I am not exactly sure how to start this post, but I just feel I need to express these confessions. They are not fun to talk about, but I feel if I don't talk about them.. they will just get worst. I want to hold myself accountable and be the better person.
Work recently has been pretty difficult to go to. We lost 5 employees within 3 weeks due to many reasons, and today I almost got fired for lying.
I wonder off from my station a lot to go to the bathroom to look at my phone. I do it to de-stress because my job isn't that easy and I know that is very unfair for others who have to do their end and can't even go to the bathroom without someone to cover them. I just couldn't help myself. I been leaving items dirty and been pricing them way too low. (i am a pricer at a thrift store) My 10 minute breaks become 20 minutes, and that is what got me in trouble today because I lied about it... and that is the first time lying in a long time.
I just feel awful how I am doing this. I know its not right and I never feel good when I fall into these weaknesses. Its pretty obvious I don't like my job, but I do love the people and what the company does to help others in need.. so I gotta pull through until I find something that works for me sometime later. My manager feels I am the sweetest person in the place but maybe the position isn't right for me and therefore she will move me to doing something else. But I still have to hold myself accountable for my actions.
I want to be a better person. I know my manager can't take away my breaks for all the time I wasted, so I will not give myself breaks for a few weeks to discipline myself to not do these things and have a certain time to go to the restroom. But I know I am weak.. I am just so weak it sucks... So please pray for me that I will straighten up. I want to be better than this, and I want to be a good influence on people. This will get me no where good in life if I keep doing this.
Thank you for your prayers. v__v' (This was incredibly tough to even mention)
Work recently has been pretty difficult to go to. We lost 5 employees within 3 weeks due to many reasons, and today I almost got fired for lying.
I wonder off from my station a lot to go to the bathroom to look at my phone. I do it to de-stress because my job isn't that easy and I know that is very unfair for others who have to do their end and can't even go to the bathroom without someone to cover them. I just couldn't help myself. I been leaving items dirty and been pricing them way too low. (i am a pricer at a thrift store) My 10 minute breaks become 20 minutes, and that is what got me in trouble today because I lied about it... and that is the first time lying in a long time.
I just feel awful how I am doing this. I know its not right and I never feel good when I fall into these weaknesses. Its pretty obvious I don't like my job, but I do love the people and what the company does to help others in need.. so I gotta pull through until I find something that works for me sometime later. My manager feels I am the sweetest person in the place but maybe the position isn't right for me and therefore she will move me to doing something else. But I still have to hold myself accountable for my actions.
I want to be a better person. I know my manager can't take away my breaks for all the time I wasted, so I will not give myself breaks for a few weeks to discipline myself to not do these things and have a certain time to go to the restroom. But I know I am weak.. I am just so weak it sucks... So please pray for me that I will straighten up. I want to be better than this, and I want to be a good influence on people. This will get me no where good in life if I keep doing this.
Thank you for your prayers. v__v' (This was incredibly tough to even mention)
