Confused...

[GraceLikeRain06]

I am totally new to this site, first post ever, I used to be on lifeteen.com and I got eaten alive when I posted a thread similar to this. Yes, I'm a teen, a confused teen with very strong moral and ethical standards and rock solid faith... and that's what brings me to this site as opposed to any other...

I've come to the realization over the past... 12 or 13 years that I indeed am attracted to women... It took me until this year to finally admit to myself that I have a problem. I'm fighting a battle. I carry a cross. I came out to one of my dear friends and spiritual advisers and having her there to talk alone in itself has helped me tremendously!

I guess I'm here to see if anyone out there can reach out to me and tell me that they know where I'm coming from... This spiritual adviser got me in contact with another girl she "mentored" with a similar situation who is now happily married to a man and is living a great life... Her story wasn't always beautiful tho... She and I have talked and sorted some stuff out... but I still need to discuss this more I guess...

I'd be lying if I told you that I didn't like the "high" that I got from lust... But I know that it is sinful... Yaddah yaddah... I know the deal... I've read the bible... Like I said, firmly grounded beliefs here... HOWEVER I don't believe that God intended me to be homosexual.

I guess this is where the battle really picks up speed... I constantly wonder if this may just be Satan's game to pull me to his side? I'm not budging... Jesus is my reason for living... At the same time, I wonder if I was born this way? I am not God. I will never be God. Neither you nor I will ever know what God truly thinks and wants from us... But I have a hunch that this isn't it... Not for me anyway...

Anyway... This is my cry for HELP! If someone is out there... anyone at all... please respond with your thoughts, questions, comments, ideas... I beg of you, don't bash... This is a Christian site... I'm really sensitive... and I'm just looking for help...

Thanks!

Love, light, blessings,

GraceLikeRain06

 

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[Johnnz]

You haven't mentioned your age. This can be an issue for some teenagers mainly due to sexual maturity that has not been integrated fully. Thus, it can pass.

Sometimes trying to repress one's sexuality (anything sexual outside of marriage is lust) leads to issues that don't add up to one's moral beliefs.

Sometimes bad experiences with male(s)can distort things.

Do you feel like sharing any more detail. PM if you want privacy.

Bless you
John
NZ

 

[GraceLikeRain06]

17.

Haven't done anything that violates sexual exploitation of myself or anyone else for that matter... Like I said, firmly stand upon my moral and ethical values.

Haven't had any bad experiences with males... that I can recall.

No idea what PM means... LOL!

 

[FindingaWay]

Sweetie, I know how you feel.
I was in your position.. and married because I thought it was God's will, and he would change me.
It has not been easy, and He hasn't changed me yet....
It is very hard when your beliefs conflict with your feelings... and that is something you have to work out for yourself, with God.
The only advise I would give you is, stay honest.... don't pretend to be something that you are not, keep looking to God, and He *will* show you a way through.

If you want to talk, or ask anything, please PM me (private message... click on someone's name and choose it from the dropdown menu! )

Praying for you, sister.

 

[GraceLikeRain06]

I'm still attempting to work up my 15 posts... it won't let me "PM" anyone until I do that... I'm so glad that other people can relate... I don't feel as alone anymore!!!

 

[Johnnz]

Go posting! A new status beckons.

John
NZ

 

[FindingaWay]

I'm still attempting to work up my 15 posts... it won't let me "PM" anyone until I do that... I'm so glad that other people can relate... I don't feel as alone anymore!!!

Well, only 3 to go!
You are not alone, sister.. and God loves you, unconditionally.

 

[Mr.Cheese]

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[Zunalter]

Sister,

First off, I have to say that I am encouraged that you are even posting your issues like this. It is hard enough to admit you need help with such a sensitive topic, doubly so if you got "eaten alive" the last time you reached out for help. I am also encouraged that you have a proper understanding of the moral implications of your situation. We are definitely trained in this culture to determine morality by personal feelings, so I am thankful that yours is based on the Word of God.

I just want to encourage you to stay faithful. Whether this is a random product of our fallen world, an attack from Satan, or an issue allowed by God for a specific purpose, our responsibility remains the same. I also want to be realistic in stating that this issue may never go away. As I am sure you are well aware, Paul had a similar situation:

(2 Cor. 12:7-9) Because of the surpassing greatness of the revelations, for this reason, to keep me from exalting myself, there was given me a thorn in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to torment me--to keep me from exalting myself! Concerning this I implored the Lord three times that it might leave me. And He has said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness " Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me.

I will be praying for a full cure for you in this. Also, I will pray that regardless of the outcome, you will be deepened and strengthened in your faith. God Bless!