over.



I wouldn't give them more than two weeks when you get up to dosage level. If your still having symptoms it's time to call the doctor and if he is tired or to busy get another.



By chance are you on risperidone? This is a med that they put me on that would not let me concentrate. I poured my down the toilet and refused to ever take it again.


I surly am not suggesting you do the same. I should of backed off slow rather than all at once and I think that was the reason I went into a very severe clinical depression.



ALWAYS FOLLOW THE DOCTORS ORDERS EVEN IF IT DOES NOT SEEM TO BE WORKING. REASON BEING THEY DON'T KNOW HOW TO ADJUST OR CHANGE MEDS IF YOUR DOING YOU OWN THING.


BUT


Don't let the phone line cool if your not right!!!



You should be symptom free and not even know your taking to meds. I have been for over three years.



One thing I did learn is that they prefer you to be in mild depression because your easy to handle that way. But I did not stand for that!!!



But it took some time before I did what they told me to and then more time to get them right.



It might help to know what meds your on as folks here have a wide variety of experience.


THROUGH IT ALL REMEMBER:




XEven though you can't see Him, GOD is there!O
( click on the X and move to the O ) ( then feel who is around you ) steven

 

[mon_cherri_flower]

free at last! praise the Lord! i felt horrid this morn. forced myself to church. and was prayed for. i'm released from the side effects! woohoo!! God is merciful!!!