Hello, everyone! 
I was raised by Christian parents. My mother was Catholic and my father was Protestant. I had great faith in Christianity as a child, but was tested at the age of eleven, when my father, who I loved so much, became sick with cancer and eventually died because of it. He was a faithful Christian to the very end.
I lacked understanding and turned my back on Christianity. I felt my faith was sincere and yet it seemed to fail me when I needed it most. I have always been in search of the truth, though. I have studied so many different religions during the years after my father's death.
Most of the world's religions teach the same principles, and so I enhanced my search for understanding by embracing the occult. I have practiced astrology, witchcraft, divination, and had embraced atheism, which led me to embrace Satanic philosophies - which basically means I put myself above everyone else and threw away any concepts of forgiveness. I also have a deep understanding of traditional Satanic practices, although I have never practiced them. I am well versed in gnosticism and all new age spiritualism.
I value science and history. I have studied the different schools of science quite extensively. Quantum physics has been a favorite of mine, giving birth to ideas such as the "zero energy universe theory" which suggests that all could have been created from nothing.
My life was filled with hate, though. I had such terrible thoughts they almost destroyed me. Recently, I have realized and accepted what the truth is, and that is why I made the title of my introduction "Coming Full Circle," because that is exactly what I have done. I am now in a very unique position as a Christian, since I have been exposed to so much. I know that was the will of God, and will help me so much as a Christian. I am so very thankful that God never left me during the times I would write and speak so much against Christianity. I hated Christianity, because I thought it was a lie forced onto me by my parents. When I discovered the truth for myself, I still wanted to reject it, but there is something within that never gave up on me, something that rational thought could not even touch. I missed praying. I missed forgiving. I missed so much and realized the amoral world I had created was not the reality. We live in a world of good and evil, and I believe every person can distinguish between the two and act accordingly. I have always wanted good for the world, and yet I realized I had embraced a philosophy that is uncaring and unforgiving. I realized I had been deceived, perhaps during a moment of great weakness, which opened the doorway to greater deception and greater weakness.
Again, I am so thankful that God was with me, because I had so much hate in my life towards everything, but somehow I restrained myself from acting on those feelings. God turned my hate into love, and it feels wonderful. That is why I am here today. I believe it was God's will for me to travel that unique path of learning, so that when I came home I would be able to communicate the truth of God's goodness to people from all walks of life, especially to those that have fallen into a world of evil that is uncaring, unforgiving, and seems so very hard to escape from.
It is my hope that I will contribute to this forum in a positive way.
I was raised by Christian parents. My mother was Catholic and my father was Protestant. I had great faith in Christianity as a child, but was tested at the age of eleven, when my father, who I loved so much, became sick with cancer and eventually died because of it. He was a faithful Christian to the very end.
I lacked understanding and turned my back on Christianity. I felt my faith was sincere and yet it seemed to fail me when I needed it most. I have always been in search of the truth, though. I have studied so many different religions during the years after my father's death.
Most of the world's religions teach the same principles, and so I enhanced my search for understanding by embracing the occult. I have practiced astrology, witchcraft, divination, and had embraced atheism, which led me to embrace Satanic philosophies - which basically means I put myself above everyone else and threw away any concepts of forgiveness. I also have a deep understanding of traditional Satanic practices, although I have never practiced them. I am well versed in gnosticism and all new age spiritualism.
I value science and history. I have studied the different schools of science quite extensively. Quantum physics has been a favorite of mine, giving birth to ideas such as the "zero energy universe theory" which suggests that all could have been created from nothing.
My life was filled with hate, though. I had such terrible thoughts they almost destroyed me. Recently, I have realized and accepted what the truth is, and that is why I made the title of my introduction "Coming Full Circle," because that is exactly what I have done. I am now in a very unique position as a Christian, since I have been exposed to so much. I know that was the will of God, and will help me so much as a Christian. I am so very thankful that God never left me during the times I would write and speak so much against Christianity. I hated Christianity, because I thought it was a lie forced onto me by my parents. When I discovered the truth for myself, I still wanted to reject it, but there is something within that never gave up on me, something that rational thought could not even touch. I missed praying. I missed forgiving. I missed so much and realized the amoral world I had created was not the reality. We live in a world of good and evil, and I believe every person can distinguish between the two and act accordingly. I have always wanted good for the world, and yet I realized I had embraced a philosophy that is uncaring and unforgiving. I realized I had been deceived, perhaps during a moment of great weakness, which opened the doorway to greater deception and greater weakness.
Again, I am so thankful that God was with me, because I had so much hate in my life towards everything, but somehow I restrained myself from acting on those feelings. God turned my hate into love, and it feels wonderful. That is why I am here today. I believe it was God's will for me to travel that unique path of learning, so that when I came home I would be able to communicate the truth of God's goodness to people from all walks of life, especially to those that have fallen into a world of evil that is uncaring, unforgiving, and seems so very hard to escape from.
It is my hope that I will contribute to this forum in a positive way.
