confession and prayer request

[AJB4]

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[HoneyComb Son]

sigh..its still not going well with me..sigh...like i really dont know myself..i really dont....I think alot of people dont understand what i am going through..even I myself dont..i have listened to lies for so long...and thought they were truth and of who I was..but now it has made me uttlery confused..and I cannot see anything..about myself or God..i just dont want to see..because i am affraid..i feel like i am always lying...that i have to live under this way of living.which causes only personal death and shame and being unable to tell the truth..i cannot even hear God anymore..which isnt completely true..i hear Him.but i dont know what is exalty from Him...i do know though..satan has used the word..even truth..well "truths"..for my destruction..i keep hearing i love you.and hearing all this stuff that sounds nice..but then again..it is a nice layered cake.but the inside is death.and i am confused..i have no heart for God..i just keep falling.i pray and do all i can..but how can you go forward.when you dont even belive you can.when you believe you are always lying ..that there is no good in you..and the lies end up being true..like they have changed me...into someone i dont want to be...i know alot of people wont understand..but there something wrong in me.that prevents me from repentance.and believing.i just cant believe.i cant tell the truth though i try all the time..to be honest..everything to me feels like a lie...i keep praying to God and listen....but what i hear..scares me...though i know God speaks..all the things i have heard in the past..just..sigh

i cant move forward..at any rate..i dont know what really is wrong with me at all..i just know i keep sinning.and my relationship with God isnt right

satan just keeps lying to me.and i am affraid of walking with God..cause I am in the middle of the road..between the world and God

i cant see at all..though i prayed for GOd to help me see.i just dont want too..because i dont want to hurt as much as i did in the past.and sigh.i dont care anymore..if i live in sin..so what?...i feel like i would rather destroy myself then anyting

i am quite confused.i haent given up..just lost..alot of people understand .even i dont really..

just pray that i can see.and the questions that torement me.God will help with.

maybe i dont want God's will for my life..i think that is it..even to the point.where i know i will walk away from Him..crippling my faith

 

[Amin]

Hi,
Ya know from reading your post it seems to me you are repentent.
You keep saying how you don't like sinning, and how it cripples your faith.
It sounds like when you talk about it, you DON'T like it but want help.
When God speaks to us He'll never lie or say anything that would be bad for you.
If you feel those things you hear
are for your good, they're from God, But if you think they're things God wouldn't ask of you, then it probably isn't Him.
You say you're doing all you can do, praying, reading Gods' word, etc.
Just a thought.
Instead of trying to do everything you feel is right, pray about what you need then back up a little and allow God to do what he does best.
Sometimes we want things so badly
that we run ahead of Christ not waiting for Him. Slow down a little
try and rest in Him for a while instead of doing those things you're doing.
I do the same thing at times.
I want things so badly that i run ahead of Christ and take over for myself.
Remember that because we're forgiven, doesn't mean we're going to be sinless. We all sin, and God
is there when we ask for it to forgive us.
The bible also says that when we ask for and receive forgiveness, God
forgets the sin as tho it never existed.
I really Pray that God Help you see the right path to take.
Bless You.
Chuck.