Hello, I'm new to the forum, but have been a lifelong Christian (okay, off and on Christian). Where to start? Well, as my screen name implies, I speak German as my second native language after English (the "CH" is the country code for Switzerland, where my father's side is from). I was born with a syndrome that caused me to get a neck fusion and disfigures in my face. Why does God allow birth defects? Because even though God is perfect, I was born into an IMperfect world. However, as a result, I've been ignored most of my life because...well, I guess people thought I would be hard to make friends with. I don't know what it's like to go out with a group of friends or date a girl. Due to all of that being ignored and isolated, I also grew up with an anger problem, basically mad at the world. Yes, I know Jesus said, "If the world hates you, remember it hated me first." I live by that quote all the time.
Recently, I had a dream where I was chasing after some people who offended me, wanting to get revenge, and I heard a voice from above that said, "Unless you learn to accept Jesus, you're never going to be happy." I stopped right there and instantly felt relieved. I've thought about a career in ministry off and on, but now I know that's what I want. I'm going to visit several different seminary campuses in the fall. I'm already 32, but age is nothing but a number. In fact, Jesus himself was around my age when he started his ministry! It is no coincidence!
One setback, though, is I tend to be hypocritical. That is what has stopped me from applying to seminary school over the years. But then I realized, just because I'm going to seminary school doesn't mean I have to be a perfect person 100% of the time. I'm (pretty) sure there will be other less observant (for lack of a better term) seminary students who drink/get drunk, cuss, have pre-marital sex, and touch. I'm not saying I'm guilty of all those (just some), but I do not need to get into that right now. Doing bad things does not make me (or anyone) a bad person, just human!
I feel since I've been ignored and treated as "invisible" most of my life, I've learned to think of my existence on this Earth as an unbreakable bond between me and God/Jesus. I've ALWAYS got a friend in Jesus, and hopefully some online friends here, and even more friends in seminary!
I do not know if I want to become a pastor and preach on Sundays (though I could consider that as something to fall back on), but rather, I'd like to go into pastoral counseling, summer camp/retreat leadership, third-world missions, or the like. I'm also considering being a campus minister. I know that counselors in general will not be phased out by technology because people will always want a living, breathing human to talk to about their problems.
Recently, I had a dream where I was chasing after some people who offended me, wanting to get revenge, and I heard a voice from above that said, "Unless you learn to accept Jesus, you're never going to be happy." I stopped right there and instantly felt relieved. I've thought about a career in ministry off and on, but now I know that's what I want. I'm going to visit several different seminary campuses in the fall. I'm already 32, but age is nothing but a number. In fact, Jesus himself was around my age when he started his ministry! It is no coincidence!
One setback, though, is I tend to be hypocritical. That is what has stopped me from applying to seminary school over the years. But then I realized, just because I'm going to seminary school doesn't mean I have to be a perfect person 100% of the time. I'm (pretty) sure there will be other less observant (for lack of a better term) seminary students who drink/get drunk, cuss, have pre-marital sex, and touch. I'm not saying I'm guilty of all those (just some), but I do not need to get into that right now. Doing bad things does not make me (or anyone) a bad person, just human!
I feel since I've been ignored and treated as "invisible" most of my life, I've learned to think of my existence on this Earth as an unbreakable bond between me and God/Jesus. I've ALWAYS got a friend in Jesus, and hopefully some online friends here, and even more friends in seminary!
I do not know if I want to become a pastor and preach on Sundays (though I could consider that as something to fall back on), but rather, I'd like to go into pastoral counseling, summer camp/retreat leadership, third-world missions, or the like. I'm also considering being a campus minister. I know that counselors in general will not be phased out by technology because people will always want a living, breathing human to talk to about their problems.