I feel like I must be doing something wrong to change so much.
I was raised Baptist. Big church, in church often. Sunday morning, afternoon and evening (sometimes after church events), Wednesday evenings too. I drifted away in later high school when I started driving myself. I spent my college years not in church and "trying out" a few other religions.
Towards the end of my college years I decided Catholicism was it. Went through RCIA and attended Catholic church for several years. My oldest two children were baptized Catholic. After the birth of my third, I discovered Orthodoxy and I've been attending Orthodox services for 18 months. I have met with the priest about becoming Orthodox about 9 months in, but have made no further moves on officially joining the Orthodox church. I do volunteer in Sunday School and have found myself teaching Sunday school about 1/3 of Sundays for PK-K students. I'm not entirely comfortable teaching Sunday school while not being an actual Orthodox Christian, but there was a need and I was willing to help. PK and K is mostly just crafts and coloring.
If you have made it this far, I've come to the heart of my issue. I'm feeling drawn to my old Church, the Church I grew up in. I visited last Sunday and I already feel moving to that Church is the way to go. I don't know if I'm just being rash and rushing, or if the Holy Spirit is calling me to do this, or if it's just in the best interest of my family to do this.
I just needed to let this out somewhere. I don't see my therapist again for a couple of weeks and getting things out usually helps me move through it. I'd appreciate any feedback or if anyone wants to talk through it with me. Thanks.
Hello, I will try to keep this short, here is my personal journey.
I was born into a nominal Mormon household, I was never really exposed to anything else. I really liked going to church, and found myself either in church, or doing something for the church 3-4 days a week. For most of the time that I attended the Mormon church, I had to go alone. At some point there were changes made, and due to my attire, I was no longer welcome to enter the sanctuary, and I had to sit in the lobby and just listen. I did try to enter several times, once I got the hand to the chest, and was shoved out of line, the other time, I was pulled out by my arm, and verbally earned not to attempt to enter again "until you can dress like a real person...I was 12, or 13, and meeting the standards was simply not going to happen. My attendance tapered off, and I stopped going.
I enlisted in the Navy, and left home two weeks after graduation. A few years into my enlistment, I felt the desire to return to church, I attended a Mormon Church in Puerto Rico where I was stationed at the time, and after a few Sundays, I realized that Mormonism was not for me. That decision essentially destroyed my relationship with my family.
I did the Bible Church circuit for a while, it generally felt empty to me, no depth. I also attended services at the base chapel, which was much the same...most of the time.
Then I started to check out Eastern Orthodoxy, The Episcopal Church, and the Lutheran Church.
at some point, I said to myself, "you are adrift in a sea of uncertainty, you have to pick one, so, the Lutheran Church (LCMS) won out.
I would offer the same advise to you, you will have uncertainty until you pick one and stay.
Additionally, I stay away from study of other faiths if I can, it gets to confusing, but I fail sometimes.
Mormonism still rears it's ugly head from time to time, and tried to sow doubt, but I'm good at dismissing it pretty quick.
I wish you the best in your search.